WHY????

[jjvarn8726]

So what the fuck? Why does my life have to be so difficult. WHY? Just when I think I'm doing ok. I have cleansed my life and I'm feeling better about myself and the direction I'm headed. Why does he have to go and fuck it all up again. So I'm having an ok day, not much happened, I'm going to Wal-mart with my friends to look for fabric for a show I'

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[starlighhht17]

Darling, I am here for you if you want to talk, let me know what your plans are as they come out, I would love to help in anyway I can:)

[rialc]

*hugs* Wishing you as much healing and happiness as the summer can bring... I'll be praying for you Jay. I love you, and I mean it!

[ksustud8]

Best Wishes! I suppose if that day comes then I will deal with it. Im not going to be a petty lil bitch and rant and rave so there. I hope you have a great life and good luck with whatever you decide to do, I know you hate me and Im fine with that, but I still wish you the best.

[jjvarn8726]

I don't hate you. I just never got to express how hurt I was. It bottled up and then it exploded that one night. You can't possible understand how much I loved you and how much it hurt when you just cut things off. I wish you the best also. So I got pissed and posted a bitter lj entry. Do I regret it no, did I mean what I said, somewhat. Have I moved passed those feeling, yes, now that I got them out. Please, just give me some time to rebulid and we can try a friendship thing. But it will take me time. Oh and your last text message, what was that about? It was my fault? or that was just being childish? Let me know.