I think that if I were to ever give a speech to a large crowd about not committing suicide it would be that once you've decided to kill yourself you may as well go do ANYTHING ELSE.
Change EVERYTHING about your life because if you're going to die anyway why not try something completely and utterly new?
The context is so much more important than folks seem to realize.
The context is what nearly did me in, just little more than half a year ago. I had to remind myself that once things've changed and once I've done this and that and the other, it'll get better.
And it is.
I'm glad that you didn't take that step, and that you found a way to pull yourself out of that hole. I'm still working on the climbing out, but at least I want to live again.
I'm sincerely sorry that you're still in the hole, that you ever were to begin with. That being said, I'm glad you want to live and that you're climbing out.
It can be really hard but I promise its worth it.
If you ever feel yourself backsliding feel free to shoot me a message. I can't promise to have any good advice but I can promise to read anything you have to say, to take it all in, to be here as a sounding board if nothing else.
The funny thing is that the people who I first realized cared were absolute strangers. They went out of their way to make my life easier, not because it did anything for them, but because I was a human being who was (very bad at hiding the fact that he was) in pain.
It has been over two years since I left on that journey now and sometimes I still tear up thinking about the things people did for me.
I totally agree with you, sometimes total strangers are your "new friends". Sometimes the friends you meet or family in your life aren't worth keeping. Life is too precious. I'm pleased to hear you are coming out of the pain you've been experiencing.
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Good to see you back again! :)
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Nice to meet you.
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Change EVERYTHING about your life because if you're going to die anyway why not try something completely and utterly new?
The context is so much more important than folks seem to realize.
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And it is.
I'm glad that you didn't take that step, and that you found a way to pull yourself out of that hole. I'm still working on the climbing out, but at least I want to live again.
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It can be really hard but I promise its worth it.
If you ever feel yourself backsliding feel free to shoot me a message. I can't promise to have any good advice but I can promise to read anything you have to say, to take it all in, to be here as a sounding board if nothing else.
Good luck.
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The funny thing is that the people who I first realized cared were absolute strangers. They went out of their way to make my life easier, not because it did anything for them, but because I was a human being who was (very bad at hiding the fact that he was) in pain.
It has been over two years since I left on that journey now and sometimes I still tear up thinking about the things people did for me.
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I hope those tears are tears of joy.
Good to see you again around Idol!
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