Lean a bit closer, now, I'll tell you a secret ...
But ... only if you really want to know.
(It's really not terribly exciting, mind you, I'm just whining.)
A tiny part of me (teeny tiny, mind you) had really hoped someone would ask me to Madrigal this year.... I really don't have any so called "prospects," but still ... I -- eh. It's really a bit embarrassing on my end more than anything else. Dunno why I got my hopes up. I know I don't need a guy to justify my self-worth, but I'd really like someone in my life. I'm really just at a loss for how the whole dating thing works. The two "attempts" in my life failed - one just wanted in my pants, the other turned out to be gay (speaking of which ... I wonder if he's going to make another surprise appearance at madrigal this year. Hmm.). I just don't understand. I'm nice. I'm moderately intelligent. I'm not unattractive. I'm not high maintenance. Am I just not interesting? Not 'easy' enough? A friend from home told me that I just have high standards and that's good ... that doesn't explain my complete lack of prospects though. Oh, wait, I have high school aged boys hit on me. And old guys who like to stare at my chest. That's about it. I know this is an old complaint of mine but I'm getting so frustrated. I know people from home who're younger than I am who are engaged/married/expecting ... course, I'm sure that these conditions are hand-in-hand, but ... I overheard someone that she got asked out by not the person she wanted. The only thing that entered my mind was, "well, at least you're being asked out."
I know I'm sounding very petty.
In other news ... I found a dress I'd kinda really like for Madrigal (provided I cannot find a totally awesome purple dress to go with the shoes I bought in NYC):
Isn't it pretty? Of course, I don't know how it'll look *on* me, but a few of the reviews I read were from women who were larger than me who said they felt utterly sexy in it. This makes me happy ... it's not gonna be one of those dresses that only looks good on smaller women.
(It's really not terribly exciting, mind you, I'm just whining.)
A tiny part of me (teeny tiny, mind you) had really hoped someone would ask me to Madrigal this year.... I really don't have any so called "prospects," but still ... I -- eh. It's really a bit embarrassing on my end more than anything else. Dunno why I got my hopes up. I know I don't need a guy to justify my self-worth, but I'd really like someone in my life. I'm really just at a loss for how the whole dating thing works. The two "attempts" in my life failed - one just wanted in my pants, the other turned out to be gay (speaking of which ... I wonder if he's going to make another surprise appearance at madrigal this year. Hmm.). I just don't understand. I'm nice. I'm moderately intelligent. I'm not unattractive. I'm not high maintenance. Am I just not interesting? Not 'easy' enough? A friend from home told me that I just have high standards and that's good ... that doesn't explain my complete lack of prospects though. Oh, wait, I have high school aged boys hit on me. And old guys who like to stare at my chest. That's about it. I know this is an old complaint of mine but I'm getting so frustrated. I know people from home who're younger than I am who are engaged/married/expecting ... course, I'm sure that these conditions are hand-in-hand, but ... I overheard someone that she got asked out by not the person she wanted. The only thing that entered my mind was, "well, at least you're being asked out."
I know I'm sounding very petty.
In other news ... I found a dress I'd kinda really like for Madrigal (provided I cannot find a totally awesome purple dress to go with the shoes I bought in NYC):
Isn't it pretty? Of course, I don't know how it'll look *on* me, but a few of the reviews I read were from women who were larger than me who said they felt utterly sexy in it. This makes me happy ... it's not gonna be one of those dresses that only looks good on smaller women.