For some reason today is a really bad Kyle day. I think after the realization that every one is not Kyle and that I'm going to have to look real hard to find someone as great as him....I realize even more that I miss him more than anything ( Read more... )

Some days I wonder....will there ever be a day that goes by that I don't think of Kyle? Granted I talk to him pretty much everyday.....but I mean honestly think about him and wonder what he's doing and if he's happy. I only ever want him to be happy. There are just things that happen in daily life that make me think of him and I wish they weren't ( Read more... )

I looked at the past entries and realized that I only write when things are bad. So this is a positive entry ( Read more... )

Isn't funny how everything seems to fall apart at once or everything good happens at once ( Read more... )

Last week was a wonderful week. It was Kyle's spring break and he came down to Tally. It was nice to spend sometime with him as my friend. It was really sad because I'd like to have a second chance with him but it's not going to happen. The bottom line is that I pushed him away because I was scared that I was for real in love with him. There was ( Read more... )

I honestly thought that when the day came where Kyle and I broke up my world would just stop and I would cease to exisit. Depending on when you asked me that could have been either a good thing or a bad thing. But honestly I'm doing alright. A lot better than I thought I would be doing. The distance helps since I don't have to see him all the time ( Read more... )

Going home this weekend was a much needed experience. Just to be surrounded by people who love you more than anything else and to have friends who give up certian things just to hang out with you is nice. It was nice to feel important and needed and wanted. I haven't felt that good in a long time. Sean and Jamie are incredible friends whom I ( Read more... )

I'm going home this weekend. Thank God! I can't wait to hug my mom. I've missed Sean and Jamie soooooo much. There is so much to do in a day and a night cause I gotta come back to Tally Sunday morning for a bball game, but it's just enough time.

I'll miss my claudie bear!

I am completely in love with Kyle Baxter ( Read more... )

I miss him....so badly...that it hurts everytime I think of it. I know I know, then don't think about it, but it's so hard not to. I love him more than I've ever loved someone. This love I have is what I've always dreamt of. My worst fear is disappointing him and not being everything he needs me to be. That would kill me ( Read more... )