Ughh...

[joemwild]

I really meant to wake up earlier, but that didn't end up happening. Steph called at 11:30 last night and kept me on the phone for an hour. She split with her boyfriend that she'd been seeing for a number of years. And I always wind up being the shoulder for people. I don't mind that. It's good to feel useful

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[lexabear]

You don't have to get into a relationship just to be in a relationship. If you feel you need time to yourself, take it. Take yourself off the market. Some people feel the need to always be in a relationship, and I think you're like that. But work on your independence and you'll probably feel a lot better about yourself. If you're not excited about the prospect of a relationship, just drop the idea until you are.

[joemwild]

I've been working on the independence thing for a year now. You'd think that I'd be good with it by now. I go back and forth, really. I have days where I really miss having someone, and days where I don't want to be bothered with anyone. I'm kinda aware that the combination would be a bad one for any kind of relationship right now. I think that's holding me back more than anything. I'm pretty certain I'd treat someone terribly right now, and I'm not really keen on doing that.

[lexabear]

>You'd think that I'd be good with it by now.

It takes how long it takes. There's no magic number of days where you suddenly wake up and feel different. The important part is that you recognise you're not ready and intentionally hold yourself back from pursuing bad ideas.

[joemwild]

I, at the very least, give a good firm effort in holding myself back from pursuing bad ideas. Some mornings I wake up and that restraint is more difficult than on other days. ;)