lost-ish

[johnny1017]

ive been thinking alot lately...i know most of these start this way..why should this one be any different. meh. but regardless ive been thinking a lot. im changing. i can feel it. im having a hard time judging if its good bad or neutral. im changing. but i dont want to. i need to but i dont know how to influence it. i wish i did, but im afraid if i

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[anonymous]

I'm not logged in at the moment (reset my automatic passwords and forgot my lj login password, silly me), but it doesn't matter because I'm sure you know who this is. So there is an explanation you deserve, but it's taken a while to realize what changed my mind about you which is why I'm telling you now. I'm telling you on lj because you unfriended me on facebook and myspace. Lame, but I kind of deserved it. John, you are open, friendly, kind, and sincere. But one thing that was somewhat off-putting was how you didn't hold back at all in describing the house and life you wanted, including the wife and kids. After a while, it seemed like you had a picture-perfect image in your head and you were just looking for the woman to fill that role. Most likely this is not the case, but really it began to feel like it very fast. That's a scary notion, and an expectation not easy to take on. You could make so many women happy, and so many could make you happy, and you're really too wonderful of a person to get hurt again and again. I hope this