In Orbit *oneshot*
Pairing: HimUp
Rated: PG13
Length: 9K
Everyone could tell just by looking that Kim Himchan was infatuated with the young dancer. The way his mouth would drop slightly open as he watched the way his body moved during dance practice. The clenched fists whenever someone took their skinship a little too far with the younger. Even his smile looked pained and nervous when they were in close proximity to each other.
But what made everyone for sure without a doubt the olders intentions were the muffled moans and heavy pants they heard every time Himchan would excuse himself to go to the bathroom immediately after sharing an accidental touch with the other.
It was also shared knowledge that Moon Jongup was just as attracted to the older male. Shared between everyone but the two in question, of course. No, those two were completely oblivious to anything but their own emotions.
Jongup's affections were a little more obvious, but a little less intense than the others. He would blush when showed rare one-on-one attention, smile a little extra brighter at Himchan's embarrassing attempt at aegyo, and frown and look away sadly when Himchan would openly flirt with the other members instead of him.
They all knew it was just harmless touching. Himchan was known for being a touchy feely kind of guy, but it always made his band mates feel a little guilty when they saw the crestfallen expression on innocent Jongup's face.
But it never bothered any of them to do the same thing to Himchan. It was pretty much an unspoken fact between the rest of the group that pissing off Kim Himchan was open season.
So anytime one of them had the chance to do skinship with Jongup, they automatically jumped for it. Especially Daehyun and Youngjae, who even though they were well known to be in a committed relationship, loved to slip their arms around Jongup's shoulders, or whisper something in his ear to make him burst into peals of laughter.
Watching Himchan's eyes close to slits and his lips tighten to white was a never ending source of amusement to them.
"I bet I can get him to leave the dinner table tonight." Youngjae whispered into Daehyun's ear as they took a quick break during dance practice.
"I bet I can make him leave right now." Daehyun grinned back.
Youngjae bounced in his seat and pushed Daehyun away from him. "Do it! Do it!" He urged, shooing him along.
Daehyun casually strolled up to Jongup who was sprawled across the middle of the dance floor, drinking a bottle of water. He snuck a glance at Himchan across the room, noticing him leaning against the wall and concentrating on his phone's screen.
"Sorry Jonguppie, but do you mind moving? There's a step in the choreography that I really need to practice some more on. I'm having a bit of a problem getting it right."
Jongup jumped up to his feet, his never fading smile on his face. "Sure hyung! Do you need some help with it?"
Daehyun internally fist pumped himself that Jongup took the bait. The younger never could refuse to help one of his hyung's with their dancing.
"Do you mind?" He bit his lip, trying to look bashful. "I don't want to bother you during your break."
Jongup grinned even wider and put down his water bottle. "It's not a bother, really. I know you'd help me if I asked you for it. Besides, I don't need as long of a break as you all. I can work out for longer since I'm so used to it." He stretched his arms out and cracked his neck to the side. "So which step did you need help with?"
Daehyun purposely picked the most sexual part of the dance to claim problems with.
"I just can't get my body to move as fluidly as yours does." He whined after pretending to mess the hip roll up.
Jongup frowned. "I didn't notice you having problems with this step earlier."
"I was just moving my hands around and singing louder to over-compensate." Daehyun lied, catching Youngjae's eyes in the mirror and winking.
"You've got nothing you need to over-compensate for, Daehyunnie!" Youngjae called, grinning.
"That was more information than any of us needed to hear, Yoo Youngjae." Yongguk growled from his place on the floor.
Daehyun noticed that the remark caught Himchan's attention and he smirked at his boyfriend in the mirror. "I think we need to let Jonguppie figure that out for himself, jagiya."
Jongup looked between the two, not understanding that Daehyun's flirty sexual remark was solely meant to anger Himchan.
"Anyways..." Jongup tried to move the subject back to the dance and stood beside Daehyun so that they could both see themselves in the mirror. "Watch what I'm doing." He ordered before he demonstrated the move for him.
Daehyun played dumb and swung his hips in the opposite direction.
"No, no, no." Jongup interrupted, moving to stand behind him and aligning his smaller body with the elder's as best he could. "Do you feel the way my hips are moving?" He placed his body flush against Daehyun's and grabbed his waist to gently try to move him the way he needed to go.
Daehyun chanced a peek at Himchan in the mirror, pleased to see his scary "don't touch what's mine" face was firmly in place. You could practically see the steam emerging from his ears as Jongup and Daehyun sensually moved their hips together. The jaw was clenching and Daehyun knew it was only a matter of time before Himchan completely lost it.
"I think I've almost got it." He said, grabbing Jongup's waist, fingers slipping underneath his shirt, and pulling back beside him. "Do you care to show me what position your hips are in at the last step? Just so I can try to mimic with my own?"
Like the little trusting sweetheart he was, Jongup grinned again and nodded. "Ok!" He reached behind his neck to pull the sticky wife beater off and let it fall to the floor beside him, exposing his sweaty and flushed skin. He got into position and did the move one more time, going slowly so that Daehyun wouldn't miss anything.
"Do you see how I get into this position right when-"
SLAM!
The sound of the door banging shut startled everyone and they all looked around in shock for a moment before Junhong spoke up.
"Where did Himchan-hyung go?"
--
"Alright Youngjae," Daehyun whispered as they walked towards the dinner table later that night. "You're up. Why don't we get him to sleep in our room tonight?"
"What do I get if I succeed?" Youngjae whispered back.
Daehyun winked. "Do you remember that book Junhong got me for my birthday?"
Youngjae blushed at the memory of the erotic how-to book and looked away, too embarrassed to answer.
Taking his silence as a yes, Daehyun leaned forward and let his lips brush gently across his boyfriend’s ear. "I'll do page 27 to you."
"Jongguppieeeee!" Youngjae shrieked, running into the kitchen. "Jonguppie, sit by me!" He pulled the shocked youngster down into the seat next to him where Daehyun usually sat.
Unaffected, Daehyun slipped noisily into Jongup's abandoned seat, right next to the queen of pissiness himself.
Himchan shot him a death glare and crossed his arms. "Why aren't you sitting next to your boyfriend?"
He shrugged. "He wanted to sit next to Jongup tonight."
They both glanced across the table where Youngjae had slung an arm around Jongup's shoulders and was gently running his fingers through his hair as they giggled into each other’s ears. Youngjae murmured something that made Jongup smile shyly as he looked across the table at Daehyun and Himchan.
There was really no telling what Youngjae had said, but Daehyun winked at him anyway, leaning forward onto his elbows on the table.
"After we eat do you want to come into me and Youngjae’s room and play some games with us, Guppie?" He asked, feeling the tension rising off the man next to him.
A slap on the side of his head made him jerk in pain. "He doesn't want to play any of your perverted games, Jung Daehyun!" Himchan hissed.
Youngjae's eyes widened innocently as he pulled Jongup further into his chest. "We just wanted to play some video games, hyung. Jongup hasn't played with us in such a long time and we were missing him." He smirked devilishly at Himchan as he nuzzled his face into Jongup's hair. "Go ahead and get your pajama's on before you come and you can just sleep in our room. Our bed is big enough. It will be like our own little slumber party."
Daehyun tried to hold back his chuckles as Himchan gripped the table so hard that it jerked towards him a little, startling everyone.
"What's wrong Himchan?" Yongguk asked from his spot at the head of the table. "You look constipated."
Instead of answering, he narrowed his eyes at Youngjae's hand that was lowering from Jongup's light brown hair and trailing slowly down his cheek. Youngjae licked his lips as he smiled at him.
"Why do you two have to be such goddamned perverts?" He erupted out of his chair, shoving it backwards. "It's bad enough we have to hear you fucking like rabbits every night through the walls, but there's no fucking way you're bringing Jongup into it!" He pointed his finger at Youngjae and stormed out of the kitchen, leaving his food untouched.
Yongguk sighed knowingly and rubbed his eyes. "What did Daehyun promise you this time, Youngjae?"
"That's personal, hyung." Youngjae answered, keeping his arm around Jongup and using his other to pick his chopsticks up. "And trust me, you don't want to know."
Jongup's nose crinkled up at Daehyun. "What are you guys talking about?"
Daehyun laughed openly and reached across the table to pat Jongup's hand. "Nothing Guppie, don't worry about it. We just like riling Himchan up."
--
"Are you ready?" Youngjae jumped up and down when Jongup entered his and Daehyun's shared bedroom later that night. He had already dressed in a pair of black athletic shorts and a plain blue t-shirt and was carrying his pillow along. "I'm so excited! We can play games and watch a movie if you want! I pulled out all the movies I know you like, but if you want something else the the rest are in the bookcase!" Even though this plan was meant to push Himchan's confession along, his excitement was still real. Everyone liked Jongup and enjoyed being in his company. It was impossible not to.
Jongup smiled and threw his pillow on the floor, settling himself against the side of the bed where he grabbed an extra controller. "Thanks for asking me to play. I missed spending time with you guys, too."
Youngjae joined Daehyun in front of the game system as he inserted the disc. "How long do you think it will take him to come in?" He murmured, placing the box back into the TV stand.
Daehyun snorted. "I give it fifteen minutes before he storms in to break up our 'wild sex party'."
The three had just started their game and were in the middle of raiding an enemy camp when the door to the bedroom flew open and in stomped a pissed off Kim Himchan.
"Yah! Why was the door shut? What are you doing to Jongup that you need to shut the door for?" He yelled.
Jongup looked up at him with wide eyes. "We're just playing video games, Himchan-hyung. We shut the door so we wouldn't be too loud." He held out his controller so he could see it. "See?"
Himchan's eyes softened at the startled boy in front of him. "Are you sure, Jongup-ah? They aren't trying to get you to do anything dirty with them right? Hyung will take care of you if they are."
Jongup blushed a deep red at Himchan's implications. "N-no, they just wanted me to play games with them and watch a movie. I'm fine, I promise."
Himchan visibly slumped, disappointed at the news he wouldn't get to be a savior that night. He murmured an apology before turning to leav.
"But you can stay if you want to." Jongup blurted, his eyes darting between the three boys. "I mean, if Youngjae and Daehyun don't mind."
The two aforementioned boys locked eyes behind Jongup's head and smirked at each other.
"Sure, Himchan-hyung." Youngjae smiled, showing a few too many teeth at the elder. "You are welcome to join us if you want to. We don't bite."
"Yes we do." Daehyun smirked, pulling Jongup back down to settle against his side. "But only when you ask nicely for it."
Himchan growled at him and sat down in the corner of the room where he could keep an eye on his precious Jongup while he was in the presence of the two resident sex-crazed maniacs. He knew they were scarily possessive of each other, but he still didn't trust them around his dongsaeng.
The three boys turned back to their game and spent the next few hours forgetting Himchan was even in the room as they played and bonded with each other.
When Youngjae had let out his sixth yawn of the night, Daehyun decided it was a good time to turn the game off. "You pick a movie, Jongup-ah. We watch these all the time so we don't care which one."
Jongup nodded and turned to Himchan, smiling shyly. "Which one do you want to watch, hyung?"
Himchan's eyes widened, not expecting the boy would want to include him in their movie watching. "W-whichever one you want is good enough for me." He replied, ashamed at the crack in his voice. He couldn't help it, though. Whenever Jongup turned his attention to him he completely lost all sense of reason.
Picking one he hadn't seen before, Jongup settled back against the bed and handed it off to Daehyun.
