Day 4

[jg1234567]

I'm so full of rage today. I've literally been shaking since I left the house this morning. I want to destroy everything in sight, ram into slow/annoying drivers and generally fuck shit up for no good reason. I hope this goes away soon or I'm going to destroy something important. Please let this go away. God, please don't let anyone piss me

Comments

[denshi]

I've definitely experienced that when withdrawing from nicotine, but it is usually dampened by the sedation and lack of focus due to the same withdrawl. Sounds like the meds are compensating for some of that loss and leaving you more capable of feeling the rage.

It'll mostly pass in a few more days, but not entirely, as the world is a basically infuriating place that makes a person want to smoke/eat/drink something to numb the anger and pain. OTOH, improved health can raise your mood and capability to deal with the fury.

I think most addictions are maintained in pursuit of emotional stability. Sobriety means mood swings, but one learns to handle it.

[silverize]

hang in there, it's friday!