Inside of the Earth
Title: Inside of the Earth
Pairing: Kradam, mentions of Mavid
Rating: PG-13
Word Count: 1920
Summary: David Cook tells Kris exactly what he needs to hear
Disclaimer: Not real, unfortunately.
Author's Notes: I don’t remember what night Cook pretaped his performance, so I’m pretty sure I decided it was the night Sarver went home. Title from To Make You Feel My Love
Kris doesn’t know how he got here. Sure, Adam captivated him from the moment the two contestants met in Hollywood, but at the time, he was just expecting that a friendship would form. The semi-finals started and when he was assigned to Group 2, he was really happy. Matt was his good friend from their Hollywood group. Allison is so good for being only 16 (even though Kris knows how clichéd that sounds). Plus, she’s pretty fun, too. But once Kris learned that he was in Adam’s group, and that you spend all of your time in the semi-finals with your group and only your group, Kris knew that his experience was not going to be anything like he expected.
And still, Kris had no idea how his relationship with Adam would develop. He knew he liked the guy. Adam was nothing like anybody he had ever known, and a youtube search of his old work certainly conveyed that. But when he, Allison, and Adam made it through to the top 12 and had to do so many interviews together, everything changed.
Finally, it seemed like Adam was paying as much attention to Kris as Kris was to him. The level of intensity to which Adam treated his fellow contestant was almost unnerving, in a way. A gaze that lasted for just seconds too long, a light touch on the arm every time Adam passed the younger man, and Kris was going insane. He was longing for Adam in a way that he had never done before. He wanted to be around Adam always. Kris felt kind of empty without his wife around and even though it was so, so wrong, he needed someone to pay attention to him the way she did. Oddly enough, Adam seemed to be filling that role.
Then, Adam told Kris that they were going to be roommates in the top 13 house, Kris was a bit confused. He thought they could pick whatever rooms they would like, but was he assigned to Adam? But nope, Adam said, he just really wanted to share a room with his favorite male contestant there, and no, he would not take no for an answer. Kris readily agreed, having yet another excuse to be around the 27 year old he was always thinking about.
Kris was ecstatic about his new roommate, until he realized just exactly how comfortable Adam was with his sexuality. Of course he should have figured that Adam would just love to lounge around the room naked whenever he got a chance, but that didn’t mean Kris was ready for it. The tightening inside his jeans every time he saw Adam’s body did not help at all. Kris knew he shouldn’t look, no, shouldn’t stare, but he could never help himself. He only felt bad when Adam caught his gaze and stared back, always too intensely for Kris.
No matter where they were, Kris was thinking about Adam. Rehearsal, performance, hanging out around the house, it didn’t matter. Even in his sleep, Adam hogged his dreams. Kris really couldn’t stand it anymore, but he didn’t know what to do. It wasn’t until David Cook taped a performance that everything changed.
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Everyone was really excited about last year’s winner visiting, because knowing David’s underdog story gave most people hope about their chances in the competition. That is, everybody but Kris. Cook’s appearance should only inspire Adam, because obviously he was the only one left with even a chance of winning. Maybe Archuleta should visit for a more appropriate inspiration.
At the studio, Kris was only given free time when he was waiting for his makeup to be put on. Unfortunately, tonight, he had to wait for Adam to finish, so he just sat in a chair across the room. Once again, Kris could not stop from staring, so he closed his eyes, seemingly to rest, but really just not to ogle his roommate.
“It’s always the married ones,” Kris heard from a few feet away. The competitor opened his eyes to see David Cook standing right in front of him.
“Excuse me?” was Kris’s only response to that extraordinarily odd comment.
“Yeah, it’s always the married ones who start crushing the hardest in this competition. I guess being away from your wife takes away something that you try to fulfill.”
Kris starts to look at Cook like he’s crazy, even though Cook’s comment makes about 100 percent sense, and even makes him feel slightly better. “I’m sorry, but I really don’t know what you are talking about.”
“Kris, they told me when I came back here that I had to help this year’s contestants and ‘inspire’ you guys because the pressure was getting you down. The producers are especially concerned about you. They really like you, and it seems like your head isn’t really in the game. After spending about a minute watching you, you do need help. But what they want me to say is not the kind of help I should be giving you. I know what you need.”
The contestant just sputters, waiting for Cook to continue, but Kris is really scared about what he is about to say.
“I’ve noticed the way you look at Adam, the way all you want to do is look at him forever and never turn away. I recognized it almost instantly because I’ve seen it so many times before. It’s slightly less feral on your face than Michael’s, but it’s still the same look.”