"You can come up on the bed. It's more comfortable than the floor." Youngjae offered, popping his head over the side towards him. "Come on." He held out his hands, pulling the younger back with him.
"No." Himchan was up on his feet in a flash, pulling Jongup's arm out of his. "He isn't sleeping next to you two. There's no telling what you'd do to him when he fell asleep."
Daehyun shot a glare his direction. "We may be kinky, Himchan-hyung, but we're really only kinky with each other. We're not complete weirdoes. We just didn't want him to sleep all night on the floor when our bed is big. It's large enough for you too, you know." He turned the light off and settled into the corner of the bed, pulling Youngjae against his chest and settling his cheek on his head.
Jongup glanced nervously at Himchan who still hadn't let go of his arm. "Do you want to stay in here tonight with us?" He asked, looking intently at his feet.
Himchan gulped and nodded quickly. Jongup climbed into the bed, leaving enough room for Himchan to lie next to him.
They laid next to each other, not knowing for sure what they were supposed to do. Their legs were pressed against the other, while their hands were crossed tightly across their chests.
"Jonguppie, you look uncomfortable." Youngjae spoke up, lifting his head from Daehyun's chest. "Do you want to lie on the other side of Daehyun? He's comfortable."
Daehyun lifted up his free arm in response and grinned cheekily at him.
Before Jongup could answer, Himchan had already swung his arm around his shoulders and pulled him tight against his body, his free arm encircling his waist. "He's fine." He muttered, burrowing down into the covers.
Jongup looked up at him from his position against his side, cheeks flushed a bright red and lips parted. His hands were fisted against his chest, not knowing what to do with them.
"H-hyung?"
"Shhh, Jongup-ah." Himchan shushed him, rubbing his hand over his waist. "Watch the movie."
Nodding, he laid his head tentatively down on his hyung's chest, unconsciously breathing in deeply the scent of the boy he hadn't been able to get out of his head for months now. His fingertips skipped gingerly over the ribcage of the other, not hearing the sharp intake of breath above him at the light touch, stopping at the collar of the shirt under his palm.
Himchan waited with baited breath for the younger to relax and start to drift off into sleep before he raised the arm off his waist and lifted it carefully to the mess of hair tucked against his chin. He slowly ran his fingers through the soft strands, letting his nails scratch the younger boy’s head gently with each pass.
Halfway asleep and not alert enough to know what he was doing, Jongup started to emit a soft purring sound at the touch. Himchan smiled and continued his movements, using his other arm to pull Jongup in tighter against his body. The feel of his small, lithe body almost on top of his own was driving him crazy. He wished the boy would have been a no shirt kind of sleeper, but begger’s can't be choosers. At least he got to feel his bare skin on several parts of his body. Jongup had entangled their feet together at the foot of the bed and his hand had somehow crept under the top of his shirt, palm pressed firmly against Himchan's collarbone.
"You are such an idiot."
Himchan jerked his hand away from Jongup's hair and back to his side at Youngjae's statement. He looked over to see both boys staring at him with blasé expressions.
He refused to answer, choosing to glare instead.
"Are you going to be a creeper forever or are you ever going to man up and tell him how you feel about him?" Youngjae asked, raising an eyebrow.
"I don't know what you're talking about." Himchan muttered, his hand itching to get back its previous ministrations.
"We all know you're crazily obsessed with him." Daehyun chimed in. "It's kind of hard not to miss it."
"I said I don't know what you're talking about." Himchan insisted, feeling his heart rate increase.
"Sure hyung." Youngjae replied. "You mean you don't go jerk yourself off to thoughts of Jongup in the bathroom at least twice a day? Hmmm... Must be our imagination."
Himchan could feel his face heat up and he cringed in the bed. "Oh god..." He shakily rubbed his eyes. "Am I that obvious?"
Daehyun snorted. "To us, yes. To Jongup? Probably not as much."
"You're not going to... say anything to him are you?" Himchan begged. "I don't- I don't want him to be scared of me, or think I'm a pedophile or something."
Both boys busted up in quiet laughter. "Hyung, I don't really think you have to worry about that." Youngjae answered, shooting Himchan a knowing smile.
Jongup stirred slightly in his sleep, his body rocking even more into Himchan's, making him blush as he waited for him to quiet down before continuing.
"What is that supposed to mean?" He finally asked, letting his fingers stroke back through Jongup's tresses. If the secret was out, might as well continue showing his affection.
"It means our Moon Jongup isn't quite as naive and innocent as you think he is." Daehyun said. "He may be quiet, but he's not an idiot."
Himchan smiled softly down at the boy in his arms. "I've never thought he was an idiot."
"Then don't treat him like one." Daehyun said bluntly. "You're just lying to him and to yourself and it's not fair to either of you."
He hummed a response, done talking to the two boys about it, and smiled down at the face pressed snugly against his heart. Burrowing down more into the bed, he gently maneuvered Jongup's head to lie in the crook of his neck. The feel of his breath against his skin was the most amazing feeling Himchan had ever experienced. He wanted to stay like this forever, curled up with the boy he liked. Loved? He wasn't quite sure yet.
Jongup's body tensed from the movement and after a moment he lifted his face slightly so that his lips were barely pressed against Himchan's neck. "Hyung?" He muttered, his voice drowsy with sleep.
"Shhh Jonguppie." Himchan soothed him, pulling his body so tight against his own that he could feel every muscle, every hair, every breath in Jongup's body. "Go back to sleep sweetheart."
"Mmmm." Jongup let out a slight moan as his hand traced up the side of Himchan's neck to entangle in his hair, raising his body and lying almost flat on top of him, letting the elder feel parts of Jongup pressed against him that he never in a million years thought he'd experience.
Himchan could barely hear Daehyun and Youngjae's snorting laughter at Jongup's actions, his mind had gone so fuzzy that all he could see, feel, breathe was Jongup. Jongup, Jongup, Jongup.
On top of him, Jongup's breaths evened out indicating he had gone back to sleep, Himchan finally felt safe enough to let out a deep breath.
"You look scared to death, hyung." Youngjae pressed his face into Daehyun's chest trying to hold back his giggles.
"Sounds like your boy is enjoying this even more than you are." Daehyun shot Himchan a smirk. "We're going to sleep now. Try not to molest our dongsaeng in his sleep, okay?"
Himchan growled and closed his eyes, letting his body enjoy the feel of the younger for the short time he'd get it. He fell into a deep sleep, dreams of Jongup in his head.
---
When the sunlight was too bright to take the next morning, Himchan furrowed his brow and mumbled angry words towards the window.
A cold finger gently pressed itself against his forehead, smoothing out the lines. "Don't frown, Himchan-hyung." A quiet voice whispered.
Himchan, still deep in the throes of a good night’s sleep, barely comprehended the words. All he knew was that he was pressed up against something warm and he never wanted to move from this spot.
A loud shout from outside the door had him blinking in surprise a few minutes later. He was shocked to see Jongup's eyes only a few inches away, staring back at him intensely.
"Jongup?" He attempted to push himself away from the temptation, but was denied as Jongup's much stronger arms and legs held him in place.
"Don't get up yet." Jongup whined, a rare pout on his lips. Himchan wanted to tell him how damn adorable the look was, but he was too scared to. "You're so comfortable hyung, can't we just go back to sleep?" His bottom lip quivered as he batted his eyelashes up at him.
Not knowing how to reply, Himchan continued to stare at him in confusion.
"Hyung?" Jongup questioned, pulling back far enough to see Himchan's whole expression. "What's wrong?"
It was at that moment that Himchan remembered the horrible, awkward truth.
He always woke up with a hard-on.
Every day. Without fail.
And right now the object of his affections was pressed very tightly against said area of his body. There was no way he wasn't feeling it throbbing against him.
Gulping and trying to nonchalantly pull his bottom half away, he laughed nervously and rolled his eyes. "Nothing's wrong, Guppie. Just a little disoriented. You can go back to sleep if you want to, I won't tell anyone you were awake."
He manages to extricate himself from the boy’s tight grip and octopus legs, turning his body to the side so that he couldn't see the reaction of their night together.
Jongup sat up on the bed and Himchan practically whimpers at how fucking amazing he looks with his disheveled hair and sleepy eyes. "But I wanted to sleep with you." His voice cracks a little on the sentence and Himchan wants to shoot himself for upsetting the younger, but if he didn't get away from him now there was no telling what he would do. Especially after hearing that last sentence come out of his mouth.
"Mianhae." Himchan grinned a big fake smile and opened the door. "I have a lot of stuff to do today, so I... yeah... I'll see you later!" He called out, slamming the door accidentally behind him.
Yongguk, startled at the loud slam, pops his head out of his room at the end of the hall and raises an eyebrow. "You alright there, Channie?"
He nods and tries hard to cover himself.
Yongguk's eyes trail downward and a scoff escapes. "You're unbelievable. I just left it so the bathroom is free if you hurry."
Himchan shoots a mumbled thanks as he darts in and locks the door behind him.
Ready for another normal day at the B.A.P dorm, he grumbles to himself, turning the shower on as cold as it would go.
---
"Junhong-ah!" Himchan shouts later that morning, putting the last plate on the table. "I'm going to give your breakfast to Daehyun if you don't hurry!"
Daehyun's eyes lit up as he reached towards the unclaimed plate, hissing when Himchan smacks his hand away.
"That was an empty threat you babo." He said, hands on his hips.
"You should only say stuff that you really mean, hyung." He counters, lips curling up devilishly. "Isn't that right, Jongup-ah?"
Said boy lifted his eyes up from his half-eaten plate of food. "Huh?"
Youngjae rolled his eyes and laid his hand in Daehyun's lap. "Dae is just being silly today, Jongup-ah. Don't listen to him."
Jongup smiled, eyes darting over to lock with Himchan's. His grin got a little bit wider when he saw the elder looking at him. "This is really good, hyung. Thank you for cooking it for us."
Himchan felt a blush creep up his cheeks at the compliment. Even though he enjoyed taking care of his band mates, the fact that Jongup appreciated it enough to comment on it made everything worth it.
"Eat your food before it gets cold." He replied gruffly, turning to run his fingers through Junhong's hair as he finally made it to the table.
Jongup's smile quickly left his face when he saw the action, gaze turning sadly to his breakfast.
Daehyun rolled his eyes and shot Himchan a glare.
"Babo." He muttered under his breath. "You hurt his feelings."
Himchan furrowed his eyes and glanced over at Jongup who was staring at his bowl, mindlessly stirring the noodles around. He waited what felt like hours for Jongup to lift his head and look his direction again.
He smiled softly across the table at him, relishing the way Jongup's eyes lit back up and one of the those large grins he lived for spread across his sweet face.
"So fucking adorable." Daehyun laughed into his bowl, making some of the broth fly out and land on Himchan's arm.
"Yah! Watch what you're doing you slob!" He yelled, frantically wiping his arm off with a napkin. "You're such a messy bastard, Jung Daehyun!"
Youngjae hissed and kicked Himchan's leg under the table. "Don't call him names." He kicked him again for good measure before letting out a loud shriek. "Ow!" He cried, scooting down the table, gripping tightly onto his thigh. "He pinched me! He pinched me hard!"
Everyone looked at Jongup in shock while he calmly stuck a mouthful of food in-between his lips. He noticed the silence and glanced around. "What?" He asked, wiping the back of his hand across his lips. "He deserved it. He shouldn't have kicked Himchan-hyung."
