the best part of waking up

[johnnygodarkly]

It's a strange feeling when things start to look better but then the inevitable happens. And you're ditched again. But the strange part is, you've stopped waiting. Stopped hoping. In fact, you've began anticipating the disappointment and it doesn't really feel like much anymore. People seem to be so much more sincere in what they feel and say when

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[starlightwaltz]

im not sure i understand this... its almost like i let you down somehow.. and i dont know what to feel. When i said no fuzzy head, it meant that i couldnt put all the little things together into one big picture.. not that i didnt mean what i said.

i suppose the biggest reason i want to talk is that for once, i dont want to fuck anything up by little games, or shyness or anything else.. i just want to tell you how i feel. All of it.

[starlightwaltz]

bah, i feel stupid because i sorta freaked.. as it is, i just want to be sincere and honest. completely. sorry for ranting like an idiot.

[starlightwaltz]

oh.. damn. i feel sorta stupid now. *sigh* god im an emotional pansy.

[starlightwaltz]

uhm, yes you are definitly part of it. As for NC, yes i know things are able to happen however at the same time im not sure its right right now. Especially if i have to stay there for a year before i am able to go to school for less than 30k a year. There are also many other things that go along with it.. Ha, and im glad that you like it.. not sure why, its usually just a bunch of crap.

and screw Ridiculous.. that words needs to be replaced.