valley of memories

[jh84]

The subject is named through thought. Not just something that I put without reason. Well today was a day of memories as it states. Memories of ROTC yet again, not highschool but last year's. I think I made the wrong choice at the begining of the year when I chose not to go to the first PT

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plethora

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I hope that your day did get better. It's amazing how depressing it is to be told that you LOOK depressed - you're hope that you aren't REALLY depressed is truly dashed at that point in time. One of my lowest of lows was when I finally admitted to myself that I needed help. I'm sorry to hear that it's so bad for you right now. A student of mine who'd just been diagnosed with depression asked me what I had done to make myself happy when I was depressed. My thought was, "Happy? I was never happy. Just ok sometimes." I didn't tell her that though. But I understand how the highs just aren't highs

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[jh84]

The day definatly got better. Went to practice and I was all cheered up. It seems lately my happiest times have been in the boat. :) .... The guys in my boat are fucking awesome!!! I really was happy as to just ok. I know where I was when I got help earlier in my life. I am not near that point. I think its stil recoverable at this point. I think I just have to surround myself with people, and keep busy. I find that work is the best cure for it. I would love to respond to all of you response right now but its 3:21am, and the only reason I am up currently is, not cause I have been drinking and partying like every normal college student, but because I was woken up 2hrs into my sleep by the party my roommates were throwing. I have a race tomorrow, and I wanted to get some sleep, but no hope. :( oh well. Its ok. Its just the final part. I'll fiunish this up a little later today.