i dont think anyone understands anyone else. i mean, if we did, wouldn't we all hate each other because we're less like each other than we thought? i dont mean to speak generally here, but come on, why does everything have to blown up so hugely? im not excluding myself, i mean, i know i do, but everyone else does too. its kinda human nature in a ( Read more... )

ok im actually dressed up today. i dont really look different that i do any other day but hey whatever. im bringing my vidcam to school from now on. i've already filmed all the boring stuff at home and at work anyways and i need some new material. well i had to start working again the other day and what else is new, its still the worst place ( Read more... )

ok i know i havent updated in a long long while and maybe i should have, but these past two weeks have been so fast and miserable and happy and slow and wuiet and loud and everything else rolled up into one huge ball of feelings. i cannot possibly describe to you what has happened in the past couple weeks. i'll just start from what happened this ( Read more... )

I'll tell you one thing, things are starting to look up after so long. the only thing in the world that ever brings me down now is my job. i hate it. i cant stand it anymore. i dont even care that i get paid well or whatever, i hate that freaking job and i wanna leave it right now. my cousin's doing a lot better, so that's really good and stuff. ( Read more... )

i wonder what would happen if something happened to one of us. i dont know why, but it just came to me. i feel really sick. why i cant just stand up to someone for once in my life? why i cant i just be a real guy? i couldnt go to hhn because my dad told me i couldnt. i mean, how lame is that? im the most pathetic in the theatre class when it comes ( Read more... )

Well today wasn't too bad at all. I got to drive to school for the first time, that was freaking incredible. i got to listen to the new sum 41 cd on the way there and listen to some queen, u2, don mclean, and even some oingo. um yeah well, i told her i liked her today. i dont like to broadcast her name on the internet so i wont, and i guess im ( Read more... )

ok today was a really long stressful day. i had to practically slave through all my classes just so after school i could be even more nervous and go get my license test over with. i passed with flying colors, so yeah im on the road now. i'll start driving to school like thursday or something. my lady was really big and really black and really mean ( Read more... )

A long long time ago, I can still remember ( Read more... )

today was kinda fun. i got a lot of stuff cleared with my dad and alex so thats really good but i'd rather be watching movies instead of being a freaking computer junkie. i still dont know who that first comment is by but im sure its not a big deal so im not gonna worry about it. i mean cmon who would stalk me? anyways yeah i had an ok day. i think ( Read more... )

you know, someone said i would make a great parent today, i dont know why that was cool, but it just was. someone else said i would be like a really famous writer or something, which made me feel really good. yesterday kind of sucked, i can admit that. i mean, yknow parent problems and stuff, yknow that same old bullshit. but hey, yknow, today went ( Read more... )