ggggguuuuuuuuuuuuuh ( Read more... )

rabbit's cage is starting to smell already-- is unbelievable. just changed it recently! got him back from grandparents' house last night. went to sleep relatively early, likely before 12 or 12:30. then, woke up today around 6:45am but went back to sleep several times. am supposed to see kathleen or jess later, depending on if jess calls me ( Read more... )

friends on tv. had my leftovers from uno's-- slightly unsatisfying weird flat thin pizza. went out to mall with ryan today, wandered around after lunch looking for fun, or stuff. he bought a couple of movies in sat. mat., the original 1950's Dawn of the Dead and some swedish film....without subtitles. we watched it when we got home later, but ( Read more... )

birthday is in two days. will be 23. immensely exciting day coming up-- first birthday at which ex-boyfriend will not be present. sucks majorly. blatantly ignored all of friends' birthdays so do not expect, or even want, friends making fuss over self on day. wouldn't know what to make of it anyway. if i was a normal human being, my friends ( Read more... )

have just cleaned out rabbit cage. was pleased with success of cage cleaning, apparent rabbit satisfaction, etc., until observed rabbit eating own feces in cleaned cage. also, hands now smell of mysterious water-supplement vitamins. ugly thick yellow color. ugh ( Read more... )

i haven't heard from him in weeks now. every extra day is like a poison dart. soon i'll have more poison in my veins than blood. (how emo, i know ( Read more... )

i'm farther away and closer at the same time. i don't remember the last time i was genuinely this confused. what's the confusion about? i don't see ryan offering me anything. he hasn't returned my call in three days. which is funny, since i was returning his call. i have david. but is it enough? could it work? what do i really want? this ( Read more... )

susie's eyes look so blue when i check them in the rear view mirror. so clear. i take the turns gently and her eyelids droop with the motions. i smile at her sleeping face and think about what i'll make her for dinner ( Read more... )

so here's the thing ( Read more... )

things i've done/been doing and why i'm proud of myself ( Read more... )