There is no emoticon for what I am feeling.
My grandmother died yesterday. My mom went over in somewhat detail. She took ambien Sunday to sleep, woke up with a bump on her head, she was bleeding. went to bridge monday. fell. went to the ER had surgery. Was conscious thursday evening. said she wanted to go. They did wahtever thursday night and she died.
My dad has been sober all week. Conversation turned there. About him. They are both broken up over it, she and my mom were close friends. I became upset, I don't know about losing my grandmother or about talking about my dad. Either is possible, I don't know. I couldn't call my dad and say anything. Dave thought I should, but I can't. I'd call and there'd be silence from me.
I finished up my deliverable, gave up on the last two bugs. Went home, ate lunch, slept.
TOmorrow will be a busy day. Boss's birthday party, trim to hang, walls to patch and paint.
I am looking through my photos trying to find photos of the house as it looked before I moved in to post on craigslist. Instead I see photos of exgirlfriends and all the pics Alison has sent me over the years. Just more things to be emotional about and nothing helpful. Annoying.
Found the damn photos. THank god for Gmail.
My dad has been sober all week. Conversation turned there. About him. They are both broken up over it, she and my mom were close friends. I became upset, I don't know about losing my grandmother or about talking about my dad. Either is possible, I don't know. I couldn't call my dad and say anything. Dave thought I should, but I can't. I'd call and there'd be silence from me.
I finished up my deliverable, gave up on the last two bugs. Went home, ate lunch, slept.
TOmorrow will be a busy day. Boss's birthday party, trim to hang, walls to patch and paint.
I am looking through my photos trying to find photos of the house as it looked before I moved in to post on craigslist. Instead I see photos of exgirlfriends and all the pics Alison has sent me over the years. Just more things to be emotional about and nothing helpful. Annoying.
Found the damn photos. THank god for Gmail.