i'm pissed at everything and need to leave. yeah yeah i know you've heard this a million times from me before but i'm finally just SICK of such a boring life and nothing to stay here for so this weekend if i can i'm outta here.
sorry for agravating everyone but i guess i just needed to get my thoughts straight.
peace and love,
~john~

hey hey....if i can just get my parents to leave today, i can get on the bus and go to the bank to find if i can get the money ( Read more... )

oh my lordy...my fucking father took the bankbook with him when he went out this afternoon and now i'm down at the rockport pubic library cuz i'm sick of home. many people have been telling me i should get the fuck out of here and go live with her and i think they're right. all i have to do is go there, stay with her and ruby for a few days, find a ( Read more... )

change of pace
change of face
sometimes i need to fall
from god's good grace
if i break the cycle
will it fall apart
sometimes i don't
know where to start

last night i talked to ruby and denisse for a long time, then after i got off, i watched some of pretty woman and went to sleep...i had a huge long dream and denisse was in it. then i woke up at 5 AM and went back to sleep, had another dream, went BACK to sleep, had yet ANOTHER friggin' dream and went back to sleep. then i woke up around 10- ( Read more... )

i'm sick of people trying to tell me i'm supposed to be something i'm not. what if i wanna dress a certain way or not dress a certain way? what if i wanna go and do something that people think i won't succeed at? what if i wanna be myself when they don't want me to be? well i'm sure as hell not gonna let that happen anymore because people have ( Read more... )

holy cow dude ( Read more... )

darkened room
feeling nothing but alone
and empty
without you
i feel nothing but a hole
inside me
if you were here
then i would wrap my arms
around you
keep you near
and i would make a wish
to stay like that
forever
in a darkened room
with you
~john~

man oh man my room looks so clean...i cleaned it all up, made my bed, fixed the shit up and everything looks great ( Read more... )

yeah yeah i know that's a gay headline but hey gimme a break i'm in a good mood ( Read more... )