I hold my pillow every night wishing you were with me. I take a deep breathe and close my eyes and see you. Always blurry and unclear, I roll over and let an arm hang off the bed. You're so close, yet so far.

I know you read this...
But I dont think you know it's about you.<3

im not going insane, i AM insane. Ever since i got here there has been nothing but cold weather. I slept all yesterday when i got home (around 4) then i slept all today. I finally hooked up the computer *yay* but i had to look for it first. She just moved in here a few months ago and didnt unpack the computer, so i had to go through 20 boxers to ( Read more... )

It's time for a real Jez post. This means this isnt pg. Its fucking h-core. ive been trying to be nice BUT THAT'S NOT ME! IM THE COLD HEARTED BITCH THAT HATES EVERYONE AND EVERYTHING. THE GIRL THAT SAYS SCREW YOU WHEN YOU CRY, THE GIRL THAT SAYS FUCK OFF WHEN YOU NEED HELP...AND TO ADD SOMETHING IM THE LAZY ASSHOLE THAT NEVER WANTS TO DO ANYTHING. ( Read more... )

*STRANGEST: Jez

whhy thank you

Everyone changes. most of the time you dont notice. this time i do. i had a wonderful, beautiful talk with lewkiss (yes beautiful) he made me think about a few things. I now think im ready for something that i have been pushing aside for a really long time. all i have to do is find it. he says i should give it a shoot. he told me the ups, he told ( Read more... )

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once again im up and i have no reason whhy, its 430 AGAIN and people are starting to sign in haha. up early are they. AT THIS TIME thursday i will be waking up and showering and getting ready to go to the airport, but until then i have 3 days left. i work tomorrow, i work tuesday then hopefully i will do something with marlo. i went to a show ( Read more... )

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