moderately stupid thought
Maybe this is something stupid and something I should not even have to think about or worry about or maybe possibly dreaming about....but here is the story:
I have a "friend" who once has been my ESL student, only one year younger than me. After the tutoring was over, we still kept contact and I told him to not call me a teacher anymore. Then he started talking to me more often, asks me buy dinner for him...(well, this is kind of common in my culture, the older one buying a meal for the younger one)
but the problem is, all we talk about is that....
we don't really have any topic to talk about, when we meet, we just constantly make weird comment about what we see at that time, and our conversation breaks very frequently....
i HATE awkward silences in between conversation
we don't reallly have anything going on between us, we don't have any problem not contacting each other for really long time...
so he is more like just a person i know rather than a friend...
but everytime i go online, he talks to me and his first line always is: i'm hungry, buy me food~
........
then i tell him that we can meet when i have time, but the conversation ends from then.
I have nothing to talk to him, and he doesn't talk about anything else....
i don't think he likes me or anything.......is he?
i'm thinking more like he likes someone i know and because he can't approach her by himself, he is kind of using me...?
not too sure.....
also my concern is that i feel really uncomfortable talking to him....
i am usually not a person to start a conversation andi don't think he is either.....
but if he is my "friend" I should be able to talk to him about what is going on in my life and all, but I feel like I shouldn't be telling him that, possibly I think because he was my student before and I guess I want to still maintain that somehow...
and so a student should not know about a teacher's private life, i shouldn't really show my emotional side to him, right?
but then what do I talk to him about, then?
I am so confused on how I should continue on this relationship: as a friend? or just a person who has been my student once?