I heart my myspace blog, It tears me up to not have time to blog these days, so when I do, all the crazy pours out of my head. Unfortunately sometimes even despite everyones best interests their comments are not always so much helpful. So in an attempt to stop alienating (the people I work with) I am trying to bring the crazy back to LJ... lucky ( Read more... )

I am so damn tired, but I was hungry, so I made some spaghettios because Im sick and nothing else seemed appetizing. I hate spaghettios, but I cant taste anything anyways. SO now theyre hot as hell oops. I burned my damn hand and Im still starving. Story of my life. All about fucked up good intentions. As usual work sucks, I get taken advantage of ( Read more... )

Then I might have figured out the secret or something.... Then I wouldnt have to worry about how to pay for millions of dollars in medical. Probably wouldn't work, since I am an idiot. I've spent the last week preparing for the impending doom of Matt losing his medicaid. He is still in denial but Ive spent enough time reading online to know that as ( Read more... )

So my friend got me an interview for the job that she is leaving, and she was so excited about it. It wasn't a total disaster, but the lady wanted me to come in the day she got my resume which was a little weird. They spent most of the time telling me how great my friend is, and when she came in she didn't know a whole lot, but she learned it all, ( Read more... )

SIgh. I miss having girlfriends. I have Matt here everyday, and he has friends, most of whom I don't like. Everyone I used to hang out with either lives far away or is busy or whatever. I thought I would have a chance to hang out more with my old friends when I moved back, but They all have normal schedules and weekends off. I thought we were going ( Read more... )

K, so I had the last four days off to find a job... It didn't go as well as planned, but I found a couple jobs that I thought would be really great to do.... ANd now I just have to wait and pray... Everything is too good to be true...always. Then I have to think about following up, and getting through to the HR. Its all such a sick game. ANd today ( Read more... )

I am never going to get a job. I am pretty much not even qualified for the entry level jobs I apply for. I mean, I have a college degree that I am still paying off, and no one will even hire me to answer phones. Does everyone graduate from college with 2 years office experience these days? Better yet, this is the season where they cut hours, and ( Read more... )

I just finished reading Hary Potter number 6. I have been putting it off, cause when I first bought it, I read the beginning and the end and was all sad and disapointed. So now, I am even sadder, and I have to wait forever for the last book to come out clinging to the slim hope that there will be a happy ending. I absolutely hate things that are ( Read more... )

I saw on Grey's anatomy that suicide rates don't rise during the holidays, but depression rates do. Crazy familys or something. I dunno. All I know is that I love the holidays, but this year is horrible. It started out ok, but Matt is so sick. He has to probably go on IVs that are stronger than before, one that they don't usually do IV or one that ( Read more... )

I hate that I gave matt the flu, and destroyed 3 weeks of healing his lungs had done. Now, they are worse than before he took his leave. WHich is bad. ANd he will have to wait three more months before he can do his meds again. at least. I know he is stubborn, but I also know he doesn't fight as hard as he should. He's lost weight, he's not eating ( Read more... )