If I were a DJ, I'd be DJ BOT MITZVAH

[jlybeanenema]

I am supposed to be the Jellybean Enema.

And I'm failing by succeeding.

I am addicted to the lifestyle I had sworn was ridiculous and worth tearing apart with much fang.

But it's strong in me. The desire to be seen. SEEN. Card carrying SCENE-whore.

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j-guilt?

[kabballer]

Charley, you can have it all. Brains and beauty. The world is yours.

[jlybeanenema]

...oh. Well. I feel silly now. I guess I overreacted. It just appeared so biting and on a subject I'm clearly conflicted about. I value your opinions highly so I took it as an offence to my character? Basically I felt like you were calling me a sell out. Clearly you weren't. Thanks for the apology.

[jlybeanenema]

Hrm. Well, I dont want to belabor the point, but I don't think existence contains meaning. I think meaning is plastic and pragmatically assigned. And deep down (or actually, not so deep) I'm a hedonist. As shallow as much of this is, I think there is some good here. But I will try not to let it devour me. Thanks for caring, sweetheart.

[sanserif]

i'm surprised i haven't seen you around more often. but its also hard to spot certain people when its mostly shoulder to shoulder crowds around. snake?! i dont want to be a snake! i'm faster anyway :P i dont take as many as i used to/should? now i'm just trying to spot the unique moments in the night.

i'll bump into you sometime soon.

[michaelpop]

Oh to be 21 again. Enjoy yourself because the good times don't last forever. I don't mean to sound so ominous, but at some point (probably not any time soon, however) you will wake up and realize that there was never a point to any of it. For now you have time on your side, so live it up while the livin' easy. You don't have to make excuses or get defensive about it. It's like a bonus adolescence, where you get to try on different masks and personas, except with more booze.

[jlybeanenema]

Thanks gramps :)