I can't believe my fucking parents would pull Allison into this shit. I don't want to go to school and I don't care if girls (Allison or otherwise) will not be with me because of it. If that is the case, then they aren't the kind of girls I want to be with to begin with!

I need to make me happy, because I so seldom am. I dropped out of my one class I was taking this semester because I was doing it for my parents, and I hated it. I am so unmotivated to take classes and do much of anything else. I would say 60% of my life is spent either on the internet or asleep. I should keep a log with dates and times. I think I ( Read more... )

I taught a beautiful girl this song once, and now we play it together and my heart wells up inside of me whenever I hear her tell me "it's the most extraordinary thing in the world..."

I feel like decisions I make today will shape who I am moving forward. I feel like my future hinges on the littlest nothings.

I spent about 35 minutes with Allison today. I texted her last night when I was absolutely and completely high out of my mind. I tried not to, but I may have never been this high before and had to mention a Pavement lyric I heard in an Immoor song. But about being high... I just listened to electronic music for two hours and ran my hands all over ( Read more... )

I am loving not having facebook at this very moment because i have lots of things to say on it that i know i would regret saying tomorrow.

I had a dream that I was playing for the Eagles and we were down 3-1, and then they scored on us again and there was just over 4 minutes left in the game. Then we scored two quick goals. One of my teammates got robbed on a breakaway that really looked like it went in with about 30 second's left. And then with 4.8 seconds left, I shot the puck to ( Read more... )

My parents are visiting my brother in Steamboat tonight and tomorrow, so I'm here taking care of the dogs ( Read more... )

Allison came over and we talked. She knows how to calm me down, and keep me sane ( Read more... )

Well, I moved back to Fort Collins almost a month ago to the day. I was pretty excited to come back. I was so sick of the people in San Francisco. They are such flakes! The year I was there I didn't make one solid friend. Well, maybe one, one of my bosses. And now I'm living in a nice house on Remington and Olive, a block behind Jeju, and working ( Read more... )