Himchan bit his lip, trying to hold back the smile at the idea of Jongup standing up for him. The members all fought occasionally, it was only natural with six boys living under one roof, but Jongup always stayed out of the conflicts.
Daehyun, who had rushed to Youngjae's side, glared hatefully at Himchan while he comforted his whiny boyfriend. "Twenty-four hours." He spat out.
Himchan shook his head, confused.
"You have a day." He tilted his head nonchalantly towards Jongup. "Or I'm doing it for you."
"What are you talking about, hyung?" Junhong asked. "A day for what?"
"Nothing, Junhong-ah." Himchan gulped, suddenly scared of the overly-protective boy in front of him. "Just a little inside joke between your hyungs."
Suddenly losing his appetite, Himchan excused himself and hurried back to his bedroom, locking the door behind him. He covered his face with his hands and let out a muffled yell.
"He wouldn't really do that. Would he?" He questioned himself. He shook his head and ran his fingers through his messy hair. "Daehyun's not stupid enough to purposely make things awkward in the group." Himchan reasoned with his conflicting thoughts. He buried his face in his pillow and contemplated all the different countries he could move to when he was forced out of the group.
A knock at the door interrupted him. "Himchan?" Yongguk's deep voice boomed. "Can I come in? The door's locked."
Himchan reluctantly unlocked it before throwing himself back down onto his bed.
Yongguk laid a hand on his back. "Are you alright? You stormed out of there."
He mumbled a response.
A weary sigh sounded from behind him. "Is this about Jongup?"
Whipping his head around, he could feel his jaw clenching. "What about Jongup? What did Youngjae and Daehyun say? I swear those two have horns growing out of their heads."
Yongguk laughed and took a step back. "Ahhh, so this is about Jongup. Youngjae and Daehyun didn't have to say anything, Himchan. We all know it. I think Youngjae and Junhong even have a bet going over when you'll confess to him."
Himchan moaned and buried his face back into the pillow. "I'm going to have to quit the band, aren't I? I'm going to have to quit the band, change my name and go into hiding."
"What?" Yongguk questioned, trying to pull his arms back. "Why?"
"Because Jongup's going to think I'm a pervert and he'll never be able to look at me again!"
He could hear Yongguk's deep laugh erupting behind him as he finally managed to turn him over on the bed.
"I really don't think you'll have to worry about that, Himchan." He said, pressing Himchan's hands down hard into the sheets under him so he couldn't move away. "He's not going to think you're a pervert."
Struggling to free himself, Himchan only managed to pull Yongguk closer to him. "And why do you think that?"
Still trying to hold his laughter in, Yongguk buried his face in his shoulder and let out one last snort. "Because as obvious as you are, let's just say that it's ten times more obvious that-"
"Himchannie-hyung?" A timid voice spoke up from the doorway.
The two boys snapped their heads over to see a devasted Jongup, eyes wet and body slumped.
Himchan finally managed to throw Yongguk off of him and stood up, taking a step towards the door. "Jongup this isn't what it looks like." He stammered.
Jongup shook his head and backed up. "I’m s-sorry, I didn't mean to bother you doing... Doing that. I just wanted to make sure you were alright." He was looking at the floor, not trusting himself to look anywhere else.
"Jongup." Himchan hesitantly raised a hand to put it on Jongup's shoulder. "Jonguppie, we weren't doing what it looked like we were doing. Yongguk-hyung was just trying to tell me something. Promise."
Jongup lifted his eyes and Himchan was surprised to see the amount of anger in them. They passed over Himchan's shoulder to the boy standing awkwardly behind him. If looks could kill, Bang Yongguk would be a dead man.
Before Himchan could say anything to defend himself, Jongup turned and raced out the door. They could hear the front door slam behind him.
"Well it doesn't get much more obvious than that." Yongguk intoned dryly.
Himchan turned around, confused. "What are you talking about?"
Yongguk eyed Himchan incredulously before bursting out into laughter. "You still can't see it? God, I know we always tease Jongup about being stupid, but it's really you that's a complete moron. You really are an idiot Kim Himchan."
"Yah!" He yelled, smacking the smug boy on the head. "Why do you all keep talking in riddles to me? Just tell me what you mean!"
Yongguk sighed and pushed Himchan out the door. "Just find Jongup and bring him back, okay? He always goes the same place when he's upset."
The dance studio on the first floor. Himchan knew that was where he was. The studio was his second home and Himchan sometimes wondered if he would sleep there if allowed. The one in their building wasn't as large as the one they normally practiced in, but Jongup always said he preferred to dance in it over the other. More comfortable and intimate, he said.
Himchan slipped his shoes on, ignoring the hissing sounds Youngjae was throwing at him and headed downstairs. He took his time, slowly going down the stairs instead of the elevator, knowing the younger probably wanted to blow off some steam on his own for a while.
When he made it to the door of the studio he could hear loud music coming from behind it. The bass was so loud that the floor under his feet was practically vibrating. Himchan quietly opened the door and gaped at the sight in front of him.
Jongup had his eyes closed as he skillfully stepped his way around the floor. His body ebbed and flowed in all the right places, his muscles flexing tightly under his skin. He had shed his shirt before Himchan showed up and his skin was already covered in a light sheen of sweat, his arms and back glistening as he moved. The light brown hair that Himchan had ran through his fingers last night was now a matted, dripping mess plastered to his head.
Himchan felt his pants tighten almost instantly at the sight and cursed Yongguk for making him be the one to retrieve the younger. He should have known this sight wouldn’t do anything to help matters.
When the song ended, Jongup visibly deflated where he stood. His shoulders slumped and his eyes stayed clenched tight, body heaving up and down from the exercise.
A soft sob could be heard before Jongup stuffed a fist against his mouth, shoulders shaking slightly. He jumped when he heard the sound of movement behind him, wet eyes reflecting towards Himchan in the mirror.
"Jongup?" Himchan murmured, moving to stand behind him. "What's wrong?"
Instead of answering, Jongup turned his body around and clenched Himchan's shirt between his fists.
"Hyung..." He sobbed into his shoulder. "Hyung, hyung, hyung." Jongup chanted, hands shaking against his chest.
"Please tell me why you're crying." Himchan whispered, his heart breaking at the sight in front of him. He hesitantly brought his hands up to encircle the smaller boy’s waist. His hands slipped against the slick back. Letting out a deep breath, Himchan brought Jongup in tight against his chest and rested their foreheads together.
"Are you and Yongguk-hyung dating?" Jongup suddenly whispered, his breath hot against Himchan lips. "Tell me the truth."
Himchan laughed lightly. "No, Jonguppie. I promise we aren't. Hell, I can barely stand the guy sometimes."
"Then what... What were you doing in your bed?"
The tightly squeezed eyes still hadn't opened and all Himchan wanted was to look into his deep brown eyes.
"Open your eyes, Moon Jongup. Why can't you look at me?" He begged. "Please." Himchan never begged anyone for anything. Ever. He was used to people jumping when he asked for something. But Jongup was different. He meant more than everyone else. Himchan didn't mind letting his guard down since Jongup trusted him enough to be so vulnerable in his arms.
Jongup opened his eyes and Himchan was surprised at the emotions reflecting in them.
"You're angry." He stated. "Why are you angry?"
"You didn't answer my question." Jongup muttered through a clenched jaw. His hands tightened on Himchan's collar and he gulped a little, feeling the pressure mounting against his neck.
Himchan's eyes widened in shock at the authority the younger possessed. It was something he had never seen before. Jongup was always so easy going and happy that the sudden switch in his personality blew his mind.
Jongup narrowed his eyes at Himchan's speechlessness and took the opportunity to push him hard into the wall behind them. He may have been several inches shorter than the other but he more than made up for it with his strength. He stretched up onto his toes and let his nose bump hard against Himchan's.
"Answer it." He demanded, no trace at all of his normal carefree expression.
"Jongup-ah..." Himchan swallowed, feeling all the blood from his body rush southwards at the direction this meeting had taken. He loved being the one in charge, but god help him if Jongup's sudden change of mood wasn't turning him on.
"Answer it!" His voice turned dangerously low. "Why were you in bed with him?"
"He-he was trying to tell me something!" Himchan blurted out. "I wasn't listening and he grabbed me and was trying to hold me down to tell me."
Jongup's eyes closed again and he breathed heavily through his mouth. "Promise?" He finally asked, his voice breaking on the word. His eyes opened again to gaze sadly at Himchan, tears forming again in the corners.
"Hey," Himchan murmured, wrapping his arms back around Jongup's still damp back. "I promise Jonguppie." He felt Jongup slouch back down to his normal height and he smiled, brushing his lips through his matted down hair. "Are you going to tell me why you're acting like this?"
Jongup shook his head and buried his face into the crook of Himchan's neck. Himchan could feel his breath burning against his skin and it took all of his willpower not to bury his fingers into the others hair and yank his head back, licking a trail across his collarbones, down his damp chest, all the way to the track pants that were riding dangerously low on his- No. Himchan blinked away his thoughts. Now was not the time.
"Please tell me Jonguppie." God, two beggings in one day. What the hell is wrong with him, he thought angrily. "Hyung always wants to hear your thoughts. No matter what."
Pulling his head back slightly, Jongup looked up into his eyes and bit his lip hesitantly. Himchan could see his worries and pulled him closer, finally daring to lift a hand and run it through his hair, not missing the way Jongup's eyes fluttered at the sensation.
His brow furrowed as he contemplated the situation at hand. The way Jongup was acting was almost... Jealous? Could Jongup be jealous? But the question was, is it Yongguk he was jealous of, or Himchan? Himchan couldn't think of any action of Jongup's that made him worry about a possible crush on Yongguk. He was always nice to his leader, but never went out of his way to seek out an audience with him.
So then that just left him.
Feeling his heart start to beat faster and not wanting to let his hopes overwhelm him, he decided to try and test his theory out. If there was one thing to say about Kim Himchan it was that he was a master at flirting and skinship.
"Jonguppie..." He sung, letting his lips brush lightly against the others ear. He felt the body in his arms tense at the action. He gave in to his earlier fantasy and gripped the boys soft hair roughly, pulling his head back so that his face could fit perfectly into Jongup's neck. "I can't help you if you don't tell me exactly what you're thinking."
"Hyung." The voice was soft, almost pleading as small hands reached up to encircle around the taller boys neck. "S-stop hyung."
Himchan knew that it was wrong and deceitful to tease the boy like this, but god help him, once he had Jongup quivering in his arms, he didn't know if he had the strength to let him go without at least having one little taste of him. He let his grip on his hair loosen though, not wanting to hurt him.
"Tell me what's wrong and I'll go." Himchan bargained. "I'll leave and I won't tell anyone why you were upset."
"I'm not worried what the other members think of me." Jongup stated, one hand sliding down the back of his hyung's hair to bury itself down the back of his shirt. "I only care what you think, hyung." He said shyly.
Himchan grinned into the collarbones under his lips and let the hand around Jongup's waist dip forward a little, until his thumbs were passing teasingly over hipbones. Jongup flinched and the hand around Himchan's neck tightened ever so slightly.
"Are you going to tell me now? Or do I have to make you?" He threatened quietly.
"I don't want you to think I'm stupid." Jongup mumbled, letting his head drop against Himchan's. He could feel Jongup's mouth breathing softly right above his ear.
