And i wont lie that's not totally far from off. i've had a rough week and tomorrow is like semi-judgement day for me.. wether or not im going to school this semester, im so un-prepared, i probably would be better off waiting a year and going back next year fully preped but that's not my style at all. but i do realize.. it's time to finally grow up ( Read more... )

ever been sick and not one fucking person knows what's wrong with you? sure for a few days... but it's a week now and im pissed, i've been stuck home im on day #6, i haven't been to work haven't been out, and i spent valentines day in a doctors office and i'm sure i've lost close to 20 pounds cuz i haven't eaten all week either, but im sure that's ( Read more... )

there's only ever been one thing in life that im afraid of. your parents are always there for you and they tell you they love you no matter what and they're proud of you blah blah blah, and they do things for you because they're you're parents, because they want to do these things, and i think my worst fear is in the process of happening, and that' ( Read more... )

hey hey campers. j rizzo here. lots of things happening.. selecting few. i'[ll go backwards from here. Friday was a good day spent some time with tudor.. went to a show.. danced.. got kicked in the back of teh head.. watched tudor kick some poor girl in the back of the head, and i still hurt. coincidentially enough my head never hurt. THursday was ( Read more... )

im sitting here in dc and... i just don't know, and for those of whom know me, admitting feelings isnt' an easy thing espcially since im against them in part, but some things can't be helped. i have this torn feling inside of me, and distance keeps making me ache more. i don't know what to do. and things kinda have a slightly weird feel which might ( Read more... )

Hey hey busy weekend for me.. or not. saturday was an absolute waste of a day.. finished real bad in the free roll, adn ahve absolutely no money and got yelled at by cait for being poor ;) thanks!..lol but dam this gets cut short because im going with jeremy to clean and make some quick NEEDED cash. will resume later

WOW, what a shitty night, and it was acctually shittier then i could of imagined it to be. i haven't seen jed in a while and i do miss him, but earlier tonite i thoguht i owuln'dt be seeing him ever again. kyle and lee.. and i dunno if josh was in on it... but kyle tells me that jed's friend chris came to the pool hall last night and said that jed ( Read more... )

Started training to be a server at work today it's about damn time, im still ina funk tho. ppl at work noticed it and all i oucld pass off on themw as im tired they buy it of course but bru ha ha ha i know better. i dunno why either im trying to look positively on things. but damnit. im a pool man not a magician.. don't worry marv... he aint got ( Read more... )

It's been a long 2 days wayy too much sleep last night into today. passed out at 830, and for some reason i have such negativity flowing through my body right now, i dunno why, but even my fingers feel worthless, its odd. My arm is half numb too i dunno if that plays any part in it. i guess im just a ball of whatever inside, i let somethign get to ( Read more... )

ANd neither was i to bowl well on saturday. another disappointing tournament for me, no big surprise, but it doesn't get any easier to deal with, im convinced it gets worse every week. next week is a week off, goign to spend some quality time during that weekend, not working friday saturday the party is somewhere. Rutgers was fun, it was cool ( Read more... )