my future plans

I think on Friday when I come
back to columbia
i'm going to go to the dam
and jump off..........
and for once in my life i'm
going to pray.....
i'm going to pray
that I DIE

if you read this you have to give me
a definition of what love is
because obviously I don't
so i'd love for someone to tell
me so I command all of you tell
me what you think love is
so I can start to love Jarius
because for the past 2years we've been
together apparently I haven't been doing that

I no longer need happiness
all I want is you to be happy
if your happy then that's
all that matters
somewhere along the line
I lost it
my will to care
to be happy
you be happy
and i'll just
stand beside
you and be your trophy
i'll laugh and wave
get real dressed up
put on makeup
and smile
and on the inside
i'll continue to
wish you'd kill me

+smoking stick thingy ( Read more... )

I now understand when people told me stay
with your parents for as long as possible
I wish I would've listened
i'm not struggling but balancing my
check book is very depressing to me
i'm going to go cry now

ok so apparently ( Read more... )

I want someone ( Read more... )

yeah so next week I have a total of umm.... 0 hours ( Read more... )

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From my heart
to yours
as it all
pours
out
in a single word
or a thousand
verbs
I try to express
more or less
how my heart
woud adore the address
Mrs. Jones
because i've got
a jones
for you that i'm sure
is more than pure
your my heart
your my sun
your my only one
to prove to you this:
a lifetime is all that I need