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Rachael: I just don't know what to do anymore. And I'm sure other people feel the same way. Tell me, what do you want?
Rachael: Because it doesn't seem like you want advice.
Rachael: I would like to help you, yes.
Rachael: But I don't know how to do that.
jilost: The problem with me, I realize, is that I feel like I'm drowning....and much like you before, when I'm drowning, everything is spun negatively and I don't know what I want to save me or what can save me.
jilost: Sometimes I just have to drown.
jilost: But I also realize...people can't deal with that. I can't come to people and expect them to be okay with watching me drown while they struggle to help.
jilost: The irony is, that just makes me feel more isolated because I feel I can't go to anyone.
jilost: I want to know I'm supported. I want to know I'm wanted, maybe even needed. But I also know that all anyone can do is watch me drown.
And that's exactly it. I don't always need advice -- sometimes I just need someone to listen. I need to feel supported, wanted, and needed. I need to know I mean something to someone else and am not seen as a burden, nuisance, or negative force. I don't always need my friend to actively pursue my problems, solve them, advise on them, or even comment on them -- sometimes I just need my friend to be PRESENT. Sometimes I just need to be heard and understood.
jilost: Sometimes when I say "I feel depressed", I don't need "Well try x y and z..." Sometimes I just need, "I'm sorry. I know how you feel. Just remember it's all in your head."
Rachael: Because it doesn't seem like you want advice.
Rachael: I would like to help you, yes.
Rachael: But I don't know how to do that.
jilost: The problem with me, I realize, is that I feel like I'm drowning....and much like you before, when I'm drowning, everything is spun negatively and I don't know what I want to save me or what can save me.
jilost: Sometimes I just have to drown.
jilost: But I also realize...people can't deal with that. I can't come to people and expect them to be okay with watching me drown while they struggle to help.
jilost: The irony is, that just makes me feel more isolated because I feel I can't go to anyone.
jilost: I want to know I'm supported. I want to know I'm wanted, maybe even needed. But I also know that all anyone can do is watch me drown.
And that's exactly it. I don't always need advice -- sometimes I just need someone to listen. I need to feel supported, wanted, and needed. I need to know I mean something to someone else and am not seen as a burden, nuisance, or negative force. I don't always need my friend to actively pursue my problems, solve them, advise on them, or even comment on them -- sometimes I just need my friend to be PRESENT. Sometimes I just need to be heard and understood.
jilost: Sometimes when I say "I feel depressed", I don't need "Well try x y and z..." Sometimes I just need, "I'm sorry. I know how you feel. Just remember it's all in your head."