Work Affairs. Chapter 6.
Chapter 6: Journal Entry 202.
Hey, Journal. I know it's been a long time we last spoke, but I really needed someone to talk to. It's been a few weeks since that night with me and Jonghyun, and we haven't spoken directly since. Not too long after, he suffered an injury and has been out of commission. I went to the hospital to visit him and we both pretend like nothing is wrong, but it still hurts me to look at him sometimes. But he doesn't act any different. We surprised him in the hospital his first day with "get well" balloons. He was really happy, which made me really happy. No matter how much pain that man puts me through, I'll never stop loving him. Seeing him really happy seems to be so rare, but it's one of the best sights I've ever had the pleasure to witness. Keke, okay, I'll stop talking about Jonghyun. I was asked to move out of our place and into a little rental studio apartment by Manager-sshi. It's just temporary, but he thought it would be for the best. Rather, it wasn't really a question. I really miss everybody and they stop by to see me from time to time, but it's not the same. I wonder how everyone is doing without me nagging them? Everyone has been over to my new place except for Jonghyun, but I expected that. They're all really supportive and I think they don't bring Jong up for my sake.. even though they don't need to do that. We don't even take the same van to our events anymore. We take separate cars and I meet them there. Me and Dongwoon have started dating, somewhat. I mean nothing's official yet, but he's taken me out to dinner a few times and apologized for the entire situation that happened before. I've forgiven him and we've began getting close again. He's a really great guy. I think I'm finally able to get over Jonghyun. I think that everything that's happened really has been for the best. I'm moving on. I hope that everything is going well with him and his girlfriend, which I think they are. I still catch him looking at me sometimes with those weird eyes, but that's just Jong. I'm supposed to return home soon so we can start working on our next comeback. Unless Manager-sshi decides to extend my time away again. Whenever the other members ask how I'm doing I just reply with a "fine," but it's really not easy being so far. I've been really lonely.. Dongwoon has been there for me and has helped me through this, but that just dulls the pain. I try to pretend like nothing is the matter, but their visits are short and far between. They visited me a lot when I first moved, but now it's just a few phone calls or text messages. Except for Minho. He's always stopping by and checking on me. I'm not blaming them, though. It's probably just because of their busy schedules. I'm really excited to be returning home soon. I hope they haven't forgotten about me already.. and if that house is a mess, I'm going to kill them! I'm sure everything has been falling apart without me. All of this time away has been good for me clearing my head, but I'm so ready to go back home.. I've been going out more with friends and just taking some time to be by myself. The bruises on my hands are finally starting to heal and the marks Jong left, too.. Okay, I really need to stop writing because I'm on the phone with Dongwoon and I think he's kind of getting annoyed at my lack of talking keke. I also need to get my beauty sleep! I wonder what Jonghyun is thinking about right now.. he used to always text me really late at night, even though he was always in the next room-- Oh yeah keke, I said I was going to stop talking about him. Alright, goodnight, Journal!
A/N: Sorry guys, I know that this is a really short chapter, but.. I wanted to torture you guys. >D And I wanted to try something different, so I hope you enjoy Key's journal entry~ I'm not feeling much better, and I was going through writer's block during the weekend (probably due to the poo feeling), but I'm still going to try my hardest to update you guys! ^^ Stay tuned for the next chapter!