Incongruity (and a corny ending)

[johnnicholases]

Well, I'm back and it's been what - three years? two? something like that. If you're reading this, you know about me. No need to fill you in

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[pseudo1]

I'm glad you've found a significant chunk of contentment, vin. sounds like you haven't been this happy in years, or ever, maybe

[johnnicholases]

Thank you, good sir. I don't if it's entirely contentment, though there's definitely some of that, I'm still fraught with certain anxieties. I think it's more perspective. As you said, I've largely tucked away the nostalgia (though I still take it out on occasion), and I've also sort of outgrown angst. There was, and will yet be, a lot of rockiness, but I'd guess I feel like I've finally arrived in adulthood, more or less, and it feels good. Also, I take a certain pleasure in having built a career from scratch. I know luck definitely played a role, but I'm proud of myself for that. I think of a conversation I had with Steve awhile back about how our twenties are going - I said that compared to what I thought it would be when I was 15, it's kinda sucked, but compared what I thought it would be at 20, it's been pretty good. That's kind of how I feel. Not great, but better than before