“Michael Johns, that Michael?” Kris asked wondering what the Australian could have anything to do with what Cook was talking about. Sure, everyone knows they are best friends from last season, but so?
“Yeah, Johns. Like I said, it’s always the married ones. Michael and I were slightly more friendly than from what you could gauge on TV. And by that, I mean a lot more friendly.”
Kris doesn’t really have anything to say to that.
“You want Adam the way Michael wanted me, and Adam wants you the way I knew I had to have Mike before the end of the season. The only thing different is that Adam’s not going to be as aggressive as I was. “
“How do you know any of this?”
“You should have seen the way he was looking back at you when your eyes were closed. At least he knows how to be discreet about his wanting. Adam’s probably putting out every feeler out there. Holding gazes, touching you, yeah?”
Kris starts to get confused at how much Cook can pick out from one minute of watching, but he responds affirmatively to the winner’s question.
“Kris, Adam wants you. He really wants you. But he’s not going to do anything. You’re the straight one; he doesn’t want to ruin what you guys already have. If this is something you want, something you need, you’re going to have to be the one to do something about it.”
Suddenly, Adam gets up from the make-up chair and calls Kris over. Kris excuses himself from Cook, and walks across the room, terrified as he now knows how to translate Adam’s seemingly friendly touches. When Adam sits him down in the chair and asks the make-up artist if he can be the one to make Kris ‘beautiful,’ Kris’s butterflies kind of go crazy. The thought of Adam touching him so carefully and closely makes Kris really really wish he was wearing looser pants. Something will change between them. That night.
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After weeks of passively watching Adam, Kris finally decides he needs to do something about it. The results show was sad, as all results shows are, but Kris was more nervous with anticipation. Not about the vote (Kris kind of cheated and looked at dialidol, so he knew he did not have much to worry about), but about how he was going to treat this piece of information that David Cook shared with him. Adam was seated next to Kris during the results, and whenever Kris knew the cameras were focused elsewhere, he took advantage of that fact. He kept finding excuses to touch Adam like Adam normally would to him, turning their roles on edge.
But the real fun didn’t start until the night was long over. After the goodbye dinner, all the remaining contestants went back to the house. Thursday was always the most relaxing day of the week, and normally, everyone went to sleep pretty earlier so they could make up the sleep they did not get the two previous nights.
When Adam and Kris retired to their room, however, Kris had no intention of sleeping. Adam came into the room, jumped on the bed, and started reading whatever book he managed to pick up. Adam seemed like he was avoiding Kris, afraid of how to proceed, because Kris had been acting so strangely earlier. Kris was not going to let him stay silent and avoid-y for the first time ever.
Kris managed to get a hold of his nervous feelings, and finally asked what he had been thinking about asking the older man all night. “Hey Adam, I’m thinking of sleeping naked like you do. Is it nice?” Well, that was a lot more blunt than Kris had planned. Oh well. The shocked expression on Adam’s face was exactly what he was looking for.
Adam suddenly regained his composure and smirked, “Kris, man, you’re married. Don’t you ever sleep naked with your wife?”
“Yeah, well, I mean, that’s different. Of course we do that, but our bed at home is much smaller than the king beds they give us here, and I don’t have to share my bed with anybody. I guess I’m asking about sleeping naked alone. Unless that would make you uncomfortable. Two guys naked. But alone.”
Kris didn’t know how in the world he was getting through this talk, but the giant gulp Adam took seemed to mean Kris’s comments were making him nervous, too. Kris happened to notice that Adam’s book just happened to land open, right on the top of his pants like they were hiding something.
“Kris, man, I don’t know why you’re asking me this. Go ahead and do whatever you want. Unless, of course, you aren’t asking for my permission, but rather my approval.” Good, Adam seems to be finally catching on. “If you want me to see you naked, I definitely would not have a problem with that.”
Okay, there’s the Adam we all know and love, Kris thought, as he was about to take his next move. “I don’t know, man, I just, well, maybe my problem with the sleeping naked thing is that I just don’t want to sleep alone.” With that, Kris gets up from his own bed, and sits down right next to Adam, so close that they could not be any closer, (even though Kris wants to change physics to figure that out) and waits to see what Adam does.
Surprisingly enough, Adam’s face does not move in, but instead appears a bit concerned? He opens his gorgeous mouth to ask “Kris, are you absolutely sure this is what you want? If we start this, there’ll be no turning back.”
With that, Kris’s butterflies finally fly away. He leans in closer and his mouth touches Adam’s. Within seconds, Adam responds and everything Kris has been thinking about, dreaming about, for the past few weeks starts.
It was a given, of course, that neither man slept with clothes on that night.
