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[jhcentrl]

I'm underappreciated. That's the way you all make me feel.

If it's my fault, raise your voice. I want to hear your side.

This is the most bullshit epiphany I've had in a long time. I mean, maybe I really am someone who doesn't accomplish anything. Ya know, cuz I didn't graduate from a four year institution in three years, move out on my own at the

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[stefanie0331]

"What good do I really bring?"

~ you brought a smile to my face almost everyday in class.

im sorry you are feeling down. i think you are very special...we should hang out sometime. I'LL BE YOUR FRIEND outside of work!!

360-710-7253

call me sometime to hang out! and try to remember you are awesome!

[benchwarmer44]

well, in our case you know what happened

[jhcentrl]

alright, i've had enough of this crap. yea i know exactly what happened. ready?

- we went for bubble tea as planned, like you so badly wanted to.
- nothing else was planned and the first thing that came up in your mind was wanting to get blazed. i say "nuh uh."
- i try to find something fun to do (watch Stephen Lynch) but you whined about it being dumb and boring.

so let's see, i had work the next morning. yeah, couldn't exactly stay up too late because of it, so i had you leave. you were being rude and ungreatful for everything anyways. the best part?

afterwards... you make this most awesome comment to me:
snoringcows (7:39:56 PM): while this is going to sound arrogant, a lot of people want my time
this comment is awesome because it shows me how ignorant you are when i can note the past 20 times with you saying "so when are we getting bubble tea???" and me not saying it once. this is you wanting my time, not me wanting your time. i was happy to give you my time until you starting being a dick about it.

your problem, not mine.

[benchwarmer44]

No I never wanted bubble tea that badly, you really think I cared that much about getting bubble tea. Yea I said let's get bubble tea because I felt like you were making an effort towards being my friend and I was trying to reciprocate. I'm not friends with people for what I can get out of them, as you have clearly stated in the past as how you assess friendships. Take a second to think twice, why in the world would I want to be friends with you that badly? With anyone for that matter

[jhcentrl]

Eddie, I made an effort towards helping you out with your problems. I try to be as beneficial to people as much as possible, no matter on what level they may be with me, because, just as you say, I assess people on what I can get out of them (how else are you supposed to get ahead in life)... and that's how I expect people to assess me. It's the mentor-apprentice system of doing things... learn from another's experiences

[benchwarmer44]

i gotta go to bed in a sec so i'll be brief but a couple of important points. the first is that, while it's great you're willing to go out that much out of your way to do stuff for other people, you should be conscious about where the line is drawn. I can kind of understand the thing with Kyle, I would do that for my closest friends, but I would definetely tell them they better make sure their other options are exhausted first. With the other person, that clearly isn't something I would do, and it could be a matter of personal preference. I'll drive ito go see friends, but I measure it against time I'll be spending vs time I committ getting there. ie, if i drive an hour somewhere to see someone, i better be spending the better part of a day to see him/her. why should you have to go all the way to bainbridge instead of the other way around. it's because you're nice, but being nice often translates into getting wasted time and becoming a doormat

[benchwarmer44]

"This is the most bullshit epiphany I've had in a long time. I mean, maybe I really am someone who doesn't accomplish anything. Ya know, cuz I didn't graduate from a four year institution in three years, move out on my own at the age of 17, hold up four credit cards without blemish, and excel in everything else I do. No, fuck you. I'm less than average

[xnickcx]

well first off, from your most recent post you got the pinch harmonics down (SCORE!!!) so that's one off the list. you'll turn 21 in a couple months...that's two. i havent done anything but get fat this summer so the apartment will definitely be full of roommate soon, making three at the very least. the rest i can't answer so easily.

in terms of the rest....you are appreciated josh. it's not your fault, and it's not our fault. it's everyone's and noone's at the same time. you know how they say most people just don't think about how much something means until it's gone and that's true. that and some of the stuff you listed isn't important to your friends. i don't care that you've held 4 credit cards in spotless records. not saying that isn't impressive, just that isn't who you are to me.

you're the friend who stuck around and helped all he could on my most dangerous night last year. you're the friend who looks after my girlfriend and gave her a hug for me because i know i can trust you to take care of her in my leave.