Sometimes i can be around all the people i care most for and that care most for me and still feel a little lonel. its not your fault and its not mine. its not a big deal and theres nothing wrong. but i will get quiet and i probably wont inject myself into the surrounding situation so much as sit by and just enjoy the company i do have.

 im guessing i need change. lots of change. because apparently i seem angry all the time and im really not. oh well though ( Read more... )

 first let me start out by saying ( Read more... )

 that i will end you ( Read more... )

 you are the worst person i have ever met.
you truly dont give a good god damn about anyone else but yourself.
i hate you so much. and i have never hated anyone.
not even carly.

so i need to teach myself to be more disciplined. but its dificult.

ive been more and more anti social lately.. hopefully it turns around soon.

i hate aking economics classes.

yet another  craptacular day.

car died again.
of course the alternator has to die if the battery already died.
more money i didnt have spent.
micro economics is taught by a head job.

night

 i miss all the adventure we use to have
i miss all our sponteneity, being the one to be like we shouldnt be doing this
i miss the thrill of were gonna get in trouble for this..but fuck it lets do it anyway.
i think im the only one. damnit.

 im settling one of my internal struggles ( Read more... )

 i often times find that the hardest thing fro me to do is put in to words and articulate whats goign on inside me. and being the open person that i am i really want to, and i try, and most of the time it just comes out and makes me look like some kind of under educated bafoon. and this may yet be another of those times ( Read more... )