Less than 36 hours away from no interaction with real people. Deal with it. No it's not me being sad, it's me being in a race... a massive race with everyone. BOOM! But I'll be back next week. No exams this week, so I'm functional and such. But I am bored now. It's really hard to do things when you don't have to.

DING!

words words words words, feelings feelings feelings, calling those feelings unjustified. Telling you all not to read this. Being angry, seeking to fill a void, no returned calls... void... yeah, that's how this is going to go. So I'll skip all the bullshit. Hope the things that have lately turned for the worse for everyone are getting better... ( Read more... )

To those who I was out with and had to run off on, I'm sorry. When I got to my car and looked at my phone I got a message from my parents that my grandma was back in the hospital. While she's doing fine now, the simple fact is, I was not in a position to say goodbye to anyone tonight. I'm sorry I ran off, but I had to. I should still see most of ( Read more... )

As those who matter know, today things went horribly wrong. The thing that I had kind of been building my whole summer around, this little trip off to a cabin or camping with the people I consider closest to me will no longer involve me, while I don't feel comfortable disclosing details as to why this isn't happening for me it is suffice to say ( Read more... )

As I stare at these hands in front of me I recount so many memories. But memories as I learned while passed out on a futon just over a year and a half ago are all we really have to prove we're real. Memories hold what little we can understand of this crazy crazy universe together. And I love to associate my life with music. Music is so much of who ( Read more... )

Clever got me this far...

This is not where I should be...

Odds are the next 20,000 that fill my life will be pretty much the same too.

Who are you to say these things to these people at a time like this