You'd probably be hanging out with much cooler people than myself. Obviously. :o)
I only hope that one day I can help you realize how truly beautiful you are. You really do inspire me, and I mean that in the most loving and most sappy way possible.
I don't know you, came here through essa. You really hit me there.
I mean, like you, and probably many others, I've been there too. November last year, I was pretty damn close and if my mum hadn't found out i don't know if I'd be here.
But the point is, when I look at my life right now, I thank god that she found out. Because there's so much now.
My gf. The enourmous amount of comfort and therapy slash i read. All the people I met on lj. I think of what I was going to do, and it just...
I dunno, I still understand why I wanted to do it so badly, but I don't know. Because though you may not see it at the moment, there's so much to live for. There's so much to see and to feel and to touch. I would have missed HBP. ^-^
Nyways, what I wanted to say was, that I really felt myself in your text and that what's up there is something that I've been feeling for a long time. :)
Thank you. For being able to say all that. For being here.
Because though you may not see it at the moment, there's so much to live for.
Exactly. I still continue to suffer from the feelings I have felt when contemplating other options. But being able to accept that and start to work THROUGH it.. it's so worth any of the pain it might take to get to that point.
I'm glad you could connect with this. It makes me feel less paranoid about posting it. :o)
At first I figured this would be an attention-seeking post but when I got near the end I knew it wasn't. And it is so, so true. Because I've felt all that so many times and it IS your friends (and family) that will hurt because you couldn't handle a rough patch.
Ha. Well first, I'm sorry that you were figuring on an attention-seeking post. I feel pretty confident in saying that you'll hardly ever see one of those in my journal.
I love my friends way too much to ever be able to put any one of them through that. Not just the pain of losing a friend.. but when someone dies like that.. Everyone suddenly thinks it's their fault. What if I said this? What if I hadn't forgotten to call her back that one day, I swear it was just an accident, but what if... It's Torture.
Anyway. :o) Thank you for reading this and commenting, it really does mean a lot to me.
Thank you for saying that though. I really appreciate it. And like I told others, if you'd like to link it, that would be okay with me. If just one person can be affected by it..
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I only hope that one day I can help you realize how truly beautiful you are. You really do inspire me, and I mean that in the most loving and most sappy way possible.
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Oh hon, you're so sweet. ♥♥ You're such an amazing person, and I think this could go on forever.
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I don't know you, came here through essa. You really hit me there.
I mean, like you, and probably many others, I've been there too. November last year, I was pretty damn close and if my mum hadn't found out i don't know if I'd be here.
But the point is, when I look at my life right now, I thank god that she found out. Because there's so much now.
My gf. The enourmous amount of comfort and therapy slash i read. All the people I met on lj. I think of what I was going to do, and it just...
I dunno, I still understand why I wanted to do it so badly, but I don't know. Because though you may not see it at the moment, there's so much to live for. There's so much to see and to feel and to touch. I would have missed HBP. ^-^
Nyways, what I wanted to say was, that I really felt myself in your text and that what's up there is something that I've been feeling for a long time. :)
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Because though you may not see it at the moment, there's so much to live for.
Exactly. I still continue to suffer from the feelings I have felt when contemplating other options. But being able to accept that and start to work THROUGH it.. it's so worth any of the pain it might take to get to that point.
I'm glad you could connect with this. It makes me feel less paranoid about posting it. :o)
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At first I figured this would be an attention-seeking post but when I got near the end I knew it wasn't. And it is so, so true. Because I've felt all that so many times and it IS your friends (and family) that will hurt because you couldn't handle a rough patch.
Just thought I'd say that.
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I love my friends way too much to ever be able to put any one of them through that. Not just the pain of losing a friend.. but when someone dies like that.. Everyone suddenly thinks it's their fault. What if I said this? What if I hadn't forgotten to call her back that one day, I swear it was just an accident, but what if... It's Torture.
Anyway. :o) Thank you for reading this and commenting, it really does mean a lot to me.
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I've never felt the need to take my own life, but this post should be read by everyone. I'm saving this to my memories. :)
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Thank you for saying that though. I really appreciate it. And like I told others, if you'd like to link it, that would be okay with me. If just one person can be affected by it..
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