I'm really fucking tired of feeling looked down on for working at a porn store as far as dating goes. Ok guys, I have had real jobs with benefits that were actual 'career' type jobs. I got stuck in a shitty job by a shitty situation and there is no reason to keep killing myself looking since I want to move at the end of my lease anyway. I guess ( Read more... )

... with a wonderful guy last night =) Guess I just have to see where it goes. I don't wanna get excited too fast, but it looks pretty nice so far. I'm looking forward to getting to know him better.

Well, Misti and I had tickets to see Rigoletto for what we thought was Saturday night. After getting back from the gym I realized the opera was FRIDAY NIGHT!!! we missed it. DAMN! $45 dollar ticket wasted because we are both too busy to know our asses from a hole in the ground. I just tell myself it was not meant to be... for some reason I ( Read more... )

I'm feeling very lonely today.. all I do is work and go to the gym, that's about it. If I can just make it through the next six months of my life I'm hoping things will start to turn around. As much as I hate to say it Valentine's day made me miss Phil, oh well.. guess I'm just meant to be on my own right now. I am getting a lot done really.. ( Read more... )

I SO should be posting more.. I have a lot going on in my life but really no time to screw around on the computer and write. I did hit a big milestone yesterday... for the first time in since probably my JR year in high school I am under 300 lbs. I am about 298 I'd say and very excited. Thanks to you guys for the supportive messages ( Read more... )

Well, I have lost about 40 lbs now... at about 304 lbs now which for me is the smallest I've been in about 7 years.. I'm hopin to be at 280 before my birthday March 8th and then I may look into another tuck or more lipo of some sort =) WOOHOO... I'm gonna wait and see how things look then. OH, and I'm listening to my new dance CD ( Read more... )

Well, it does not really feel like Christmas today... I already was with my family, Misti and I did gifts and dinner last night.. so today I go back to work. I guess mostly I am just being thankful for the good things God has given me and helped me with today. It has been a very nice holiday. I miss having a partner to share it with, but God ( Read more... )

Well, they guy that I've been talking to online a couple of years that was supposed to visit never showed up and never called.. I am SO sick of flakes.. oh well.. I mean, call and tell me what the fuck is up at least

Well, I had a wonderful visit to Texas... now it's time to get ready to head to the airport and get back up to Chicago. I really miss living in Dallas *sigh* but just gotta see where life takes me... maybe in the next couple of years it will take me back to Dallas, who knows. I kinda hope so though.

I am gonna be in town wednesday night Dec 14... anyone that wants to see me I'll be at Razzoo's in south Arlington by the Parks mall at 9pm Dec 14 .. probably going to Village Station afterwards.. let me know if you wanna come along