One day all the walls will crumble...

[jnance]

I've been trying to figure out how to write this.. or express it.. or something. And it terrifies me more than anything to break down the walls around my heart and let anyone know what is really there.. but im beginning to wander if telling someone isnt the first step to getting past something

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[piratekid]

Nance! Not having a car does suck...course i did total mine and im sure yours is in one piece...i know what ya mean by saying you need to keep busy, i think the job thing would be good for you...at least that way you'd be making money, and i know you'd be able to handle the work with your school stuff...get a job on campus, those are the best...ya usaually don't need a car to get to them...o well, i was bored and thought i'd try to help...eh? keep your chin up, you'll find stuff to do...sorry if my rambling was of no use...night

p.s.- download the song "the luckiest" by ben folds...its puuuuurty

Me last year... (from kate)

[anonymous]

Hello beautiful. Its me, Kate. I was just randomly reading your most recent entry about not liking it up here because there is nothing to do. I felt the exact exact way last year. I was so involved in high school and always had things to do. I never got too stressed out so I loved running from place to place, meetings to meetings, practices to practices. My first semester last year was a whirlwind but at the same time was boring in a way. After the first semester I learned about all the programs/clubs/activities that were available here. I gotta tell you, I think its okay to not have anything to do the first semester of college. You gotta get situated and meet people. Meeting people is crucial. The connections you make with these people at college last forever. So for now, live it up! After freshman year, you may not have time to just sit back and relax. Next semester, I promise, opportunities to get involved will be all around you. You will have so many choices you won't know what to do with them. Also, if you need someone to "get

hey hey!

[emiweeweeweewee]

i'm sorry to hear things aren't cool right now... you said that you feel like being there is pointless, but you know that you are supposed to be there. if you are supposed to be there then how is it pointless? i know that you are impatient about things and what God has for your life, we've talked about that a million times, but if you are where you are supposed to be then that's where you need to be. you maybe there for preparation, to make particular friends, or ohhh get an education...haha :). i know you like to be on the run and responsible and on the go but maybe the timing isn't right yet for those things, trust me they will come. keep your eye out for where God maybe leading you to work, serve, get involved or whatever and as he shows you...follow. I'm praying for you. i'm here if you wanna talk. :)

hhhhhhhhheeeeeeeeeeyyyyyyyyy

[rockclimbernick]

i remember how it was...jess you ran the school. i seriously dont see how you did it.

and i remember all the times you got sooo stressed out and how traumatic that was for you...

i know how you feel traped...its like my summers before i got my lisence last year. nowhere to go and nothing to do.

and once again our great freind ADHD throws another one at us... the constant figeting and lack of focus...we hate sitting still, and if we are in one place for to long and arent doing anything interesting it freaks us out.

i dont know how it is for you though, you know how i am.

i feel for you. and i miss you. and i hope things start looking up for you.