free time?
so I had this idea. You know the idea that after 18 years of being a slacker (well 5 anyways) I could get all motivated and stuff, since it's spring time. yeah. So I decided i could work full time at a gas station, while mataining my job at EPL (because I love working in a library and I want to work there and also through workstudy next school year) while also preparing for exams.
My excuse was that I could work way too fricking much this year and buy a car and move out and all that crap, and then spend next summer traveling and looking for adventures, and being idealistic, and listening to my heart. Because you see, I'd finally have money to do it.
Yeah.
That was retarded.
This was the longest day of my life.
People are jerks.
I worry WAY too much. which leads to...emotional outbursts...
I don't want to quit the dumb libarary. I like books.
I'm willing to be poor forever.
And if they are going to put me on the busiest fricking register on my second day they should at least give me some damn training. And if I have to work 8 hours, I should probably get a break in there somewhere...15 minutes even.
And relationships suck. I hate relationships.
And if you are in a satisfying relationship, I fucking hate you too. bitch.
And does anyone know where I can get some uppers? I don't have time to sleep until after exams.
The worst part of it all? This is all my damn fault. Damn existentialists. *shakes fist*
end of rant.... for now.
p.s. I did however, make a new cool new friend today. So if you are reading this, Mr. Cool New Friend, i don't normally whine as much. lol. And I'll call you back when I have time to think.