"I would never think you were stupid." Himchan replied honestly. It was always a bone of contention for him how the others always treated Jongup like he was idiot. Just because he was quiet and shy didn't mean anything. Himchan liked how sweet and happy the other always was. Whenever he was having a bad day, he knew that all he had to do was lay eyes on Jongup's ear-splitting smile and he would instantly cheer up. He appreciated that the younger chose his words carefully, never saying more than was needed. "You should know that."
"I do." Jongup agreed, but his voice still sounded shaky.
Himchan reluctantly pulled himself away to look Jongup in the eyes. "Moon Jongup." He said, gaining the others complete attention. "No matter what you say, I will never think lesser of you. I promise." He sucked his lips in as he tried to think of a way to phrase his next comment. "And maybe I would actually understand what you're having problems with. Maybe- Maybe I'm going through the same thing that you are."
Jongup's eyes widened with surprise and possibly hope before he blushed and shyly looked away. "Are you telling me that just to make me feel better?"
"Have I ever lied to you?" Himchan was offended. "To the others, yeah, I lie to them all the time. But I have never once lied to you Jongup."
They both were quiet for a while, staring intensely into each other’s eyes. The air in the room turning thick with unsaid emotions. "Hyung?" Jongup finally spoke up.
"Mmm?"
Jongup ducked his head, but didn't relinquish his hold around Himchan's neck. "The thought of you and Yongguk being together makes me angry."
"The thought of me and Yongguk together makes me angry, too." Himchan said, trying and succeeding in making the other smile a little.
Jongup swallowed and tried again. "The thought of you being with anyone makes me angry."
Not letting his emotions take him over, Himchan calmly entangled his fingers in Jongup's hair again. "Why?" He asked nonchalantly, his insides a churning mess.
Jongup refused to answer, looking everywhere but at Himchan.
"Jongup." Himchan let his deep voice show his authority over the younger, forcing Jongup to look him in the eyes again. He let his voice soften to the tone he knew always got him his way. The soft, husky voice that managed to put his victims into a trance. "Why do you not want me to be with anyone else?"
Jongup rapidly shook his head, trying to pull away from Himchan's hold, but to no avail.
"I already told you." Himchan informed him, holding him securely in place. "That maybe I knew what you were going through. Maybe there's someone that I get jealous over, too."
Jongup stopped struggling and stared at Himchan in complete terror. "Then you go first." He muttered. "You're older."
Himchan chuckled before licking his lips, noticing the way Jongup's eyes followed his tongue as it swiped across them. He bit down on the corner of his lip, wanting to see the reaction and not at all disappointed when Jongup couldn't do anything but stare, eyes glazed over at his movements.
And he knew now. He could see it. Now he knew what the others were trying to tell him all along. It wasn't a secret that Jongup had a soft spot for the second eldest, he had always chalked it up to admiration, but now he knew.
And he had waited long enough for this.
"You like me, don't you Jonguppie." He smiled brightly, pulling him back to his chest. "You didn't want Yongguk to touch me because you were jealous. Right?" The blush that spread across Jongup's cheeks was all the answer he needed. Letting his head drop against the boy's, he could almost feel their lips brush against each other as he spoke. "It's about time." He murmured, closing his eyes and breathing in everything that was Moon Jongup.
"Are you angry at me?" Jongup sounded petrified, voice so low that Himchan could barely hear it.
"On no." He grinned. "I'm happy Jonguppie. I'm so damn happy. I have been wanting to do this since the moment we met."
Jongup pulled back to squint confusedly at him. "Wanting to do wh- mfph!" His words were cut off as Himchan pressed his lips gently against his. Even though Jongup had been dreaming of this for ages, he was still in shock and didn't know what to do.
"I like you, too." Himchan whispered against his mouth, lips quirking up into a smile. "I might even love you."
Feeling his heart race at the words, Jongup finally allowed himself to relax into the kiss. He felt Himchan's lips open slightly and he followed suit, his daydreams not even close to preparing him for how amazing Kim Himchan's kiss felt. The hand in his hair dropped to grip onto his neck, the one around his waist squeezing him so tightly that he was sure he would have marks there tomorrow.
But he didn't even care. All he could think about was Himchan's body pressed against his, Himchan's lips moving softly against his, Himchan's confession still running through his ears.
He loved the feel of Himchan's soft, warm lipped pressed against his slightly chapped ones (hey it wasn't his fault that he bit his lips when stressed and being so sexually frustrated all the time was really stressful!), but he was dying for more. When Himchan tilted his head a little to get a better angle, Jongup took the opportunity and darted his tongue out.
The growl that reached his ears went straight to what was underneath his pants and he was thankful that they were baggy and not his normal tight jeans. Himchan's tongue forced his back and he let the elder take the reigns as he swept it across his teeth and against his palate. Jongup tried to keep his reactions quiet, but when Himchan suddenly switched their positions and shoved his body against the wall he couldn't stop the soft groan from escaping.
The tongue that was exploring every nook and cranny of his mouth finally relented and let Jongup's join into the fun. Jongup wasn't very experienced at kissing, he had only kissed a few people before joining the group, so he knew the basics at least. But the things Himchan was doing to his mouth were practically sinful and he was a lost puppy. Himchan seemed to understand that he didn't really know what he was doing, but he still was able to tell that Jongup wanted this just as much as he did.
Releasing his breath-stealing kiss, Himchan didn't hesitate to trail his lips down Jongup's jaw and to his neck. Dying to know what his sweat covered skin tasted like, he licked on a patch of skin before tugging it sharply into his mouth.
"Himchannie!" Jongup could feel his legs giving away under him at the feel of Himchan devouring him. Another moan flew out of his lips as Himchan continued to attack his neck with bruising force. Even if he knew he had nothing to worry about from the other band members, he wanted everyone to know that Jongup was his and his alone. And if he had to tattoo his name across his skin in hickeys, well then that was something he was prepared to do.
Jongup still had his hands wrapped around Himchan's neck, but all they were really doing was keeping him standing. He could feel his body heating up and his skin felt tight over his bones. No one had ever touched him this way and he honestly didn't think he would ever get tired of the feeling.
"Jonguppie, Jonguppie, Jonguppie." Himchan chanted across his skin as his mouth traced his affections. "Wanted you... So long..." Jongup could barely hear the words he was saying, but he understood everything he was trying tell him through his touches.
"Hyung?" His voice sounded strained to his ears. "Hyung, stop. Please."
Himchan abruptly pulled back with worried eyes. "Are you okay?" His jaw tightened. "Did I scare you? Oh god, I scared you didn't I? I'm sorry Jongup, I'm really sor-"
"Stop!" Jongup shouted, trying to shut him up. "I'm okay, really. Why would you scare me?"
"Then why'd you stop me?"
Jongup blushed and looked down shyly at his half-naked body.
Laughing at his expression, Himchan grabbed his shirt off the floor and threw it at him. "Are you embarrassed? You? Really?" His eyes turned dark as he let them rake over the body of the nervous boy in front of him. "I could look at you like this forever Moon Jongup. You're so fucking sexy."
Blushing harder, Jongup turned around and hurriedly pulled his shirt back on. "Yah! Stop teasing!" He whined.
Now that he was fully dressed, he wasn't quite as embarrassed and quickly pulled Himchan back into his embrace. "I like you hyung." He repeated the others earlier words. "I might even love you." He mumbled, squashing his face into his chest.
"Who can blame you? I am pretty handsome." Smiling widely, Himchan gently tilted his face up so that he could look into his eyes. "Now, as your boyfriend I have a few rules."
Jongup frowned. "Are you kidding me? Wait, what? Boyfriend?"
Ignoring him, he continued. "Rule number one: No more sleepovers with the other members. If you're going to sleep in someone else's bed, it's only going to be mine." Eyes widened at the implication Himchan made. "Rule number two: Stay away from Youngaje and Daehyun. Period. They’re evil. And last rule-" He leaned down and swept his lips lightly across the others. "Try not to blush too hard when I do skinship with you during performances."
Smiling (and squealing a little on the inside) against his boyfriends lips, Jongup nodded. "I think I can do that. But who's to say that you won't be the one blushing when I'm touching you?"
"Oh I know I will be." Himchan slid his tongue across the boys bottom lip, earning a hum of approval. "But if both of us are doing it, the fans might read between the lines. One of us has to stay strong."
Jongup pouted, "And it has to be me?"
"You're the one in charge here." Himchan conceded, trusting someone for the first time ever with his emotions. "I'm the one that's wrapped around your finger."
"Agh hyung!" Jongup pushed his shoulder away. "You're so greasy."
Chuckling, Himchan wrapped his arm over Jongup's shoulders and steered them towards the door. “Let's go home. You need a shower and I want to cuddle."
Before they reached the elevator, Jongup stopped. "Hyung?" Himchan raised an eyebrow. “Just... Don't break my heart. Okay?"
Frowning, Himchan traced his fingertips over Jongup's cheekbones and down his jaw to encircle his neck. "I'll keep it safe until the day you decide you want it back." He promised.
"And what if I never want it back?" Jongup smiled, knowing already that he would never not want to be with the man in front of him.
"Then I'll trade you. Yours for mine. You protect mine and I'll protect yours."
They both grinned, lost in each other’s eyes until the elevator dinged its arrival. Himchan removed his arm so that he could entwine his fingers with Jongup's. He had wanted to feel how well their hands fit together since they had first met and now that he knew the answer was perfectly, well, he never wanted to let go.
"Do we say anything to the other members?" Jongup asked worriedly as they stepped off onto their floor.
Himchan chuckled, "I'm pretty sure they've been expecting it."
When they walked in the dorm all of the other members ran out of their rooms with expectant looks on their faces. They dropped their gazes down to where Himchan still had his fingers wrapped tightly around Jongup's.
"It's about freaking time." Yongguk sounded relieved.
Junhong turned to Youngjae and cheekily stuck out his hand. "I believe you owe me some money, hyung."
Youngjae groaned and pulled out a stack of money, throwing it at the maknae's head. "I thought for sure Himchan would have held out for a few weeks longer!"
Himchan growled at the chubby-cheeked blonde and stepped forward to flick him, but Daehyun blocked his path.
"If you value your life, you will re-think whatever's in your head."
Rolling his eyes, Himchan stormed towards his bedroom, dragging Jongup along behind him. Shutting the door, he grinned slyly at him before sliding the lock closed and advancing towards the cowering boy like a predator about to devour his prey.
"I thought you wanted me t-to take a shower f-first." Jongup stuttered as Himchan's lips once again met his.
"I changed my mind. Cuddle now, shower later." Himchan pushed him roughly down on his bed before scrambling over top of him. He gently scraped his fingers through Jongup's hair, getting the expected hum in response. He had noticed that this was the one move he made that instantly made the younger jelly in his hands. "I think I've found your tell, Jonguppie." He murmured, letting his other hand stealthily creep up the bottom of his shirt.
Jongup's eyes closed in happiness. "What's that?" He asked, burrowing his head into his boyfriend's palm.
"Your happy spot." Himchan's eyes lit up in humor. "Well, your other happy spot. I'll wait a little while before I discover where that one is." He leaned down to whisper, tongue darting out to lick the shell of his ear.
He sat up to look down at the boy under him, eyes half closed, chest rising and lowering under his palms, hands clenching his shirt tightly. Already coming undone at just the slightest touches. His mind was racing with all the thoughts of everything he wanted to do to him. But later. Right now just kissing his lips and touching his skin was enough.
