some things
1. we've been friends for a long time and you have helped me out many, many times. i would try and do the same, but you never seem to open up to anyone. i love you dearly but i'm afraid something will happen and we'll go our seperate ways.
2. it aches to think of you. you are the first real friend i've ever had and you will be my best friend until everything falls apart. i haven't seen you in over 6 months; i've only talked to you here and there online. it upsets me terribly to know i am the one who keeps in contact with you the most because i don't do it as much as i wish i could, and you are an amazing person and always seemed to be friends with everyone. loving you comes easily because of the impact you had on my life. whatever you do i'll be proud of you. there are no mistakes, only experiences. go where ever you like but i will always be waiting for you.
3. you would be the perfect lover but seeing as that won't ever happen outside of my dreams, i will settle for you being my most amazing and one of my greatest friends. everything about you screams beautiful. your physical appearance is only matched by the burning passionate lively amazing wonderfully gorgeous spirit inside of you. also we both love sonic youth and the who.
4. i always fall for enigmas, but at least you have fallen for me, too. i can pry pry pry but i don't think i will ever understand you. you, on the other hand, know me better than i know myself. you always know the perfect thing to say to me to put me at rest. you are also really good at keeping me up at night. if you know what i mean.
5. i worry about you constantly, but you seem to pull through in the end. i think you will grow up fine. pre med? really?
6. have fun in alaska. thanks for changing my life.
7. you are the biggest asshole i've ever met and somehow i still love you. our friendship is based on very hostile ground, and plenty of sarcasm, but you are a friend i know for sure would have my back in a fight, and those are the kind of friends i need.
8. i tell you everything. you know who you are and you know what you mean to me.
9. i can never tell if you have mental problems or you just don't care about me. you've hurt me worse than anyone else ever could.
10. i can hear it in your voice that i mean less to you than everyone else. it hurts.
11. i wish i was filled with the overwhelming sense of love that i have for you now when i was little and we lived together. some girls have cars their daddy's bought them. i'm the only one who has a car she and her dad fixed up together.
12. you are the only thing in this entire world that matters. i love you.
i skipped some important people but i guess i felt i needed to say these things to these people.
although none of them will hear these things.