So Joesph came home and ry comes home today...this makes me happy ( Read more... )

So June 8th came and went this year and i actually can say it wasn't bad for me. I tend not to think about it anymore and live my life without worrying about it. I still find it hard to talk about it but at least i dont think about it that much anymore. It's been 5 years what a time to celebrate. i'm excited and blessed. I think this year was ( Read more... )

So Summer has began...and it's hott out...I'm still pale as usual ( Read more... )

Spring break was ok and much needed ( Read more... )

So remind me why i come home again ( Read more... )

It figures that there is a ton of nice guys out there that would all be great to date if only i couldn't get my mind off the ass. It just sucks. i dont even want to think about looking at anyone else bc i just cant seem to forget and i hate that. i honestly dont mind random drunkeness to a certain point then it just gets to be sad after a while ( Read more... )

So i find out more than likely im not going to see dan while he is home. This really sucks bc i really need him write now. He's one of the easiest ppl to talk to and i know he cares more than anything about what happens to me...Hes like my brother. Anyways it just sucks bc i just wanted to see him for like an hour but its not looking like that ( Read more... )

Well lets see ( Read more... )

Thanksgiving break was nice, relaxed, saw my family,old friends...the cabin was a good time even though i really didnt feel like drinking much. karoke is always fun. I must thank lynds for having me up. it was so picturesque with all the dead animals and my favorite the indian. im sure he was happy to see me ya mean ( Read more... )

Well lets see this weekend i had to say goodbye to Ryan. I really didn't get the chance to say goodbye which makes me feel really uneasy about him leaving. i feel like i need closure before he leaves so i can feel better. It was a nice goodbye party. sad. i kinda wish i wasnt selfish and went to lock haven. i think i should have stayed at the ( Read more... )