Rube Goldberg vs Autoerotic Affixiation.

[jmhewitt]

Sunday I played ultimate in the rain and mud on a soccer field. It was my best game in a long time, and my first game as a handler. I am still weak at it, but in hat league strong enough to take the position. I don't think I dropped the disc and made good throws, but to beginners

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[lynden]

As morbid as it sounds, I don't see how anyone can go throughout life without thinking about suicide, if they say they haven't, they have to be in denial.

[jmhewitt]

Yes, but in this particular case it had nothing to do with me personally, my mind was just aimlessly wondering how to pervert various things.

The other idea of the night was being a man-whore, but being really really bad at it. Someone notices their partner is probably going to stray, thinking the grass is always greener... so they hire you out and you are really really bad, so bad they are thankful they are with whomever possessed these insecurities...

I do remember being fascinated by a kid in my highschool comitting suicide by jumping of a bridge. He walked to it, it was 5 miles away I think. I just thought, "Wow, that's a long walk to go on to decide for that whole distance that yeah you are going to do it." The kid didn't even die instantly, the drop wasn't far enough, I think he spent a day or two in intensive care.