I realized recently that my views on things as a child, hell as an adult a year ago are different then what I feel today. I use to think growing up that love mean passion, desire and the aching to be with that person. I use to think that love had to romantic all of the time or that it meant you wanted to jump their bones all the time. But in ( Read more... )

Alot has gone on since I left Orlando only 4 weeks ago. My father moved to Florida last week. Once again he has up and left to be with another woman. I didnt say goodbye, neither did my sisters. I'm just tired of the back in forth in my life thing. Most people have 2 parents in their lives at my age. I have one who's pretty consistant at ( Read more... )

Just having a day where a song says a million things without realizing it ( Read more... )

My cousin is graduating from high school this saturday. Its wierd because she's my little cousin, I babysat her when she was younger and now shes going to be going off to college. She's upset about leaving her friends and moving on. I know how that feels all too well ( Read more... )

How is it one person can make you question everything. How is you can be with one person but think about another. Why is it I cant let go of certain people, one is totally wrong for me but I'm scared to be alone and the other has my heart but doesn't realize it and I'm scared to be rejected by. I've thought many times about what is better, to be ( Read more... )

I'm so confused. I don't know what I'm doing anymore. I knew when I got on the plane on Sunday that I wanted to move back to Florida and that I needed to break up with Andrew. Now I'm not sure. It's hard to imagine my life without him, like he's a huge part of it and I'm not sure if I'm willing to not have him in it ( Read more... )

So last night I tried to breakup with Andrew. It did not go super well, as most breakups dont. Rather than her him by saying I didnt want to move him I told him that I was planning on moving back to Florida. I figured it would be easier that way. It was hard as hell because I do love Andrew but being in love with him is just not there. A lot ( Read more... )

So my quick weekend trip away went great. I got to see most of my friends and catch. Most importantly I got to relax and attempt to get some things cleared up in my head. The later being the one that didnt happen but o well ( Read more... )

I've spend the last week wondering if what I'm doing is right. Well to be quite honest its what I want and thats all that matters. I dont intend on living my life with regrets, wondering if I should or shouldnt have done something. We only have one life right? I dont want to wake up in 20 years and go damn it was stupid not to do that ( Read more... )

So its been a very long and stressful week for me. Yesterday mom had surgery on her shoulder. Now don't get me wrong its not major surgery but anytime your put under there's cause for worry and with me we all know I do that best. So I spent the better part of yesterday at the hospital with her. I was definatly exhusted after that ( Read more... )