Pairing: Kradam, mentions of Mavid
Rating: PG-13
Word Count: 1920
Summary: David Cook tells Kris exactly what he needs to hear
Disclaimer: Not real, unfortunately.
Author's Notes: I don’t remember what night Cook pretaped his performance, so I’m pretty sure I decided it was the night Sarver went home. Title from To Make You Feel My Love
Kris doesn’t know how he got here. Sure, Adam captivated him from the moment the two contestants met in Hollywood, but at the time, he was just expecting that a friendship would form. The semi-finals started and when he was assigned to Group 2, he was really happy. Matt was his good friend from their Hollywood group. Allison is so good for being only 16 (even though Kris knows how clichéd that sounds). Plus, she’s pretty fun, too. But once Kris learned that he was in Adam’s group, and that you spend all of your time in the semi-finals with your group and only your group, Kris knew that his experience was not going to be anything like he expected.
And still, Kris had no idea how his relationship with Adam would develop. He knew he liked the guy. Adam was nothing like anybody he had ever known, and a youtube search of his old work certainly conveyed that. But when he, Allison, and Adam made it through to the top 12 and had to do so many interviews together, everything changed.
Finally, it seemed like Adam was paying as much attention to Kris as Kris was to him. The level of intensity to which Adam treated his fellow contestant was almost unnerving, in a way. A gaze that lasted for just seconds too long, a light touch on the arm every time Adam passed the younger man, and Kris was going insane. He was longing for Adam in a way that he had never done before. He wanted to be around Adam always. Kris felt kind of empty without his wife around and even though it was so, so wrong, he needed someone to pay attention to him the way she did. Oddly enough, Adam seemed to be filling that role.
Then, Adam told Kris that they were going to be roommates in the top 13 house, Kris was a bit confused. He thought they could pick whatever rooms they would like, but was he assigned to Adam? But nope, Adam said, he just really wanted to share a room with his favorite male contestant there, and no, he would not take no for an answer. Kris readily agreed, having yet another excuse to be around the 27 year old he was always thinking about.
Kris was ecstatic about his new roommate, until he realized just exactly how comfortable Adam was with his sexuality. Of course he should have figured that Adam would just love to lounge around the room naked whenever he got a chance, but that didn’t mean Kris was ready for it. The tightening inside his jeans every time he saw Adam’s body did not help at all. Kris knew he shouldn’t look, no, shouldn’t stare, but he could never help himself. He only felt bad when Adam caught his gaze and stared back, always too intensely for Kris.
No matter where they were, Kris was thinking about Adam. Rehearsal, performance, hanging out around the house, it didn’t matter. Even in his sleep, Adam hogged his dreams. Kris really couldn’t stand it anymore, but he didn’t know what to do. It wasn’t until David Cook taped a performance that everything changed.
_____________________________________________________
Everyone was really excited about last year’s winner visiting, because knowing David’s underdog story gave most people hope about their chances in the competition. That is, everybody but Kris. Cook’s appearance should only inspire Adam, because obviously he was the only one left with even a chance of winning. Maybe Archuleta should visit for a more appropriate inspiration.
At the studio, Kris was only given free time when he was waiting for his makeup to be put on. Unfortunately, tonight, he had to wait for Adam to finish, so he just sat in a chair across the room. Once again, Kris could not stop from staring, so he closed his eyes, seemingly to rest, but really just not to ogle his roommate.
“It’s always the married ones,” Kris heard from a few feet away. The competitor opened his eyes to see David Cook standing right in front of him.
“Excuse me?” was Kris’s only response to that extraordinarily odd comment.
“Yeah, it’s always the married ones who start crushing the hardest in this competition. I guess being away from your wife takes away something that you try to fulfill.”
Kris starts to look at Cook like he’s crazy, even though Cook’s comment makes about 100 percent sense, and even makes him feel slightly better. “I’m sorry, but I really don’t know what you are talking about.”
“Kris, they told me when I came back here that I had to help this year’s contestants and ‘inspire’ you guys because the pressure was getting you down. The producers are especially concerned about you. They really like you, and it seems like your head isn’t really in the game. After spending about a minute watching you, you do need help. But what they want me to say is not the kind of help I should be giving you. I know what you need.”
The contestant just sputters, waiting for Cook to continue, but Kris is really scared about what he is about to say.
“I’ve noticed the way you look at Adam, the way all you want to do is look at him forever and never turn away. I recognized it almost instantly because I’ve seen it so many times before. It’s slightly less feral on your face than Michael’s, but it’s still the same look.”
