RL heartache...

[jolinar773]

Dou you ever feel like breaking down? Like there are invisble walls surrunding you, geting closer and you have no way to escape? Trapped like an animal...

It hurts. It hurts so much... There's an ice-cold fist gripping my heart. Great pressure preventing me from breathing and forcing tears into my eyes, but they wouldn't come. Thread of

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[ichibanseiken]

Yeah. A sense of anxiety and impeding doom, right? I can only go by my own experience, but it comes and goes. It's usually tied to stressors that run under the surface of the current of my life (things that have already happened sometimes apply, but usually it revolves around upcoming events or a long to-do list). Two weekends ago I had one of those - and I pegged it to my mom and dad type issues, which are weighty. The anxiety can increase during PMS. It can worsen through coffee and tea drinking or any other stimulants (I avoid ginseng and guarana

[jolinar773]

Yeah, that's precisely it.
Fortunately I'm not depression-prone, because I can't stand interior lights. Alway jonly a small lamp or something not so bright, dunno why, but it just helps me relax...
And unfortunately no, I can't do any excercise or go away from the stall for that matter, but I suppose changing places behind the wheel did help a little... (I'm driving this little train for kids, you see... it goes round the whole shopping mall... like ten minutes a ride... and it's kinda fun)

Thanks for the help, very much appreciated! I'll make sure to go climbing again as soon as I get some free time! Brother's girlfriend took us both on thursday and it was AMAZING! Loved it!
Thanks for introducing me to it with Cat on a Hot Tin Roof! :)
... Because frankly at home it's difficult to meditate with all the noise and dog walking in and out of my room all the time...
Not to mention I come from work just early enough to go to sleep... *sigh*

[ichibanseiken]

My girls used to love those little trains! They would beg and beg...so adventurous, you know! As far as jobs go, it sounds tough. You have to deal with a busy environment all day long, AND kids, AND their parents.

Glad you got to go climbing. I mentioned to the girls that we should go again once the weather is bad outside; it's a good indoor sport. I got almost 3 hours of outdoor exercise, so I feel like I earned my lazy computer time :-)

[jolinar773]

Tell me about it...
I'm starting to realize I just can't work with people... they drive me crazy. Not listening to a word I say, because we have to sell these golden tickets to get bonuses and stuff, and they would really safe money by buying those, but it's like talking to a wall... *sigh*
Some avoid us by sending only their hildren with the precise amount for one ticket...
Stupid people. Never liked them to begin with...
Lone wolf my mom always says... *sigh*

Yes, I'm glad I got o try it! :) Love it! *_*
And yes again, you definitely deserve it! :D