After all, they had only just started.
Rated: PG13
Length: 9K
Everyone could tell just by looking that Kim Himchan was infatuated with the young dancer. The way his mouth would drop slightly open as he watched the way his body moved during dance practice. The clenched fists whenever someone took their skinship a little too far with the younger. Even his smile looked pained and nervous when they were in close proximity to each other.
But what made everyone for sure without a doubt the olders intentions were the muffled moans and heavy pants they heard every time Himchan would excuse himself to go to the bathroom immediately after sharing an accidental touch with the other.
It was also shared knowledge that Moon Jongup was just as attracted to the older male. Shared between everyone but the two in question, of course. No, those two were completely oblivious to anything but their own emotions.
Jongup's affections were a little more obvious, but a little less intense than the others. He would blush when showed rare one-on-one attention, smile a little extra brighter at Himchan's embarrassing attempt at aegyo, and frown and look away sadly when Himchan would openly flirt with the other members instead of him.
They all knew it was just harmless touching. Himchan was known for being a touchy feely kind of guy, but it always made his band mates feel a little guilty when they saw the crestfallen expression on innocent Jongup's face.
But it never bothered any of them to do the same thing to Himchan. It was pretty much an unspoken fact between the rest of the group that pissing off Kim Himchan was open season.
So anytime one of them had the chance to do skinship with Jongup, they automatically jumped for it. Especially Daehyun and Youngjae, who even though they were well known to be in a committed relationship, loved to slip their arms around Jongup's shoulders, or whisper something in his ear to make him burst into peals of laughter.
Watching Himchan's eyes close to slits and his lips tighten to white was a never ending source of amusement to them.
"I bet I can get him to leave the dinner table tonight." Youngjae whispered into Daehyun's ear as they took a quick break during dance practice.
"I bet I can make him leave right now." Daehyun grinned back.
Youngjae bounced in his seat and pushed Daehyun away from him. "Do it! Do it!" He urged, shooing him along.
Daehyun casually strolled up to Jongup who was sprawled across the middle of the dance floor, drinking a bottle of water. He snuck a glance at Himchan across the room, noticing him leaning against the wall and concentrating on his phone's screen.
"Sorry Jonguppie, but do you mind moving? There's a step in the choreography that I really need to practice some more on. I'm having a bit of a problem getting it right."
Jongup jumped up to his feet, his never fading smile on his face. "Sure hyung! Do you need some help with it?"
Daehyun internally fist pumped himself that Jongup took the bait. The younger never could refuse to help one of his hyung's with their dancing.
"Do you mind?" He bit his lip, trying to look bashful. "I don't want to bother you during your break."
Jongup grinned even wider and put down his water bottle. "It's not a bother, really. I know you'd help me if I asked you for it. Besides, I don't need as long of a break as you all. I can work out for longer since I'm so used to it." He stretched his arms out and cracked his neck to the side. "So which step did you need help with?"
Daehyun purposely picked the most sexual part of the dance to claim problems with.
"I just can't get my body to move as fluidly as yours does." He whined after pretending to mess the hip roll up.
Jongup frowned. "I didn't notice you having problems with this step earlier."
"I was just moving my hands around and singing louder to over-compensate." Daehyun lied, catching Youngjae's eyes in the mirror and winking.
"You've got nothing you need to over-compensate for, Daehyunnie!" Youngjae called, grinning.
"That was more information than any of us needed to hear, Yoo Youngjae." Yongguk growled from his place on the floor.
Daehyun noticed that the remark caught Himchan's attention and he smirked at his boyfriend in the mirror. "I think we need to let Jonguppie figure that out for himself, jagiya."
Jongup looked between the two, not understanding that Daehyun's flirty sexual remark was solely meant to anger Himchan.
"Anyways..." Jongup tried to move the subject back to the dance and stood beside Daehyun so that they could both see themselves in the mirror. "Watch what I'm doing." He ordered before he demonstrated the move for him.
Daehyun played dumb and swung his hips in the opposite direction.
"No, no, no." Jongup interrupted, moving to stand behind him and aligning his smaller body with the elder's as best he could. "Do you feel the way my hips are moving?" He placed his body flush against Daehyun's and grabbed his waist to gently try to move him the way he needed to go.
Daehyun chanced a peek at Himchan in the mirror, pleased to see his scary "don't touch what's mine" face was firmly in place. You could practically see the steam emerging from his ears as Jongup and Daehyun sensually moved their hips together. The jaw was clenching and Daehyun knew it was only a matter of time before Himchan completely lost it.
"I think I've almost got it." He said, grabbing Jongup's waist, fingers slipping underneath his shirt, and pulling back beside him. "Do you care to show me what position your hips are in at the last step? Just so I can try to mimic with my own?"
Like the little trusting sweetheart he was, Jongup grinned again and nodded. "Ok!" He reached behind his neck to pull the sticky wife beater off and let it fall to the floor beside him, exposing his sweaty and flushed skin. He got into position and did the move one more time, going slowly so that Daehyun wouldn't miss anything.
"Do you see how I get into this position right when-"
SLAM!
The sound of the door banging shut startled everyone and they all looked around in shock for a moment before Junhong spoke up.
"Where did Himchan-hyung go?"
--
"Alright Youngjae," Daehyun whispered as they walked towards the dinner table later that night. "You're up. Why don't we get him to sleep in our room tonight?"
"What do I get if I succeed?" Youngjae whispered back.
Daehyun winked. "Do you remember that book Junhong got me for my birthday?"
Youngjae blushed at the memory of the erotic how-to book and looked away, too embarrassed to answer.
Taking his silence as a yes, Daehyun leaned forward and let his lips brush gently across his boyfriend’s ear. "I'll do page 27 to you."
"Jongguppieeeee!" Youngjae shrieked, running into the kitchen. "Jonguppie, sit by me!" He pulled the shocked youngster down into the seat next to him where Daehyun usually sat.
Unaffected, Daehyun slipped noisily into Jongup's abandoned seat, right next to the queen of pissiness himself.
Himchan shot him a death glare and crossed his arms. "Why aren't you sitting next to your boyfriend?"
He shrugged. "He wanted to sit next to Jongup tonight."
They both glanced across the table where Youngjae had slung an arm around Jongup's shoulders and was gently running his fingers through his hair as they giggled into each other’s ears. Youngjae murmured something that made Jongup smile shyly as he looked across the table at Daehyun and Himchan.
There was really no telling what Youngjae had said, but Daehyun winked at him anyway, leaning forward onto his elbows on the table.
"After we eat do you want to come into me and Youngjae’s room and play some games with us, Guppie?" He asked, feeling the tension rising off the man next to him.
A slap on the side of his head made him jerk in pain. "He doesn't want to play any of your perverted games, Jung Daehyun!" Himchan hissed.
Youngjae's eyes widened innocently as he pulled Jongup further into his chest. "We just wanted to play some video games, hyung. Jongup hasn't played with us in such a long time and we were missing him." He smirked devilishly at Himchan as he nuzzled his face into Jongup's hair. "Go ahead and get your pajama's on before you come and you can just sleep in our room. Our bed is big enough. It will be like our own little slumber party."
Daehyun tried to hold back his chuckles as Himchan gripped the table so hard that it jerked towards him a little, startling everyone.
"What's wrong Himchan?" Yongguk asked from his spot at the head of the table. "You look constipated."
Instead of answering, he narrowed his eyes at Youngjae's hand that was lowering from Jongup's light brown hair and trailing slowly down his cheek. Youngjae licked his lips as he smiled at him.
"Why do you two have to be such goddamned perverts?" He erupted out of his chair, shoving it backwards. "It's bad enough we have to hear you fucking like rabbits every night through the walls, but there's no fucking way you're bringing Jongup into it!" He pointed his finger at Youngjae and stormed out of the kitchen, leaving his food untouched.
Yongguk sighed knowingly and rubbed his eyes. "What did Daehyun promise you this time, Youngjae?"
"That's personal, hyung." Youngjae answered, keeping his arm around Jongup and using his other to pick his chopsticks up. "And trust me, you don't want to know."
Jongup's nose crinkled up at Daehyun. "What are you guys talking about?"
Daehyun laughed openly and reached across the table to pat Jongup's hand. "Nothing Guppie, don't worry about it. We just like riling Himchan up."
--
"Are you ready?" Youngjae jumped up and down when Jongup entered his and Daehyun's shared bedroom later that night. He had already dressed in a pair of black athletic shorts and a plain blue t-shirt and was carrying his pillow along. "I'm so excited! We can play games and watch a movie if you want! I pulled out all the movies I know you like, but if you want something else the the rest are in the bookcase!" Even though this plan was meant to push Himchan's confession along, his excitement was still real. Everyone liked Jongup and enjoyed being in his company. It was impossible not to.
Jongup smiled and threw his pillow on the floor, settling himself against the side of the bed where he grabbed an extra controller. "Thanks for asking me to play. I missed spending time with you guys, too."
Youngjae joined Daehyun in front of the game system as he inserted the disc. "How long do you think it will take him to come in?" He murmured, placing the box back into the TV stand.
Daehyun snorted. "I give it fifteen minutes before he storms in to break up our 'wild sex party'."
The three had just started their game and were in the middle of raiding an enemy camp when the door to the bedroom flew open and in stomped a pissed off Kim Himchan.
"Yah! Why was the door shut? What are you doing to Jongup that you need to shut the door for?" He yelled.
Jongup looked up at him with wide eyes. "We're just playing video games, Himchan-hyung. We shut the door so we wouldn't be too loud." He held out his controller so he could see it. "See?"
Himchan's eyes softened at the startled boy in front of him. "Are you sure, Jongup-ah? They aren't trying to get you to do anything dirty with them right? Hyung will take care of you if they are."
Jongup blushed a deep red at Himchan's implications. "N-no, they just wanted me to play games with them and watch a movie. I'm fine, I promise."
Himchan visibly slumped, disappointed at the news he wouldn't get to be a savior that night. He murmured an apology before turning to leav.
"But you can stay if you want to." Jongup blurted, his eyes darting between the three boys. "I mean, if Youngjae and Daehyun don't mind."
The two aforementioned boys locked eyes behind Jongup's head and smirked at each other.
"Sure, Himchan-hyung." Youngjae smiled, showing a few too many teeth at the elder. "You are welcome to join us if you want to. We don't bite."
"Yes we do." Daehyun smirked, pulling Jongup back down to settle against his side. "But only when you ask nicely for it."
Himchan growled at him and sat down in the corner of the room where he could keep an eye on his precious Jongup while he was in the presence of the two resident sex-crazed maniacs. He knew they were scarily possessive of each other, but he still didn't trust them around his dongsaeng.
The three boys turned back to their game and spent the next few hours forgetting Himchan was even in the room as they played and bonded with each other.
When Youngjae had let out his sixth yawn of the night, Daehyun decided it was a good time to turn the game off. "You pick a movie, Jongup-ah. We watch these all the time so we don't care which one."
Jongup nodded and turned to Himchan, smiling shyly. "Which one do you want to watch, hyung?"
Himchan's eyes widened, not expecting the boy would want to include him in their movie watching. "W-whichever one you want is good enough for me." He replied, ashamed at the crack in his voice. He couldn't help it, though. Whenever Jongup turned his attention to him he completely lost all sense of reason.
Picking one he hadn't seen before, Jongup settled back against the bed and handed it off to Daehyun.
