man i don't know why but i get really paranoid when i drink. last night i was convinced that someone was following me home from the bar. but it turned out to be someone who lived close to me. disregard my last post. i don't know why i try and post things online when i'm drunk. it's sorta true what i said, but it shouldn't have been posted in the ( Read more... )

boys are mean to me when we are together and i don't know why. this makes sense im my head right now cause i'm drunk. but when we aren't together they are nice to me. why do they do that? i like to think i'm a nice perosn. aren't i? why do boys teat me like shit? i wish i knew the answers to tehse questions. oh well life will go on as always =. my ( Read more... )

today at the mall i saw this lady run right into a column. then, i felt bad cause i thought it was funny. then, i thought of how i was going to post this on live journal and i didn't feel bad anymore, cause i thought it was funny again. i'm sleepy but i'm going to go to the bar anyway. i wish i had more friends that were 21.

it seems as though things are looking up for me. well that's how i feel today. it could be a totally different story tomorrow. i'm sort of looking forward to the break but not really, because it means i will be working much more than normal. so, i won't really be getting much of a break. but, on the up side i will have more money and be able to pay ( Read more... )

does anyone ever feel like they need people to hug them all the time? lately i've been needing this sort of affection. i don't know why but i just feel like i need hugs. if you see me around town give me a hug please.

anymore, i don't think there is anyone out there for me. i feel so lonely most of the time. it sucks. that's all i have to say about that.

today i found out from a friend that a guy i knew killed himself on monday. i didn't know the guy very well. i was around him a time or two. he had a crush on me and i turned him down. after hearing the news today i just felt horrilbe that i rejected him. for some reason i feel really guilty for not giving him a chance. i know it's not my fault but ( Read more... )

I realize my last post was a little creepy. Well, I didn't think it was but apparently some of you did. I received a few phone calls from people that were worried about me. Some thought I wanted to kill myself. This is not true. I was just a little depressed that night. Anyway, I'm glad to know that I have friends that care. Thanks!

today was the longest day ever (well the longest one i've had in a while). actually it all started last night when i was working on a speech presentation and needed to print out some stuff and realized that my printer was broken. so, i had to drive all the way over to my brother's apt and use his computer. i stayed up late working on the damn ( Read more... )

i feel so blah today. i don't know what my problem is. i know i should be happier with my life, because i have a good one, but something is restricting me from doing so. why can't i get excited about things anymore?