Faking what? I do my best to only be myself and then I just hope that is acceptable to those who care about me. Sometimes who I am conflicts with certain interests of mine though. We are all flawed in ways that are positive and negative.
I know at least one of my apartment mates read this so I'll probably hear about it later, but what I mean is I feel everyone is slowly coming apart at the apartment. It doesn't show up much but I just feel like friendships are starting to slowly become fake. Everyone still talks and everything but conversations just keep getting more and more generalized. Maybe its just everyone is growing and starting to do their own things or maybe I'm just looking into stuff too much, I don't know.
and when I say this I mean the four that live in U woods in the same apartment, everyone else seems to be fine. Elene, you and everyone else are fine. I should have been more concise in my question, sorry. I just see where smiles and conversations used to be are being replaced by just in passing comments like "what's up?"'s and "later"'s.
I don't know, I guess I'm just looking to deep. I have been extremely over contemplative today.
It's hard to say Roommate. I haven't noticed anything, but then again I don't live with you guys either. Adam seems to stay in his room a lot, which is not unusual really. So I don't think there's anything wrong there really. From my experience David isn't around a whole lot and most of the time I see him he's doing work or with Becky. Theo...I can't say. I don't have a lot of serious conversation with Theo nor have we ever known that much about each other really. Not because there's any problem, we just don't for some reason. From what I saw, this weekend went very well, but like I said...I don't live there. Who knows man. I know what it's like to feel the way you do though. It happens to me a lot.
I wouldn't worry about it roommate. Friendships build up, then sometimes they slow down a little. You can't be talking about stuff with them all the time, and not everything that happens to everyone is interesting. Once you know all the old stories, you have to wait for new ones to tell, and there's more to the friendships than sitting and talking. As it goes on, it's more of what you do than what you say sometimes. You don't care what they ate for breakfast, and they know it, but you're there if they need you for something, and you'll sing along with david or throw the nerf darts back and forth like a pro when everyone's tired, bored, or just need something to do.
I think I was a little quick to judgement because everything tonight seemed normal and all was good. I guess I just look it to stuff to much sometimes and just need to learn to sit back and see where things are going before I rush to judgement.
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I do my best to only be myself and then I just hope that is acceptable to those who care about me. Sometimes who I am conflicts with certain interests of mine though. We are all flawed in ways that are positive and negative.
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I don't know, I guess I'm just looking to deep. I have been extremely over contemplative today.
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