Comments | jithera: Karma and what to do about it.

jithera

Karma and what to do about it.

May 26, 2015 13:24

This is going to be an incredibly difficult post to write, both because I have to own my own shit in it and because the whole situation, start to finish, has been a horrid tale with a few bright spots. I'm trying hard to hold on to those bright spots, but at the moment the entire situation is a bit soul-crushing ( Read more... )

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wallbrat May 26 2015, 20:38:20 UTC

I know it's tough. He's had multiple chances, sis. It's not as if he didn't know the rules. These are not the actions of a man that respects you. These are the actions of a child.

Swallow your pride, hon. I'll help Mike if need be.

jithera May 26 2015, 20:48:10 UTC

This is his first day back at work since he fell apart on the call floor on Friday after she dumped him. He normally texts me to let me know how his day is going...haven't heard word one. I'm waiting until S gets home from her shift to see if he tried to fast-talk her again.

If he's smart, he won't. S will tear that boy apart.

wallbrat May 26 2015, 21:42:00 UTC

S? Means I don't know her. If he had gotten W involved in this I would have beat his ass.

I still want to but I think he wants to be punished.

jithera May 26 2015, 21:46:53 UTC

Nope, I'm pretty sure you don't know her.

*sighs* When he's not here, It's clear what needs to happen. When he gets home, I lose all motivation to do anything but try to work things out. Again.

wallbrat May 26 2015, 21:49:57 UTC

I'm sorry, sis. It's past working out, I think.

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jithera May 27 2015, 04:48:21 UTC

One more try. With contract that has guidelines for both our marriage and the BDSM aspect of things. Safewords, which I didn't require before. Actually filling out the fetishes part of his profile on FetLife so I know what he's into because verbal cues don't happen. Working on understanding each others cues on things. Learning to listen to what is said instead of hearing it through personal filters. ACTUALLY TALKING.

Our marriage will probably be an open one, so I don't expect something going one way and it going completely another.

If all goes well, we'll go over the contract yearly.

I hope it works this time, 'cause I'm fucking TIRED of hurting.

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jithera July 2 2015, 02:32:01 UTC

Funny thing...negotiation and contract still hasn't happened.