ok, new years resolution, even though i said i wouldn't.

LISTEN TO THE ADVICE I GIVE TO OTHERS!!! TAKE MY OWN FUCKING ADVICE!!! GAHHH!!!!

i kind of hate how much i can give everyone else great advice, but i don't do those exact things i suggest for others.

MUST work on this.

ok, today looks a bit brighter ( Read more... )

and the news just keeps on getting worse. i have way too much time to myself to sit and wallow ( Read more... )

"Insanity: doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results." - Albert Einstein ( Read more... )

by the way, i wish you would write me even half of what i write you. tell me what you're thinking, feeling about what i write, or just in general.

i don't know if you looked at postsecret this week yet. but one of the cards and responses made me think of our own ritual with postsecet, even over the phone a few times. and it made me think of another thing I'm not sure you quite understand or think about. My pain is so much deeper than I believe you think it is ( Read more... )

I hung out with Abe tonight. It was the best and worst decision I have made in recent time. It was strangely normal, the two of us hanging out. I am also really glad that my first time seeing him since the breakup was just the two of us, with no campus interruptions. As much as he hurt me, I knew I would have to see him eventually, as I plan to ( Read more... )

I give up trying to understand people. They all piss me off ( Read more... )

it hurts, i can't help it. i want to believe all of my friends, i want to think i will be fine, and that it gets easier. i want to want better for myself. but part of me thinks it never will get easier. no matter how melodramatic that sounds, being so guarded for so long, after thinking my little lust pains had been so terrible, it feels as though ( Read more... )

Is it worth it?

I hope so.