I DON'T WANT TO GO !

I can't wait to see everyone .
I can't wait to see snow .

But this trip is going to fuck EVERYTHING up .

My mother-daughter bond with my Son .
My relationship with Daniel .

WHAT THE FUCK AM I DOING !

I hate myself so much right now .
This is horrible .

I AM A HORRIBLE PERSON !

My head's a mess .

I have way too much to do in the next two months .

I love Daniel .

I am so in love with Elliot .

I'm very excited for Christmas .

My head's a mess .

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I want to sit here & smile . I want to sit here & actually enjoy where I am . But , I can't . This house has been my 'home' for 18 years . I know every corner & every crevice like the back of my hand . I have itchy feet . My trip will hopefully keep me going for a while longer . I need new scenery . I want to be able to call somewhere "my own" ( ( Read more... )