I noticed that I tend to write on here when something bad happens....and here I am yet again. I found out on Wednesday that my grandpa passed away. He had been sick for a long time, and we all knew it was coming....but even when you know it's going to happen, it's still so hard to deal with. And honestly, I don't know if I am strong enough to deal ( Read more... )

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well, as you all know, yesterday was the one year anniversary of mike's death. i was gloomy all day, and i'm sorry to those of you that i pissed off. i went out to the crash site yesterday, and when i got there, mike's dad was there. i thought i'd be fine going up there, but when i saw his dad, i lost it. i couldn't handle it. everyone keeps saying ( Read more... )

well, mike's 19th birthday would be sunday. i can't believe he's been gone for almost a year. i see his sisteer driving his car every once in a while and i immediately think "it's mike!" and then i come to my senses and realize that it will never again be mike in that car.It makes me laugh, i miss him like crazy eventhough he pissed me off so much ( Read more... )

ahh....living by MYSELF is the best feeling ever. I'm so happy now. I'm no longer being put down by my "best friend" everyday and i'm not being lied to anymore. I'm glad that I can FINALLY be ME and not what everyone else wants me to be. I found out who my true friends are in all of this too.....so to all of you who have been there for me ( ( Read more... )

i guess it's been a while since i last updated. so much has happened since then.Tarah and I finally moved into our apartment in the beginning of october. i never thought i would say this, but it's been great living back in jamestown. I never thought that i would miss it here, but i did. I missed being able to see my friends whenever i wanted ( Read more... )

well, my saturday night was muy interesting...i found out that ron was cheating on me with alexis servis the entire time we were together.i went to his house to talk to him about it and for a while, everything was fine. then he flipped out on me and grabbed my arms and forced me down the stairs. so i walk outside and to the car. by the time i got ( Read more... )

it's been two months today since mike died. i can't even believe that it has been that long.it seems like it all just happened last week. tarah saw shrts at old navy that kinda look like a jersey and it has mikey on the back, so we are going to get them and wear them in honor of him.well, tarah and i are finally getting an apartment. FINALLY. this ( Read more... )

ahh! well, i guess i must update....ron and i had a very long talk last night and everything is just peachy again. we told eachother EVERYTHING that was on our minds. I vented a lot. it felt good to get things out in the open. and so, we are better. no grant.ever. i'm happy and that's all that matters.yay! i cannot wait til tuesday! the big 1-8. ( Read more... )

hmm. where to even begin. i don't know what ron's problem is but i'm NOT going to play games. he can end that shit right now. He told me last night and this morning that he was falling in love with me. then at about 2 he tells me that he doesn't think its a good idea for me to go to his house anymore because he doesn't like me. it doesn't make any ( Read more... )