“Michael Johns, that Michael?” Kris asked wondering what the Australian could have anything to do with what Cook was talking about. Sure, everyone knows they are best friends from last season, but so?
“Yeah, Johns. Like I said, it’s always the married ones. Michael and I were slightly more friendly than from what you could gauge on TV. And by that, I mean a lot more friendly.”
Kris doesn’t really have anything to say to that.
“You want Adam the way Michael wanted me, and Adam wants you the way I knew I had to have Mike before the end of the season. The only thing different is that Adam’s not going to be as aggressive as I was. “
“How do you know any of this?”
“You should have seen the way he was looking back at you when your eyes were closed. At least he knows how to be discreet about his wanting. Adam’s probably putting out every feeler out there. Holding gazes, touching you, yeah?”
Kris starts to get confused at how much Cook can pick out from one minute of watching, but he responds affirmatively to the winner’s question.
“Kris, Adam wants you. He really wants you. But he’s not going to do anything. You’re the straight one; he doesn’t want to ruin what you guys already have. If this is something you want, something you need, you’re going to have to be the one to do something about it.”
Suddenly, Adam gets up from the make-up chair and calls Kris over. Kris excuses himself from Cook, and walks across the room, terrified as he now knows how to translate Adam’s seemingly friendly touches. When Adam sits him down in the chair and asks the make-up artist if he can be the one to make Kris ‘beautiful,’ Kris’s butterflies kind of go crazy. The thought of Adam touching him so carefully and closely makes Kris really really wish he was wearing looser pants. Something will change between them. That night.
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After weeks of passively watching Adam, Kris finally decides he needs to do something about it. The results show was sad, as all results shows are, but Kris was more nervous with anticipation. Not about the vote (Kris kind of cheated and looked at dialidol, so he knew he did not have much to worry about), but about how he was going to treat this piece of information that David Cook shared with him. Adam was seated next to Kris during the results, and whenever Kris knew the cameras were focused elsewhere, he took advantage of that fact. He kept finding excuses to touch Adam like Adam normally would to him, turning their roles on edge.
But the real fun didn’t start until the night was long over. After the goodbye dinner, all the remaining contestants went back to the house. Thursday was always the most relaxing day of the week, and normally, everyone went to sleep pretty earlier so they could make up the sleep they did not get the two previous nights.
When Adam and Kris retired to their room, however, Kris had no intention of sleeping. Adam came into the room, jumped on the bed, and started reading whatever book he managed to pick up. Adam seemed like he was avoiding Kris, afraid of how to proceed, because Kris had been acting so strangely earlier. Kris was not going to let him stay silent and avoid-y for the first time ever.
Kris managed to get a hold of his nervous feelings, and finally asked what he had been thinking about asking the older man all night. “Hey Adam, I’m thinking of sleeping naked like you do. Is it nice?” Well, that was a lot more blunt than Kris had planned. Oh well. The shocked expression on Adam’s face was exactly what he was looking for.
Adam suddenly regained his composure and smirked, “Kris, man, you’re married. Don’t you ever sleep naked with your wife?”
“Yeah, well, I mean, that’s different. Of course we do that, but our bed at home is much smaller than the king beds they give us here, and I don’t have to share my bed with anybody. I guess I’m asking about sleeping naked alone. Unless that would make you uncomfortable. Two guys naked. But alone.”
Kris didn’t know how in the world he was getting through this talk, but the giant gulp Adam took seemed to mean Kris’s comments were making him nervous, too. Kris happened to notice that Adam’s book just happened to land open, right on the top of his pants like they were hiding something.
“Kris, man, I don’t know why you’re asking me this. Go ahead and do whatever you want. Unless, of course, you aren’t asking for my permission, but rather my approval.” Good, Adam seems to be finally catching on. “If you want me to see you naked, I definitely would not have a problem with that.”
Okay, there’s the Adam we all know and love, Kris thought, as he was about to take his next move. “I don’t know, man, I just, well, maybe my problem with the sleeping naked thing is that I just don’t want to sleep alone.” With that, Kris gets up from his own bed, and sits down right next to Adam, so close that they could not be any closer, (even though Kris wants to change physics to figure that out) and waits to see what Adam does.
Surprisingly enough, Adam’s face does not move in, but instead appears a bit concerned? He opens his gorgeous mouth to ask “Kris, are you absolutely sure this is what you want? If we start this, there’ll be no turning back.”
With that, Kris’s butterflies finally fly away. He leans in closer and his mouth touches Adam’s. Within seconds, Adam responds and everything Kris has been thinking about, dreaming about, for the past few weeks starts.
It was a given, of course, that neither man slept with clothes on that night.