"You can come up on the bed. It's more comfortable than the floor." Youngjae offered, popping his head over the side towards him. "Come on." He held out his hands, pulling the younger back with him.
"No." Himchan was up on his feet in a flash, pulling Jongup's arm out of his. "He isn't sleeping next to you two. There's no telling what you'd do to him when he fell asleep."
Daehyun shot a glare his direction. "We may be kinky, Himchan-hyung, but we're really only kinky with each other. We're not complete weirdoes. We just didn't want him to sleep all night on the floor when our bed is big. It's large enough for you too, you know." He turned the light off and settled into the corner of the bed, pulling Youngjae against his chest and settling his cheek on his head.
Jongup glanced nervously at Himchan who still hadn't let go of his arm. "Do you want to stay in here tonight with us?" He asked, looking intently at his feet.
Himchan gulped and nodded quickly. Jongup climbed into the bed, leaving enough room for Himchan to lie next to him.
They laid next to each other, not knowing for sure what they were supposed to do. Their legs were pressed against the other, while their hands were crossed tightly across their chests.
"Jonguppie, you look uncomfortable." Youngjae spoke up, lifting his head from Daehyun's chest. "Do you want to lie on the other side of Daehyun? He's comfortable."
Daehyun lifted up his free arm in response and grinned cheekily at him.
Before Jongup could answer, Himchan had already swung his arm around his shoulders and pulled him tight against his body, his free arm encircling his waist. "He's fine." He muttered, burrowing down into the covers.
Jongup looked up at him from his position against his side, cheeks flushed a bright red and lips parted. His hands were fisted against his chest, not knowing what to do with them.
"H-hyung?"
"Shhh, Jongup-ah." Himchan shushed him, rubbing his hand over his waist. "Watch the movie."
Nodding, he laid his head tentatively down on his hyung's chest, unconsciously breathing in deeply the scent of the boy he hadn't been able to get out of his head for months now. His fingertips skipped gingerly over the ribcage of the other, not hearing the sharp intake of breath above him at the light touch, stopping at the collar of the shirt under his palm.
Himchan waited with baited breath for the younger to relax and start to drift off into sleep before he raised the arm off his waist and lifted it carefully to the mess of hair tucked against his chin. He slowly ran his fingers through the soft strands, letting his nails scratch the younger boy’s head gently with each pass.
Halfway asleep and not alert enough to know what he was doing, Jongup started to emit a soft purring sound at the touch. Himchan smiled and continued his movements, using his other arm to pull Jongup in tighter against his body. The feel of his small, lithe body almost on top of his own was driving him crazy. He wished the boy would have been a no shirt kind of sleeper, but begger’s can't be choosers. At least he got to feel his bare skin on several parts of his body. Jongup had entangled their feet together at the foot of the bed and his hand had somehow crept under the top of his shirt, palm pressed firmly against Himchan's collarbone.
"You are such an idiot."
Himchan jerked his hand away from Jongup's hair and back to his side at Youngjae's statement. He looked over to see both boys staring at him with blasé expressions.
He refused to answer, choosing to glare instead.
"Are you going to be a creeper forever or are you ever going to man up and tell him how you feel about him?" Youngjae asked, raising an eyebrow.
"I don't know what you're talking about." Himchan muttered, his hand itching to get back its previous ministrations.
"We all know you're crazily obsessed with him." Daehyun chimed in. "It's kind of hard not to miss it."
"I said I don't know what you're talking about." Himchan insisted, feeling his heart rate increase.
"Sure hyung." Youngjae replied. "You mean you don't go jerk yourself off to thoughts of Jongup in the bathroom at least twice a day? Hmmm... Must be our imagination."
Himchan could feel his face heat up and he cringed in the bed. "Oh god..." He shakily rubbed his eyes. "Am I that obvious?"
Daehyun snorted. "To us, yes. To Jongup? Probably not as much."
"You're not going to... say anything to him are you?" Himchan begged. "I don't- I don't want him to be scared of me, or think I'm a pedophile or something."
Both boys busted up in quiet laughter. "Hyung, I don't really think you have to worry about that." Youngjae answered, shooting Himchan a knowing smile.
Jongup stirred slightly in his sleep, his body rocking even more into Himchan's, making him blush as he waited for him to quiet down before continuing.
"What is that supposed to mean?" He finally asked, letting his fingers stroke back through Jongup's tresses. If the secret was out, might as well continue showing his affection.
"It means our Moon Jongup isn't quite as naive and innocent as you think he is." Daehyun said. "He may be quiet, but he's not an idiot."
Himchan smiled softly down at the boy in his arms. "I've never thought he was an idiot."
"Then don't treat him like one." Daehyun said bluntly. "You're just lying to him and to yourself and it's not fair to either of you."
He hummed a response, done talking to the two boys about it, and smiled down at the face pressed snugly against his heart. Burrowing down more into the bed, he gently maneuvered Jongup's head to lie in the crook of his neck. The feel of his breath against his skin was the most amazing feeling Himchan had ever experienced. He wanted to stay like this forever, curled up with the boy he liked. Loved? He wasn't quite sure yet.
Jongup's body tensed from the movement and after a moment he lifted his face slightly so that his lips were barely pressed against Himchan's neck. "Hyung?" He muttered, his voice drowsy with sleep.
"Shhh Jonguppie." Himchan soothed him, pulling his body so tight against his own that he could feel every muscle, every hair, every breath in Jongup's body. "Go back to sleep sweetheart."
"Mmmm." Jongup let out a slight moan as his hand traced up the side of Himchan's neck to entangle in his hair, raising his body and lying almost flat on top of him, letting the elder feel parts of Jongup pressed against him that he never in a million years thought he'd experience.
Himchan could barely hear Daehyun and Youngjae's snorting laughter at Jongup's actions, his mind had gone so fuzzy that all he could see, feel, breathe was Jongup. Jongup, Jongup, Jongup.
On top of him, Jongup's breaths evened out indicating he had gone back to sleep, Himchan finally felt safe enough to let out a deep breath.
"You look scared to death, hyung." Youngjae pressed his face into Daehyun's chest trying to hold back his giggles.
"Sounds like your boy is enjoying this even more than you are." Daehyun shot Himchan a smirk. "We're going to sleep now. Try not to molest our dongsaeng in his sleep, okay?"
Himchan growled and closed his eyes, letting his body enjoy the feel of the younger for the short time he'd get it. He fell into a deep sleep, dreams of Jongup in his head.
---
When the sunlight was too bright to take the next morning, Himchan furrowed his brow and mumbled angry words towards the window.
A cold finger gently pressed itself against his forehead, smoothing out the lines. "Don't frown, Himchan-hyung." A quiet voice whispered.
Himchan, still deep in the throes of a good night’s sleep, barely comprehended the words. All he knew was that he was pressed up against something warm and he never wanted to move from this spot.
A loud shout from outside the door had him blinking in surprise a few minutes later. He was shocked to see Jongup's eyes only a few inches away, staring back at him intensely.
"Jongup?" He attempted to push himself away from the temptation, but was denied as Jongup's much stronger arms and legs held him in place.
"Don't get up yet." Jongup whined, a rare pout on his lips. Himchan wanted to tell him how damn adorable the look was, but he was too scared to. "You're so comfortable hyung, can't we just go back to sleep?" His bottom lip quivered as he batted his eyelashes up at him.
Not knowing how to reply, Himchan continued to stare at him in confusion.
"Hyung?" Jongup questioned, pulling back far enough to see Himchan's whole expression. "What's wrong?"
It was at that moment that Himchan remembered the horrible, awkward truth.
He always woke up with a hard-on.
Every day. Without fail.
And right now the object of his affections was pressed very tightly against said area of his body. There was no way he wasn't feeling it throbbing against him.
Gulping and trying to nonchalantly pull his bottom half away, he laughed nervously and rolled his eyes. "Nothing's wrong, Guppie. Just a little disoriented. You can go back to sleep if you want to, I won't tell anyone you were awake."
He manages to extricate himself from the boy’s tight grip and octopus legs, turning his body to the side so that he couldn't see the reaction of their night together.
Jongup sat up on the bed and Himchan practically whimpers at how fucking amazing he looks with his disheveled hair and sleepy eyes. "But I wanted to sleep with you." His voice cracks a little on the sentence and Himchan wants to shoot himself for upsetting the younger, but if he didn't get away from him now there was no telling what he would do. Especially after hearing that last sentence come out of his mouth.
"Mianhae." Himchan grinned a big fake smile and opened the door. "I have a lot of stuff to do today, so I... yeah... I'll see you later!" He called out, slamming the door accidentally behind him.
Yongguk, startled at the loud slam, pops his head out of his room at the end of the hall and raises an eyebrow. "You alright there, Channie?"
He nods and tries hard to cover himself.
Yongguk's eyes trail downward and a scoff escapes. "You're unbelievable. I just left it so the bathroom is free if you hurry."
Himchan shoots a mumbled thanks as he darts in and locks the door behind him.
Ready for another normal day at the B.A.P dorm, he grumbles to himself, turning the shower on as cold as it would go.
---
"Junhong-ah!" Himchan shouts later that morning, putting the last plate on the table. "I'm going to give your breakfast to Daehyun if you don't hurry!"
Daehyun's eyes lit up as he reached towards the unclaimed plate, hissing when Himchan smacks his hand away.
"That was an empty threat you babo." He said, hands on his hips.
"You should only say stuff that you really mean, hyung." He counters, lips curling up devilishly. "Isn't that right, Jongup-ah?"
Said boy lifted his eyes up from his half-eaten plate of food. "Huh?"
Youngjae rolled his eyes and laid his hand in Daehyun's lap. "Dae is just being silly today, Jongup-ah. Don't listen to him."
Jongup smiled, eyes darting over to lock with Himchan's. His grin got a little bit wider when he saw the elder looking at him. "This is really good, hyung. Thank you for cooking it for us."
Himchan felt a blush creep up his cheeks at the compliment. Even though he enjoyed taking care of his band mates, the fact that Jongup appreciated it enough to comment on it made everything worth it.
"Eat your food before it gets cold." He replied gruffly, turning to run his fingers through Junhong's hair as he finally made it to the table.
Jongup's smile quickly left his face when he saw the action, gaze turning sadly to his breakfast.
Daehyun rolled his eyes and shot Himchan a glare.
"Babo." He muttered under his breath. "You hurt his feelings."
Himchan furrowed his eyes and glanced over at Jongup who was staring at his bowl, mindlessly stirring the noodles around. He waited what felt like hours for Jongup to lift his head and look his direction again.
He smiled softly across the table at him, relishing the way Jongup's eyes lit back up and one of the those large grins he lived for spread across his sweet face.
"So fucking adorable." Daehyun laughed into his bowl, making some of the broth fly out and land on Himchan's arm.
"Yah! Watch what you're doing you slob!" He yelled, frantically wiping his arm off with a napkin. "You're such a messy bastard, Jung Daehyun!"
Youngjae hissed and kicked Himchan's leg under the table. "Don't call him names." He kicked him again for good measure before letting out a loud shriek. "Ow!" He cried, scooting down the table, gripping tightly onto his thigh. "He pinched me! He pinched me hard!"
Everyone looked at Jongup in shock while he calmly stuck a mouthful of food in-between his lips. He noticed the silence and glanced around. "What?" He asked, wiping the back of his hand across his lips. "He deserved it. He shouldn't have kicked Himchan-hyung."
