Most of the time I know it's self pity, but it's so difficult. I do try to keep in mind that her last several years were horrifically painful, that her bones were basically dissolving. Still hard, miss her voice most of all.
Dad is great, he still has such zest for life. He's not "moving on" but hey why should he? We cry together, then we go on. We usually cook together. I'm getting fatter and he's getting skinnier. Oh well.
It's not silly J. I feel for you. Missing someone like that is sheer agony, so you are a lot stronger than most people. Sorry i dont have a lot of useful things to say but you have my hug.
It's something I would trade, but I loved her dearly she was so much of the balance in my life. She was an artist and a philosopher and could tell one helluva story.
try to embrace instead of letting go ..she will always be there in your thoughts so you might as well strive to make them happy and welcoming ... my mom passed 30 years ago,she was someone I idolized,and I've never felt like she has been far cuz I knew her "will to exist" was strong ..so I welcome her into my thoughts at the drop of a hat
the relationship with your Dad is something not very many people have at all ever,so I think you are doublely lucky there
also ...often tears are a necessary passage for a person ...just remember you are going thru a landmark in your life too..hopefully sorrow/tears can turn into smile/tears
I hope this beautiful upcoming spring will turn into a time to celebrate for you ..I think you are doing good things ~share updates
I really am looking forward to spring this year, not that we had much of a winter. The rain this week has been great and I'm looking forward to getting the gardens together.
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Dad is great, he still has such zest for life. He's not "moving on" but hey why should he? We cry together, then we go on. We usually cook together. I'm getting fatter and he's getting skinnier. Oh well.
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strive to make them happy and welcoming ...
my mom passed 30 years ago,she was someone I idolized,and I've never felt like she has been
far cuz I knew her "will to exist" was strong ..so I welcome her into my thoughts at the drop of a hat
the relationship with your Dad is something not very many people have at all ever,so I think you are
doublely lucky there
also ...often tears are a necessary passage for a person ...just remember you are going thru a landmark in your life too..hopefully sorrow/tears can turn into smile/tears
I hope this beautiful upcoming spring will turn into a time to celebrate for you ..I think you are doing good things ~share updates
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Even the dancing feels exciting and new.
I do love retirement.
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We actually had weather here today; rain, wind, dreary mostly. Not used to having weather.
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