Is it possible to be addicted to the feeling of being upset and sad?
...that could explain a lot.

Life is rather good. Tracy gets back soon. Summer school is hard but I actually feel like I doing stuff. Santa Barbara seems rather cool as in not too hot in comparison to the rest of California. And most importantly no parents.
See... happy posts aren't interesting at all.

So I haven't updated in awhile... and wait... I don't actually want to update now... cause I don't really have anything to say... what the hell was I thinking?

Interesting week. Back from oddworld.

Online dictionaries will actually say the word for you... so you won't have to mispronounce things... I don't know why I find that so amazing...
I keep on really liking the things I'm reading... so it is like I can't stop... like I was in dearth of books to read and now I can't get enough.
Or maybe I'm just trying to find a replacement for video

I feel like falling onto the ground crying except I know it won't accomplish anything. I didn't get in to any of my transfer schools... while not positive, if I didn't get into Davis I have -3% of getting in anywhere else. And now I have no clue what the fuck I am going to do. I already decided thatI should leave Santa Barbara... but what else do I ( Read more... )

Yay... I'm back home for Spring Break. Spring BREAK!
Wait... I'm in Benicia. And there is really nothing to do. Not that there was a lot to do in Santa Barbara with everyone gone for Spring Break.
Oh well. Time to learn how to read and write again.

So I have decided to wage a war on sleep to tackle my annoying eight page paper in one night. Thesis Both love and lust are shown to be illusions by the fairy, Disenchantment. Yet Cao Xueqin makes a very distinct difference in the two that is echoed throughout the novel. The Story of the Stone shows how true love, not lust, can lead to a person’s ( Read more... )

Mr. Cold. How can you infect me for almost three weeks now? I know I have a shitty immune system, and I'm not the best patient, but the last four days I've done nothing but sleep and I'm still not better. When I go and play frisbee, you punish me the next day so I'm trying to stop that. But if I miss much more practice, I think the team is going to ( Read more... )

I wish I was better at lying to myself.
I bet if I could, I would be a lot happier.
Maybe my perception just needs a retuning.
You need to be confident in order to succeed. So if you're not confident... you suck. Isn't that a fun infinite spiral.