Himchan bit his lip, trying to hold back the smile at the idea of Jongup standing up for him. The members all fought occasionally, it was only natural with six boys living under one roof, but Jongup always stayed out of the conflicts.
Daehyun, who had rushed to Youngjae's side, glared hatefully at Himchan while he comforted his whiny boyfriend. "Twenty-four hours." He spat out.
Himchan shook his head, confused.
"You have a day." He tilted his head nonchalantly towards Jongup. "Or I'm doing it for you."
"What are you talking about, hyung?" Junhong asked. "A day for what?"
"Nothing, Junhong-ah." Himchan gulped, suddenly scared of the overly-protective boy in front of him. "Just a little inside joke between your hyungs."
Suddenly losing his appetite, Himchan excused himself and hurried back to his bedroom, locking the door behind him. He covered his face with his hands and let out a muffled yell.
"He wouldn't really do that. Would he?" He questioned himself. He shook his head and ran his fingers through his messy hair. "Daehyun's not stupid enough to purposely make things awkward in the group." Himchan reasoned with his conflicting thoughts. He buried his face in his pillow and contemplated all the different countries he could move to when he was forced out of the group.
A knock at the door interrupted him. "Himchan?" Yongguk's deep voice boomed. "Can I come in? The door's locked."
Himchan reluctantly unlocked it before throwing himself back down onto his bed.
Yongguk laid a hand on his back. "Are you alright? You stormed out of there."
He mumbled a response.
A weary sigh sounded from behind him. "Is this about Jongup?"
Whipping his head around, he could feel his jaw clenching. "What about Jongup? What did Youngjae and Daehyun say? I swear those two have horns growing out of their heads."
Yongguk laughed and took a step back. "Ahhh, so this is about Jongup. Youngjae and Daehyun didn't have to say anything, Himchan. We all know it. I think Youngjae and Junhong even have a bet going over when you'll confess to him."
Himchan moaned and buried his face back into the pillow. "I'm going to have to quit the band, aren't I? I'm going to have to quit the band, change my name and go into hiding."
"What?" Yongguk questioned, trying to pull his arms back. "Why?"
"Because Jongup's going to think I'm a pervert and he'll never be able to look at me again!"
He could hear Yongguk's deep laugh erupting behind him as he finally managed to turn him over on the bed.
"I really don't think you'll have to worry about that, Himchan." He said, pressing Himchan's hands down hard into the sheets under him so he couldn't move away. "He's not going to think you're a pervert."
Struggling to free himself, Himchan only managed to pull Yongguk closer to him. "And why do you think that?"
Still trying to hold his laughter in, Yongguk buried his face in his shoulder and let out one last snort. "Because as obvious as you are, let's just say that it's ten times more obvious that-"
"Himchannie-hyung?" A timid voice spoke up from the doorway.
The two boys snapped their heads over to see a devasted Jongup, eyes wet and body slumped.
Himchan finally managed to throw Yongguk off of him and stood up, taking a step towards the door. "Jongup this isn't what it looks like." He stammered.
Jongup shook his head and backed up. "I’m s-sorry, I didn't mean to bother you doing... Doing that. I just wanted to make sure you were alright." He was looking at the floor, not trusting himself to look anywhere else.
"Jongup." Himchan hesitantly raised a hand to put it on Jongup's shoulder. "Jonguppie, we weren't doing what it looked like we were doing. Yongguk-hyung was just trying to tell me something. Promise."
Jongup lifted his eyes and Himchan was surprised to see the amount of anger in them. They passed over Himchan's shoulder to the boy standing awkwardly behind him. If looks could kill, Bang Yongguk would be a dead man.
Before Himchan could say anything to defend himself, Jongup turned and raced out the door. They could hear the front door slam behind him.
"Well it doesn't get much more obvious than that." Yongguk intoned dryly.
Himchan turned around, confused. "What are you talking about?"
Yongguk eyed Himchan incredulously before bursting out into laughter. "You still can't see it? God, I know we always tease Jongup about being stupid, but it's really you that's a complete moron. You really are an idiot Kim Himchan."
"Yah!" He yelled, smacking the smug boy on the head. "Why do you all keep talking in riddles to me? Just tell me what you mean!"
Yongguk sighed and pushed Himchan out the door. "Just find Jongup and bring him back, okay? He always goes the same place when he's upset."
The dance studio on the first floor. Himchan knew that was where he was. The studio was his second home and Himchan sometimes wondered if he would sleep there if allowed. The one in their building wasn't as large as the one they normally practiced in, but Jongup always said he preferred to dance in it over the other. More comfortable and intimate, he said.
Himchan slipped his shoes on, ignoring the hissing sounds Youngjae was throwing at him and headed downstairs. He took his time, slowly going down the stairs instead of the elevator, knowing the younger probably wanted to blow off some steam on his own for a while.
When he made it to the door of the studio he could hear loud music coming from behind it. The bass was so loud that the floor under his feet was practically vibrating. Himchan quietly opened the door and gaped at the sight in front of him.
Jongup had his eyes closed as he skillfully stepped his way around the floor. His body ebbed and flowed in all the right places, his muscles flexing tightly under his skin. He had shed his shirt before Himchan showed up and his skin was already covered in a light sheen of sweat, his arms and back glistening as he moved. The light brown hair that Himchan had ran through his fingers last night was now a matted, dripping mess plastered to his head.
Himchan felt his pants tighten almost instantly at the sight and cursed Yongguk for making him be the one to retrieve the younger. He should have known this sight wouldn’t do anything to help matters.
When the song ended, Jongup visibly deflated where he stood. His shoulders slumped and his eyes stayed clenched tight, body heaving up and down from the exercise.
A soft sob could be heard before Jongup stuffed a fist against his mouth, shoulders shaking slightly. He jumped when he heard the sound of movement behind him, wet eyes reflecting towards Himchan in the mirror.
"Jongup?" Himchan murmured, moving to stand behind him. "What's wrong?"
Instead of answering, Jongup turned his body around and clenched Himchan's shirt between his fists.
"Hyung..." He sobbed into his shoulder. "Hyung, hyung, hyung." Jongup chanted, hands shaking against his chest.
"Please tell me why you're crying." Himchan whispered, his heart breaking at the sight in front of him. He hesitantly brought his hands up to encircle the smaller boy’s waist. His hands slipped against the slick back. Letting out a deep breath, Himchan brought Jongup in tight against his chest and rested their foreheads together.
"Are you and Yongguk-hyung dating?" Jongup suddenly whispered, his breath hot against Himchan lips. "Tell me the truth."
Himchan laughed lightly. "No, Jonguppie. I promise we aren't. Hell, I can barely stand the guy sometimes."
"Then what... What were you doing in your bed?"
The tightly squeezed eyes still hadn't opened and all Himchan wanted was to look into his deep brown eyes.
"Open your eyes, Moon Jongup. Why can't you look at me?" He begged. "Please." Himchan never begged anyone for anything. Ever. He was used to people jumping when he asked for something. But Jongup was different. He meant more than everyone else. Himchan didn't mind letting his guard down since Jongup trusted him enough to be so vulnerable in his arms.
Jongup opened his eyes and Himchan was surprised at the emotions reflecting in them.
"You're angry." He stated. "Why are you angry?"
"You didn't answer my question." Jongup muttered through a clenched jaw. His hands tightened on Himchan's collar and he gulped a little, feeling the pressure mounting against his neck.
Himchan's eyes widened in shock at the authority the younger possessed. It was something he had never seen before. Jongup was always so easy going and happy that the sudden switch in his personality blew his mind.
Jongup narrowed his eyes at Himchan's speechlessness and took the opportunity to push him hard into the wall behind them. He may have been several inches shorter than the other but he more than made up for it with his strength. He stretched up onto his toes and let his nose bump hard against Himchan's.
"Answer it." He demanded, no trace at all of his normal carefree expression.
"Jongup-ah..." Himchan swallowed, feeling all the blood from his body rush southwards at the direction this meeting had taken. He loved being the one in charge, but god help him if Jongup's sudden change of mood wasn't turning him on.
"Answer it!" His voice turned dangerously low. "Why were you in bed with him?"
"He-he was trying to tell me something!" Himchan blurted out. "I wasn't listening and he grabbed me and was trying to hold me down to tell me."
Jongup's eyes closed again and he breathed heavily through his mouth. "Promise?" He finally asked, his voice breaking on the word. His eyes opened again to gaze sadly at Himchan, tears forming again in the corners.
"Hey," Himchan murmured, wrapping his arms back around Jongup's still damp back. "I promise Jonguppie." He felt Jongup slouch back down to his normal height and he smiled, brushing his lips through his matted down hair. "Are you going to tell me why you're acting like this?"
Jongup shook his head and buried his face into the crook of Himchan's neck. Himchan could feel his breath burning against his skin and it took all of his willpower not to bury his fingers into the others hair and yank his head back, licking a trail across his collarbones, down his damp chest, all the way to the track pants that were riding dangerously low on his- No. Himchan blinked away his thoughts. Now was not the time.
"Please tell me Jonguppie." God, two beggings in one day. What the hell is wrong with him, he thought angrily. "Hyung always wants to hear your thoughts. No matter what."
Pulling his head back slightly, Jongup looked up into his eyes and bit his lip hesitantly. Himchan could see his worries and pulled him closer, finally daring to lift a hand and run it through his hair, not missing the way Jongup's eyes fluttered at the sensation.
His brow furrowed as he contemplated the situation at hand. The way Jongup was acting was almost... Jealous? Could Jongup be jealous? But the question was, is it Yongguk he was jealous of, or Himchan? Himchan couldn't think of any action of Jongup's that made him worry about a possible crush on Yongguk. He was always nice to his leader, but never went out of his way to seek out an audience with him.
So then that just left him.
Feeling his heart start to beat faster and not wanting to let his hopes overwhelm him, he decided to try and test his theory out. If there was one thing to say about Kim Himchan it was that he was a master at flirting and skinship.
"Jonguppie..." He sung, letting his lips brush lightly against the others ear. He felt the body in his arms tense at the action. He gave in to his earlier fantasy and gripped the boys soft hair roughly, pulling his head back so that his face could fit perfectly into Jongup's neck. "I can't help you if you don't tell me exactly what you're thinking."
"Hyung." The voice was soft, almost pleading as small hands reached up to encircle around the taller boys neck. "S-stop hyung."
Himchan knew that it was wrong and deceitful to tease the boy like this, but god help him, once he had Jongup quivering in his arms, he didn't know if he had the strength to let him go without at least having one little taste of him. He let his grip on his hair loosen though, not wanting to hurt him.
"Tell me what's wrong and I'll go." Himchan bargained. "I'll leave and I won't tell anyone why you were upset."
"I'm not worried what the other members think of me." Jongup stated, one hand sliding down the back of his hyung's hair to bury itself down the back of his shirt. "I only care what you think, hyung." He said shyly.
Himchan grinned into the collarbones under his lips and let the hand around Jongup's waist dip forward a little, until his thumbs were passing teasingly over hipbones. Jongup flinched and the hand around Himchan's neck tightened ever so slightly.
"Are you going to tell me now? Or do I have to make you?" He threatened quietly.
"I don't want you to think I'm stupid." Jongup mumbled, letting his head drop against Himchan's. He could feel Jongup's mouth breathing softly right above his ear.
