This past week has been so insane!  I don't even really know where to start, so I suppose I will tell you about orientation.  I got there almost late so a lot of socializing with fellow freshman didn't happen - which was very fine with me.  Unfortunately, I had to leave my mother and get into my group of about 12.  There was a guy from nebraska, ( Read more... )

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sometimes we spend sleepless nights talking to God, telling Him just how sorry we are.  Other times we spend the day fasting in our undergarments, sobbing for and whispering about all the things we are ashamed to have done, knowing that He hears us and wants to heal us.  but then... the night comes and we slip into sleep without praying or giving ( Read more... )

Be thou familiar, but by no means vulgar. Give every man thy ear, but few thy voice; take each man's censure, but reserve thy judgment. Neither a borrower nor a lender be; for loan oft loses both itself and friend. And this above all: to thine ownself be true, and it must follow, as the night the day, thou canst not then be false to any man.

I'm wild again, beguiled again, a wimpering, simpering child I am.
    kvjr

i'm a strong human being.
i'll always be okay.

we're strong human beings.
we'll always be okay.

i am uncomfortable + unsettled thinking about how men [or boys?] are.  & how secretly men are, absorbed + infatuated, alone + restless.  sometimes i can't stand to be around men [or boys?] because of all the sexual energy i feel.  & then i can't help but get red + run away so i wouldn't be in the presence of these adolescent raging testosterone

our lives our not our own even the wind plays still.
all i felt was fire and bone
& movement movement
if they ask you for a sign of the Father
tell them it's movement movement of hope

Love shouldn't make a beggar of one. I wouldn't want love if I had to beg for it, to barter or qualify it. And I should despise it if anyone ever begged for my love. Love is something that must be given-it can't be bought with words or pity, or even reason.

I must keep this in mind.