recovery...

[jillrlev]

hard-core, man. it's all i can do to get out of bed and actually try to re-immerse myself back into my "normal" life. what does it mean that recovering from a show feels like a nasty-ass hangover? i'm beginning to wonder if what i think of as being "enough" in my life is not. why should i have to learn how to recover from that high- the high of

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congratulations,

[joymattingly]

on a clean kitchen.

That's the one thing out of that post that was pure satisfaction-- a clean kitchen. Everything else is tinged with recovery, guilt, sadness, maybe. Good luck with the living and the day to day, and try to enjoy it. You can't be breathless in the spotlight everyday; performing doesn't work like that. Nothing works like that. Hugs from across the water.

So are you going to Europe for 9 weeks or is it a 9 week roller coaster ride leading up to the Europe trip? Cause 9 weeks in Europe would rock!

Re: congratulations,

[stephanova]

I want to know too. Europe for 9 weeks would be amazing... and I could tell you some cool places to go, if I remember them.

Re: congratulations,

[jillrlev]

i know- i was feeling a tad mellowdramatic yesterday. the funny thing was once i finished writing it, i felt much better, but of course it was after writing that everyone else would read it and think that that was my current state. i am also basking in the glow of a successful performance- and what a glow. i'm really proud of how this performance has moved me forward and am excited to see where it might propel me next. "ask and you shall receive" said the universe.
we *are* going to europe for 9 weeks!! even though brett and i both have remarkably better jobs than before, we've been living about the same as when he was in grad school and i was doing shit-jobs, so we've saved up a ton of money. we're pretty much taking the whole time that i'll be off from teaching this summer to go. we are so excited. any tips that anyone has about europe or travelling in general would be greatly appreciated.
hugs and belly kisses!

Re: congratulations,

[joymattingly]

Oh, I am sorry about my comment. Be as depressed and sad and melodramatic as you want!! It's what this space is for. I was just blown away by how after an awesome performance, an awesome girl wondered if she was enough?!? I was trying a "hang in there" approach, but I'm too much of a Sagittarius for tact. I love you bunches and I know very well how painful getting back to the day to day can be. After visiting Hokkaido, coming back to work in Gojome was difficult. It takes a lot of work some days to enjoy my everyday routine. And a performance high must be even more difficult to come down off of than a vacation high