color:black;mso-ansi-language:EN-US">Fandom: Supernatural
Pairing: Lucifer / Sam Winchester
Theme set: Alpha
Title: Push and Pull
Rating: R
Warning[s]: Slash, non graphic sex
Notes: I fail so much. I kinda gave Sam and Lucifer a vanilla feel.
My entry for
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01 - Comfort
Sam doesn’t mind when Lucifer visits his dreams because in a twisted kind of way an angel is watching over him.
color:black;mso-ansi-language:EN-US">02 - Kisscolor:black;mso-ansi-language:EN-US">
His vessel kisses the form of his dead girlfriend, a kiss so chaste, full of love and love that is lost and a twinge of hope.
03 - Soft
He actually doesn’t mind, the remaining love in his vessel is what makes him so breakable so after Sam’s speech about hope, he softly points out that he freed him.
04 - Pain
Sam can’t breathe, because no matter how he tries to deny, it Lucifer was not lying.
05 - Potatoes
Sam was ordering French-fries when Lucifer found him, in a gut reaction he ran away forgetting his fries.
06 - Rain
He’s cold and wet, but he doesn’t care, he knows he can’t run anymore.
07 - Chocolate
After weeks of trying to pretend that he doesn’t exist, his vessel finally acknowledges him by offering him a half eaten chocolate bar.
08 - Happiness
“Are you happy running around in circles Sam?”
09 - Telephone
He doesn’t expect Dean to answer, but he still calls him every month, turning off the telephone, slightly relieved since he doesn’t know what to say anyway then the eyes looking at him with pity makes him feel more pathetic than he actually is.
10 - Ears
“Maybe you should just accept that he will never answer, because just like you he’s too busy running away.”
Close your eyes for the things that you don’t to see, cover your ears for the things you want to hear, suck it up for the things you don’t want to feel.
11 - Name
“Samuel, God has heard. Maybe when we find him, he will.”
“Great, Satan is starting up casual conversations with me.”
“My name is Lucifer, the light bringer.”
12 - Sensual
Hands all over his body. Sam knows he can’t fight this, he has no self respect left anyway. Biting back a moan he listens to Lucifer’s lullaby. “Slowly Sam, you’ll say yes. Soon, you’ll accept me” the light bringer hums again and again.
13 - Death
“You’re upset.”
“I can’t save anyone.”
“All lives here on earth ends at one point.”
14 - Sex
Despite being with him all the time, Lucifer still invades Sam’s dreams, making him feel like he doesn’t even own himself anymore, making him cry with pleasure and shame, yet can’t hate Lucifer so he hates himself more.
15 - Touch
Sometime, it seems like his vessel is fading with grief but like a good soldier, he sucks it up and moves on and Lucifer can’t help but touch him and feel a tiny bit of pride; his vessel is one stubborn human but it will be worth it in the end.
16 - Weakness
His growing attachment to his vessel is a shame, for such an imperfect being he attracts such powerful beings around him and it makes Lucifer wonder if he’s really the hunter or the prey.
17 - Tears
“Humans are so imperfect.”
“That makes us humans.”
“Don’t you want to be something more Sam?” cries Lucifer.
18 - Speed
It felt like a lifetime ago when he was riding shotgun with Dean. Now he’s driving a beat up truck with Lucifer on his fucking passenger seat.
19 - Wind
“I’ll fly around after you say yes.”
Sam’s habitual curse and promise to never say yes wasn’t heard, instead he thought of how much he liked the feeling of wind against him.
20 - Freedom
“Why are you following around? After two years can’t you ever get it that you won’t anything from me?”
“Isn’t a guardian angel free to guard his charge? That’s right Sam, you don’t have one on your back, and you never did. Don’t worry I am more than enough to keep you safe.”
21 - Life
“Life is fragile Samuel.”
22 - Jealousy
Lucifer was annoyed when his vessel muttered; “I’ve been researching and I decided that Michael is quite cool.”
23 - Hands
Somewhere along the line Sam stopped protesting and he ends up here, hands held by Lucifer and coaxing him to say yes like always.
24 - Taste
Sam makes him eat the chocolate insisting that he must feel hungry sometimes.
25 - Devotion
“No one is allowed to hurt you Sam, not even yourself.”
26 - Forever
“Don’t worry Sam you’ll never be alone again, I’ll be your companion till the end of time.”
27 - Blood
“Don’t you think that it’s such a cruel joke that my brother’s vessel and you share the same blood like we do?”
28 - Sickness
Lucifer hates how fragile humans are, Sam is sick and he cannot heal him without Nick’s body giving up on him.
29 - Melody
His life now feels like a song, that nobody heard, pointless and empty.
30 - Star
Sam thinks that he’s really losing it when he automatically muttered; make a wish, to Lucifer when he saw a falling star, to his dread the fallen angel looks at him saying “Say yes to me.”
31 - Home
“Where is your home Lucifer?”
32 - Confusion
Sam was so used to having Lucifer with him that he was actually puzzled when he spent a week without him.
33 - Fear
Lucifer’s absence made feel different kinds of dread, for his world, for his former friends, for his brother and for his fallen angel as well.
34 - Lightning/Thunder
Sam should have known that Lucifer will return accompanied with a cliché Lightning and Thunder, though he wished that the lightning struck him because, Lucifer also brought with him the realization he’s the closest thing to friend that Sam has now.
35 - Bonds
“I have a brother too, I’m sure that Dean loves you as Michael loved me.”
36 - Market
Sam swallows a gulp of air, his way to market and back to the motel room he could have sworn that everyone was possessed.
37 - Technology
Sam admits his fears, it’s no use lying to someone who reads you like a Lie Detector.
38 - Gift
“You were made for me Sam, God’s last gift for me I suppose.”
39 - Smile
Sam never smiles, Lucifer thinks it’s because he doesn’t have a reason to.
40 - Innocence
“Why do you keep on hoping when there’s nothing left?”
“Because it’s all I have.”
41 - Completion
“This world started its own demise all we have to do is complete the task.”
42 - Clouds
“If you think this world would ever change then delusion clouds your mind.”
43 - Sky
Looking up the sky, Sam honestly thinks that he’s getting nowhere so he looks at Lucifer wanting to ask him a question.
44 - Heaven
When Sam asked him if heaven was too boring for him, Lucifer almost laughs.
45 - Hell
He thought that he knew humanity when they brought their sins with them to hell, but here’s one human that proves him wrong.
46 - Sun
“I’ve learned my lesson; I won’t stare at the sun anymore, because now I’m crazy I think my hope is for you.”
47 - Moon
“When I was a kid, I loved the moon but it will be cliché when I say yes with a full moon.”
48 - Waves
When Sam said yes with a smile, he knew created the ripple that will start the end, but doesn’t care anymore.
49 - Hair
Lucifer smiled back, ruffled his hair and muttered a sincere thank you.
50 - Supernova
Sam Winchester was no more, he helped give shine to the light bringer but created a black hole on his brother’s heart and an angel’s goal.