Secrets (JongKey)
The light closing of the bathroom door pushes air against his face, a plume that forces its way against his skin and breaks shivers with the cold. Blond hair is shuttered away in the cream bathroom, and his feet take steps across the carpet. It sinks with a sigh underneath him, plush yet scratchy against his callouses.
He’d be dead if they knew he ran barefoot, but he’d like to think that it’s a funny and tough part of him that isn’t supposed to be. That dirty little secret keeps him awake in the middle of the night with a smile on his face.
He sits at his desk, pulls out a piece of paper. Taps his pen on it. He’s bored and he wants to draw, but a little bright red corner in the cubby takes his attention somewhere far away and he grabs that too. It’s followed by another expanse of red, and the notebook exhales as it opens, against his face, like the bathroom door. He hears shuffling, and thinks he should probably put this away because it says Bling Bling Kim Jonghyun everywhere he looks, journal entries and scribbles and all belonging to the singer.
But as he turns further into the book, he scrutinizes the folded corners and pencil dust floating over the words, over the Taeminnie, the Minho, Leader Jinki-sshi that covers the first few pages, and then the margins evolve slowly from grey to patchy. They’re smudged and blotched and if Key looks close enough, he can see the faint outlines of Kim Kibum scrawled everywhere and places where the paper is torn from the rubbing of the pink eraser he always sees Jonghyun with. He can see little hearts and stars and bling bling, and pretty, and iloveyou in all of its informality. The sound of a flush swells against his ears, and he ignores it to focus on the shuffling of pages and scrape of dust against his fingertips. The door’s breath parts his hair as he glances upward, confused for the very first time and yet still wearing the most expectant expression Jonghyun has ever seen.
A smirk twists Key’s lips, and he puts on shoes when he goes out running in the morning because he doesn’t need two secrets to smile about.
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