i've been riding more recently. it's been good for me. after those two days of horrible migraines, i fear the next one. the wax show is coming together. check it.


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i stay up too late and i get up too late and start my day too late. i'm feeling much better, but old habits die hard. i think when i am not sad, i have to look for things to be sad about. i think depression has become a crutch.

this summer may end up in trouble. i may have to run. keep beds open.

feeling good. i think i might go for a bike

just fuck it. really. i don't care. whatever.

there's really nothing.

i've lied too much. and now i have to pay.

i just don't know. i don't believe.

there should be grey colored vanilla ice cream.

whereas some wish they were more handy, i find myself being fitted into the category of a craftsman. more and more. and i have been trying to get away from that more and more. and people like pretty shit that they can put on their shelves and hold in their hands. i like to make that sometimes. i like to make a lot of noise. i think what i'm trying ( Read more... )

who needs the outside when i can stay in and listen to podcasts of npr programming? me. i gotta get back to my studio and get all those ideas out. all the pain and the solutions in the world just cloud the vision. i told the angel to step back some so i could get back to me. all the extra testosterone in my blood is doing something. a little more ( Read more... )

another year. has gone by. i really like the events that unfolded. some were just completely terrible. i've made bad choices. i've done good things. i've got work done. i'd wish i did more. but now i know where i stand. i love all my friends who have taken care of me. i love my lady who kills me sometimes, but she has something that i don't know ( Read more... )

and then there was...

who knows.

i make nekos into brown wax and then into bronze. and they will be your new gods.

everyone around me is not satisfied with the way things are going. i should rephrase that, everyone is sad and frustrated. we are all unsatisfied, but that's good. we should never be complacent and cool with things and let things run us and give in to all the things that we have fought against. living this way creates problems however. like our ups ( Read more... )

if you must, what right have i?

you're a soft blue light repeating.

in those warm nostalgic places that may not even have a foothold in the real world.