"I would never think you were stupid." Himchan replied honestly. It was always a bone of contention for him how the others always treated Jongup like he was idiot. Just because he was quiet and shy didn't mean anything. Himchan liked how sweet and happy the other always was. Whenever he was having a bad day, he knew that all he had to do was lay eyes on Jongup's ear-splitting smile and he would instantly cheer up. He appreciated that the younger chose his words carefully, never saying more than was needed. "You should know that."
"I do." Jongup agreed, but his voice still sounded shaky.
Himchan reluctantly pulled himself away to look Jongup in the eyes. "Moon Jongup." He said, gaining the others complete attention. "No matter what you say, I will never think lesser of you. I promise." He sucked his lips in as he tried to think of a way to phrase his next comment. "And maybe I would actually understand what you're having problems with. Maybe- Maybe I'm going through the same thing that you are."
Jongup's eyes widened with surprise and possibly hope before he blushed and shyly looked away. "Are you telling me that just to make me feel better?"
"Have I ever lied to you?" Himchan was offended. "To the others, yeah, I lie to them all the time. But I have never once lied to you Jongup."
They both were quiet for a while, staring intensely into each other’s eyes. The air in the room turning thick with unsaid emotions. "Hyung?" Jongup finally spoke up.
"Mmm?"
Jongup ducked his head, but didn't relinquish his hold around Himchan's neck. "The thought of you and Yongguk being together makes me angry."
"The thought of me and Yongguk together makes me angry, too." Himchan said, trying and succeeding in making the other smile a little.
Jongup swallowed and tried again. "The thought of you being with anyone makes me angry."
Not letting his emotions take him over, Himchan calmly entangled his fingers in Jongup's hair again. "Why?" He asked nonchalantly, his insides a churning mess.
Jongup refused to answer, looking everywhere but at Himchan.
"Jongup." Himchan let his deep voice show his authority over the younger, forcing Jongup to look him in the eyes again. He let his voice soften to the tone he knew always got him his way. The soft, husky voice that managed to put his victims into a trance. "Why do you not want me to be with anyone else?"
Jongup rapidly shook his head, trying to pull away from Himchan's hold, but to no avail.
"I already told you." Himchan informed him, holding him securely in place. "That maybe I knew what you were going through. Maybe there's someone that I get jealous over, too."
Jongup stopped struggling and stared at Himchan in complete terror. "Then you go first." He muttered. "You're older."
Himchan chuckled before licking his lips, noticing the way Jongup's eyes followed his tongue as it swiped across them. He bit down on the corner of his lip, wanting to see the reaction and not at all disappointed when Jongup couldn't do anything but stare, eyes glazed over at his movements.
And he knew now. He could see it. Now he knew what the others were trying to tell him all along. It wasn't a secret that Jongup had a soft spot for the second eldest, he had always chalked it up to admiration, but now he knew.
And he had waited long enough for this.
"You like me, don't you Jonguppie." He smiled brightly, pulling him back to his chest. "You didn't want Yongguk to touch me because you were jealous. Right?" The blush that spread across Jongup's cheeks was all the answer he needed. Letting his head drop against the boy's, he could almost feel their lips brush against each other as he spoke. "It's about time." He murmured, closing his eyes and breathing in everything that was Moon Jongup.
"Are you angry at me?" Jongup sounded petrified, voice so low that Himchan could barely hear it.
"On no." He grinned. "I'm happy Jonguppie. I'm so damn happy. I have been wanting to do this since the moment we met."
Jongup pulled back to squint confusedly at him. "Wanting to do wh- mfph!" His words were cut off as Himchan pressed his lips gently against his. Even though Jongup had been dreaming of this for ages, he was still in shock and didn't know what to do.
"I like you, too." Himchan whispered against his mouth, lips quirking up into a smile. "I might even love you."
Feeling his heart race at the words, Jongup finally allowed himself to relax into the kiss. He felt Himchan's lips open slightly and he followed suit, his daydreams not even close to preparing him for how amazing Kim Himchan's kiss felt. The hand in his hair dropped to grip onto his neck, the one around his waist squeezing him so tightly that he was sure he would have marks there tomorrow.
But he didn't even care. All he could think about was Himchan's body pressed against his, Himchan's lips moving softly against his, Himchan's confession still running through his ears.
He loved the feel of Himchan's soft, warm lipped pressed against his slightly chapped ones (hey it wasn't his fault that he bit his lips when stressed and being so sexually frustrated all the time was really stressful!), but he was dying for more. When Himchan tilted his head a little to get a better angle, Jongup took the opportunity and darted his tongue out.
The growl that reached his ears went straight to what was underneath his pants and he was thankful that they were baggy and not his normal tight jeans. Himchan's tongue forced his back and he let the elder take the reigns as he swept it across his teeth and against his palate. Jongup tried to keep his reactions quiet, but when Himchan suddenly switched their positions and shoved his body against the wall he couldn't stop the soft groan from escaping.
The tongue that was exploring every nook and cranny of his mouth finally relented and let Jongup's join into the fun. Jongup wasn't very experienced at kissing, he had only kissed a few people before joining the group, so he knew the basics at least. But the things Himchan was doing to his mouth were practically sinful and he was a lost puppy. Himchan seemed to understand that he didn't really know what he was doing, but he still was able to tell that Jongup wanted this just as much as he did.
Releasing his breath-stealing kiss, Himchan didn't hesitate to trail his lips down Jongup's jaw and to his neck. Dying to know what his sweat covered skin tasted like, he licked on a patch of skin before tugging it sharply into his mouth.
"Himchannie!" Jongup could feel his legs giving away under him at the feel of Himchan devouring him. Another moan flew out of his lips as Himchan continued to attack his neck with bruising force. Even if he knew he had nothing to worry about from the other band members, he wanted everyone to know that Jongup was his and his alone. And if he had to tattoo his name across his skin in hickeys, well then that was something he was prepared to do.
Jongup still had his hands wrapped around Himchan's neck, but all they were really doing was keeping him standing. He could feel his body heating up and his skin felt tight over his bones. No one had ever touched him this way and he honestly didn't think he would ever get tired of the feeling.
"Jonguppie, Jonguppie, Jonguppie." Himchan chanted across his skin as his mouth traced his affections. "Wanted you... So long..." Jongup could barely hear the words he was saying, but he understood everything he was trying tell him through his touches.
"Hyung?" His voice sounded strained to his ears. "Hyung, stop. Please."
Himchan abruptly pulled back with worried eyes. "Are you okay?" His jaw tightened. "Did I scare you? Oh god, I scared you didn't I? I'm sorry Jongup, I'm really sor-"
"Stop!" Jongup shouted, trying to shut him up. "I'm okay, really. Why would you scare me?"
"Then why'd you stop me?"
Jongup blushed and looked down shyly at his half-naked body.
Laughing at his expression, Himchan grabbed his shirt off the floor and threw it at him. "Are you embarrassed? You? Really?" His eyes turned dark as he let them rake over the body of the nervous boy in front of him. "I could look at you like this forever Moon Jongup. You're so fucking sexy."
Blushing harder, Jongup turned around and hurriedly pulled his shirt back on. "Yah! Stop teasing!" He whined.
Now that he was fully dressed, he wasn't quite as embarrassed and quickly pulled Himchan back into his embrace. "I like you hyung." He repeated the others earlier words. "I might even love you." He mumbled, squashing his face into his chest.
"Who can blame you? I am pretty handsome." Smiling widely, Himchan gently tilted his face up so that he could look into his eyes. "Now, as your boyfriend I have a few rules."
Jongup frowned. "Are you kidding me? Wait, what? Boyfriend?"
Ignoring him, he continued. "Rule number one: No more sleepovers with the other members. If you're going to sleep in someone else's bed, it's only going to be mine." Eyes widened at the implication Himchan made. "Rule number two: Stay away from Youngaje and Daehyun. Period. They’re evil. And last rule-" He leaned down and swept his lips lightly across the others. "Try not to blush too hard when I do skinship with you during performances."
Smiling (and squealing a little on the inside) against his boyfriends lips, Jongup nodded. "I think I can do that. But who's to say that you won't be the one blushing when I'm touching you?"
"Oh I know I will be." Himchan slid his tongue across the boys bottom lip, earning a hum of approval. "But if both of us are doing it, the fans might read between the lines. One of us has to stay strong."
Jongup pouted, "And it has to be me?"
"You're the one in charge here." Himchan conceded, trusting someone for the first time ever with his emotions. "I'm the one that's wrapped around your finger."
"Agh hyung!" Jongup pushed his shoulder away. "You're so greasy."
Chuckling, Himchan wrapped his arm over Jongup's shoulders and steered them towards the door. “Let's go home. You need a shower and I want to cuddle."
Before they reached the elevator, Jongup stopped. "Hyung?" Himchan raised an eyebrow. “Just... Don't break my heart. Okay?"
Frowning, Himchan traced his fingertips over Jongup's cheekbones and down his jaw to encircle his neck. "I'll keep it safe until the day you decide you want it back." He promised.
"And what if I never want it back?" Jongup smiled, knowing already that he would never not want to be with the man in front of him.
"Then I'll trade you. Yours for mine. You protect mine and I'll protect yours."
They both grinned, lost in each other’s eyes until the elevator dinged its arrival. Himchan removed his arm so that he could entwine his fingers with Jongup's. He had wanted to feel how well their hands fit together since they had first met and now that he knew the answer was perfectly, well, he never wanted to let go.
"Do we say anything to the other members?" Jongup asked worriedly as they stepped off onto their floor.
Himchan chuckled, "I'm pretty sure they've been expecting it."
When they walked in the dorm all of the other members ran out of their rooms with expectant looks on their faces. They dropped their gazes down to where Himchan still had his fingers wrapped tightly around Jongup's.
"It's about freaking time." Yongguk sounded relieved.
Junhong turned to Youngjae and cheekily stuck out his hand. "I believe you owe me some money, hyung."
Youngjae groaned and pulled out a stack of money, throwing it at the maknae's head. "I thought for sure Himchan would have held out for a few weeks longer!"
Himchan growled at the chubby-cheeked blonde and stepped forward to flick him, but Daehyun blocked his path.
"If you value your life, you will re-think whatever's in your head."
Rolling his eyes, Himchan stormed towards his bedroom, dragging Jongup along behind him. Shutting the door, he grinned slyly at him before sliding the lock closed and advancing towards the cowering boy like a predator about to devour his prey.
"I thought you wanted me t-to take a shower f-first." Jongup stuttered as Himchan's lips once again met his.
"I changed my mind. Cuddle now, shower later." Himchan pushed him roughly down on his bed before scrambling over top of him. He gently scraped his fingers through Jongup's hair, getting the expected hum in response. He had noticed that this was the one move he made that instantly made the younger jelly in his hands. "I think I've found your tell, Jonguppie." He murmured, letting his other hand stealthily creep up the bottom of his shirt.
Jongup's eyes closed in happiness. "What's that?" He asked, burrowing his head into his boyfriend's palm.
"Your happy spot." Himchan's eyes lit up in humor. "Well, your other happy spot. I'll wait a little while before I discover where that one is." He leaned down to whisper, tongue darting out to lick the shell of his ear.
He sat up to look down at the boy under him, eyes half closed, chest rising and lowering under his palms, hands clenching his shirt tightly. Already coming undone at just the slightest touches. His mind was racing with all the thoughts of everything he wanted to do to him. But later. Right now just kissing his lips and touching his skin was enough.
After all, they had only just started.